... Maybe I'm done ...

"what up, homies!!! well, i was unsure about this "xanga" thing, cuz i dont wanna get raped, u know...."    
       That was the beginning to my very first post on xanga (don't ask).  I can't go a year with this thing anymore, it's begun to bore me.  
       I've grown a lot this year and this could be considered a farewell to xanga.  or this could be considered me closing a chapter of my life.  the things that i've experienced that i've recorded in this "journal" are great, and i will cherish the memories that i have.  
       I've learned a lot about how change can hurt you and help you grow at the same time; it can help you move on,  help you meet new people, help you figure out what you want out of life.  Around this time last year, I was so petrified of change, but now I see that through the bad change there are better things that come out of it. 

For thinkers, lovers, peace makers, livers (as in people, not organs) writers, dreamers...I'm finally on my way to finding myself.  Hopefully I'll find faith again; hopefully most of my questions will have answers; hopefully I can stay happy and learn to be happy and learn to be selfless.  Until then, I'll take the changes and their setbacks.      

I'll still comment.  love you all so dearly....

"Always and forever" Catherine

I went on a field trip today.  I traveled by train track. 

  I went alone, but I was a little scared and confused

...because fishing is my life....

this weekend i had so much fun!! i went to prom and danced with all my buddies and my hoe caitlin (my lil pumpkin) tehe. then i met a couple new people (some of holly's friends).  They are so hilarious!! We were in the Franke's parking lot and almost got jumped by this guy with a bat, we had a dance party in robby's car and looked at silly cartoons at Kaitlin's work.  so yeah, now it's sunday, i have to do hw  but o well. 

school is almost over!!! sweet.

a sigh

a kiss

pleasantly speechless

....i'm as happy as a kid in a candy store!  i know what ur thinking, i shouldn't be eating candy, but this kind of candy is good for me; it's extremely sweet, but it wont give me cavities, it's original, and i'm perfectly content.  everytime i see this candy, it makes me happy.   (try and figure it out hehe)

as for something else....tisk tisk
Garden of Evil
A rusty gate slowly creeks open as I enter this garden of evil.
The first thing I see is a crumbled fountain in the middle of all the dry, shriveled flowers and rotting trees.
The fountain used to have the purest water sprouting from the top and flowing smoothly down the sides;
But then I witnessed the water turning brown and the highest point of this marble sculpture began to lean under the pressure of demons; 
those conniving feelings of jealousy flew around the flourishing plants and whispered poison into their centers;
This poison, it spread itself amongst the ivy covered walls and the once soft soil that is now brittle.
You didn't see this evil happening though, I guess the demons got you, too.
And your heart is decaying rapidly, closing me out, just like the gate that leads to the garden of evil.
This place makes me feel guilty, the light around it is gray and cloudy; it grows darker every second.
And I swiftly walk away for this isn't fair to me;
My eyes are not weighed down anymore and I can finally see.