Alright, today I did pretty good. Today was also my first day of school! College is great! The girls here are so pretty though. Good thinspiration. I am really on the hunt for a guy to spend some time with. I know I just got out of a three year relationship, and I don't want to settle down, but I do want someone to spend a little bit of time with. Someone to keep me company when I am feeling lonely. There's a cute guy that lives in the apartment across from mine, but I haven't met him yet, just saw him walk by earlier. Alright ladies, I'll update later!

Okay gals, for anyone who still checks up on this site...I'm back!!

Life has tossed me a few tough obsticals this past month. Since my last update, Shawn and I have broken up. I know, its sad and tough and lonely, but I also think it was the best thing for us. We were about to hit our 3 year anniversary together and about to move in together and neither one of us had experienced anything but each other. He was my first love and my high school sweetheart. Him and I are still good friends, we go to lunch and hang out with our mutual friends. I've also transfered branches with the bank I work for. I have been at my new branch about 2 weeks.Its a big change. I had worked at my old branch 2 years and now I am starting all over. The people are great at this new branch, but I can't seem to not miss my other. And for the biggest news...I am officially living on my own. I moved into my apartment August 18. I never realized living on your own is so difficult. I've had a few friends come by and I've tried to keep myself busy, but I can't help but to be a little lonely. So, as you can tell, I have quite a few obsticals to overcome right now, so thats why I came back to you guys. I seem to have strength when I have support.
As for my weight, I haven't eaten as well as I need to this past month, but I haven't gained at all either. I am starting back today and slowly easing back into this. I still want to lose about 25 pounds. I hope that now that I am living on my own I can control my diet a lot better, I won't be able to keep junk in the house. Ok gals...I am so glad to be back and I will update later with my intake! Love ya'll!!

I was thinking about going protected, but you can only add 10 ppl and I love too many of ya'll to even try to pick, so I am just going to continue with my normal posts. I have been thinking about posting pictures (without my face of course)...

Alright, this morning I weighed in at 172.5lbs. Not too bad.

I have found my new favorite form of exercise, going out on Thursday, Friday and Saturday night and dacing like crazy in the club for 3 hours. I wonder how many calories that burns? I have been real lazy about my workouts and my eating routine, but I think its just because I haven't been coming to Xanga and keeping up with it, so here I am this morning, eager to start back my routine. Luckily, I didn't gain anything from my temporary insanity, but I still need to lose about 12.5lbs more. I feel like I have been teter-totering the 170-175 area for a month and its just a tad ridiculous. Time to buckle down. I have 3 weeks until MOVE DAY.

Goals for today:
Set up a budget for myself
Do laundry
Clean out car

Planned Intake
B:Frapaccino Light (140 calories)
S: SF jello pudding (60 calories)
L: a little Chinese Food at Lunch w/manager (250 calories??)
S: SF popcicle (15 calories)
D: Crunchy Fresco Taco (150 calories)
TOTAL: 615

We are going out again tonight. I love going to clubs, which is something I never thought I would enjoy. I enjoy it because I get to dress up in my cute heels and jewelry and dance my little heart out, usually for free because "ladies get in free". I think it's also an ego-boost, because guys aren't afraid to hit on you and tell you how gorgeous you look. Anyway, I'll update later!

 

I have a confession...I gave up. I was tired of counting every bite I put into my body and counting every calorie I burn while working out. It was exhausting, and I was just tired. Friday, Saturday and Sunday I spent time with friends eating whatever I wanted and drinking like a fish. I also spent a lot of time with other guys without Shawn being around at clubs and at parties. I got a lot of attention from guys about the weight I've lost or about how good I look. I was feeling so GOOD about myself. Then, Monday, the weekend party ended and I stepped on the scale. I was 176. What happened? I was SO MAD at myself. I thought a lot on Monday and decided maybe I should try to diet "normally", on like a 1100 calorie a day diet. I tried that yesterday, but it just didn't feel right. After lots of thinking last night, I decided I can't leave ana. I am too far in now. My mind made me think I could be happy without it, BUT I CAN'T. I guess I have to be in control and more than that, I need to be perfect.

So today I start again, or put myself back on track.
I weighed in this morning at 173lbs

Intake
1/3 kolache (given to be my a co-worker)
water
diet pill
diet coke

workout plan
15 min stairstepper (120 calories burned)
20 min elliptical (205 calories burned)
20 minute strength training (abs, back and legs)
10 min walking (70 calories burned)

I am so glad to be back ladies...you guys don't even understand. I hope none of ya'll are upset with me for my temporary "leave of absence". Please leave me comments! Love you all!