random thoughts

wow, totally forgot i had one of these.. just wanted to blab a little.. really have nothing to say.. oh but i am going home!! november 14, im buying my plane ticket today.. wonder how it'll be.. anyone different.. too different? am i different? we shall see.. i think i AM a little different.. but i think once my foot touches the island and i breathe in that oh-so-dayum-humid air the old me will snap right back.. HOPEfully my old way of speaking comes with it cuz i cannot STAND it when im told i sound like a haole..

so i' m almost twenty years old and i must say.. this past year. DAYUM.. i just shake my head and smile over all the crap that has happened.. good AND bad.. who woulda thought?? can't lie and say i have no regrets, but i still strongly believe that i would not change a thing in fear that the turnout might change as well..and who wants that? i mean i've got SO much to be thankful for.. why i can't realize this everyday i don't know but the realization is particularly clear right now..

so i really don't know where this entry is headed so i'll end it now and save the confusion.. but man, even though i pretty much rambled about nothing.. sure felt good.. esta!

**DARY'S QUOTE FOR THE DAY**

"I really don't know what to say but I just fgured I should end it like this cuz that seems to be my style here.. have fun but be good!!"

so christmas is just getting closer and i feel my longing for home just getting deeper.  im house-sitting for one of the guys at work for about two weeks and i get to take care of 3 dogs and 2 guinea pigs.. im thinkin of leaving to phoenix for christmas day though to spend time with actual family.  this is supposed to be a happy time of year but i just feel homesick.. but as always.. it will pass.. speaking of "pass".. i took a drug test  few minutes ago.. not like im worried or anything but it was funny.. while i was being watched as I did the deed and had to hold my pee above my head i was like "only in the military would i be flashing around my pee like this.."  its so weird how life turns out.. i mean seriously, a few years ago if id have met my "now" self and had a talk with her.. i wouldve been like nah uh.. stop lying!  *sigh.. life.. great isnt it?

**DARY'S QUOTE FOR THE DAY**

"The man who views the world at fifty the same as he did at twenty has wasted thirty years of his life."

wow, almost a year since my last entry.. just figured id type a little something so if ANYONE reads this.. they'll know im still alive and healthy enough to sit in a chair and use enough brain to type on a computer..

i REALLY  miss home.. the holidays are just so depressing.. i get to go to vegas in two days so i guess thats something to be excited about.. im more scared than excited though.. im meeting the parents! well.. the parent.. *sigh* this shall be interesting.. take care everybody! and as always, have fun but be good!!

**DARY'S QUOTE FOR THE DAY**

When I stand before God at the end of my life, I would hope that I would not have a single bit of talent left, and could say, "I used everything you gave me."

hafa adai! and HAPPY THANKSGIVING!! or at least i hope you HAD a happy thanksgiving.. im sure it was better than mine.. mine sucked! there was no turkey OR mashed potatoes.. it was bad enough that I couldnt celebrate the holiday with my family.. then they took away the FOOD that im used to on thanksgiving.. dayum.. im losin tradition.. i had a four day weekend and it was just... strange i guess.. so much has happened and now i have a massive headache becuase of it.. i had fun and stuff but it was like freaked out fun.. gosh i just wanna go home.. i need something FAMILIAR becuase everything is just so new and different and FOREIGN over here..

oh man, im worried about my flight home.. its so complicated.. i might have to stay a day at  the airport because there's only one flight going to Guam everyday and my bus probably wont make it to dallas on time.. my friends have offered to drive me themselves but i feel bad cuz its a six hour drive.. then they'll have to drive BACK.. but i wanna go home so badly and hell no am i gonna miss a flight that  costs 2000 bucks.. ai adai.. other than that i was feelin pretty dayum good this weekend.. except for now..

oh and i met this guy from guam and hes in my squadron.. it was awesome talkin about home with someone who understood.. hes goin to vegas tho cuz he has no money.. and i FINALLY got a hold of a bob marley cd from one of my friends.. it was AWESOME.. we laid out on a blanket in the sun (they were tanning and they called me over i was like cmon, look at me i dont need a tan).. and i was so cold.. so while they were tanning i just laid there bundled up in my sweater warming up with the suns heat, but freezing from the wind, listening to Bob, TRYING to imagine i was at the beach.. ahhh.. that felt good

ok i feel like im making absolutely NO sense.. please excuse me.. im tired and kinda out of it so ill just go.. take care everyone, stay safe, and be good!

**DARY'S QUOTE FOR THE DAY**

um.. my mind is completely blank... maybe later.. ;)

ok.. i dont know why im writing another entry but for some reason.. i actually have time to do so.. so i figure... might as well.. let's see.. today i thought id finally be able to catch up with my sleep because seeing that its a saturday i could sleep past the usual 4:15.. but for some reason i kept waking up.. grr.. musta been that movie i watched last night.. the forgotten.. it wasnt scary or anything but i guess my mind was like "whoa.. movie??" cuz its been so dayum long.. oh, i was talking to one of my friends and he was askin about guam's wildlife.. i brought up carabaos and he cra@cked up.. he's like u mean caraBOO right.. and i cr@cked up.. apparently ive been saying the word wrong my entire life.. it's BOO.. not BAO.. whatever.. that was funny tho.. and i also learned about "daylight savings" over here.. ya like put ur clock back an hour.. strange.. so anyway.. i watched the movie and actually rode in a POV (privately owned vehicle) i wonder if i can still drive.. its been a while.. we hung out in the car blasting the radio.. hurried to our dorms before curfew.. today i just woke up, watched cold mountain, hung out in diana's dorm for a while, details, hung out in some friend's dorms, ate pizza, played pool, and now im here! they wanna go watch resident evil but im not into that so i think ill just go back early.. maybe call the fam.. its so weird having nothing to do.. im so used to rushing to get stuff done.. but i aint complaining.. all this freedom is TOTALLY welcome and appreciated.. i better go.. they're probably looking for me to watch the movie.. later everyone! take care, God bless, and be good!! (at least until i come home, then we can be bad TOGETHER) ahahaha.. im just joking.. be good but have fun! esta!!

**DARY'S QUOTE FOR THE DAY**

"The harder it is, the sweeter the reward.."