if_i_could_be_like_ana's Xanga

Tuesday, August 23, 2005

Tue, 23 Aug 2005 00:02:57 GMT

Alright, today I did pretty good. Today was also my first day of school! College is great! The girls here are so pretty though. Good thinspiration. I am really on the hunt for a guy to spend some time with. I know I just got out of a three year relationship, and I don't want to settle down, but I do want someone to spend a little bit of time with. Someone to keep me company when I am feeling lonely. There's a cute guy that lives in the apartment across from mine, but I haven't met him yet, just saw him walk by earlier. Alright ladies, I'll update later!

Saturday, August 20, 2005

Sat, 20 Aug 2005 13:51:57 GMT

Okay gals, for anyone who still checks up on this site...I'm back!!

Life has tossed me a few tough obsticals this past month. Since my last update, Shawn and I have broken up. I know, its sad and tough and lonely, but I also think it was the best thing for us. We were about to hit our 3 year anniversary together and about to move in together and neither one of us had experienced anything but each other. He was my first love and my high school sweetheart. Him and I are still good friends, we go to lunch and hang out with our mutual friends. I've also transfered branches with the bank I work for. I have been at my new branch about 2 weeks.Its a big change. I had worked at my old branch 2 years and now I am starting all over. The people are great at this new branch, but I can't seem to not miss my other. And for the biggest news...I am officially living on my own. I moved into my apartment August 18. I never realized living on your own is so difficult. I've had a few friends come by and I've tried to keep myself busy, but I can't help but to be a little lonely. So, as you can tell, I have quite a few obsticals to overcome right now, so thats why I came back to you guys. I seem to have strength when I have support.
As for my weight, I haven't eaten as well as I need to this past month, but I haven't gained at all either. I am starting back today and slowly easing back into this. I still want to lose about 25 pounds. I hope that now that I am living on my own I can control my diet a lot better, I won't be able to keep junk in the house. Ok gals...I am so glad to be back and I will update later with my intake! Love ya'll!!

Wednesday, August 03, 2005

Wed, 03 Aug 2005 14:48:39 GMT

I was thinking about going protected, but you can only add 10 ppl and I love too many of ya'll to even try to pick, so I am just going to continue with my normal posts. I have been thinking about posting pictures (without my face of course)...

Friday, July 29, 2005

Fri, 29 Jul 2005 15:02:45 GMT

Alright, this morning I weighed in at 172.5lbs. Not too bad.

I have found my new favorite form of exercise, going out on Thursday, Friday and Saturday night and dacing like crazy in the club for 3 hours. I wonder how many calories that burns? I have been real lazy about my workouts and my eating routine, but I think its just because I haven't been coming to Xanga and keeping up with it, so here I am this morning, eager to start back my routine. Luckily, I didn't gain anything from my temporary insanity, but I still need to lose about 12.5lbs more. I feel like I have been teter-totering the 170-175 area for a month and its just a tad ridiculous. Time to buckle down. I have 3 weeks until MOVE DAY.

Goals for today:
Set up a budget for myself
Do laundry
Clean out car

Planned Intake
B:Frapaccino Light (140 calories)
S: SF jello pudding (60 calories)
L: a little Chinese Food at Lunch w/manager (250 calories??)
S: SF popcicle (15 calories)
D: Crunchy Fresco Taco (150 calories)
TOTAL: 615

We are going out again tonight. I love going to clubs, which is something I never thought I would enjoy. I enjoy it because I get to dress up in my cute heels and jewelry and dance my little heart out, usually for free because "ladies get in free". I think it's also an ego-boost, because guys aren't afraid to hit on you and tell you how gorgeous you look. Anyway, I'll update later!

Wednesday, July 27, 2005

Wed, 27 Jul 2005 15:02:06 GMT

I have a confession...I gave up. I was tired of counting every bite I put into my body and counting every calorie I burn while working out. It was exhausting, and I was just tired. Friday, Saturday and Sunday I spent time with friends eating whatever I wanted and drinking like a fish. I also spent a lot of time with other guys without Shawn being around at clubs and at parties. I got a lot of attention from guys about the weight I've lost or about how good I look. I was feeling so GOOD about myself. Then, Monday, the weekend party ended and I stepped on the scale. I was 176. What happened? I was SO MAD at myself. I thought a lot on Monday and decided maybe I should try to diet "normally", on like a 1100 calorie a day diet. I tried that yesterday, but it just didn't feel right. After lots of thinking last night, I decided I can't leave ana. I am too far in now. My mind made me think I could be happy without it, BUT I CAN'T. I guess I have to be in control and more than that, I need to be perfect.

So today I start again, or put myself back on track.
I weighed in this morning at 173lbs

Intake
1/3 kolache (given to be my a co-worker)
water
diet pill
diet coke

workout plan
15 min stairstepper (120 calories burned)
20 min elliptical (205 calories burned)
20 minute strength training (abs, back and legs)
10 min walking (70 calories burned)

I am so glad to be back ladies...you guys don't even understand. I hope none of ya'll are upset with me for my temporary "leave of absence". Please leave me comments! Love you all!

Friday, July 22, 2005

Fri, 22 Jul 2005 16:23:04 GMT

Okay, after I came off the fast, I had a tiny binge. I am back up to 171.5lbs this morning. I am debating whether or not to fast again to get back into the 160's or just take it slower. I think the safest thing to do, with the weekend coming up, is just to restrict my calories. I think if I attempt to fast on the weekend it will just end in a horrible binge.

Okay, I got this idea from xxx_anathinspiration_xxx...I am going to make meal plans for anyone to use that are all under 500 calories for a day. Sometimes I'll try to have themes from them, like "if you eat fast food" or "if you eat more in the evenings".

Today I have 2 Meal Plans:

B: Dannon Lite n' Fit w/Fiber Yogurt (70 calories)
L: Healthy Choice Frozen Meal :Chicken w/Mashed Potatoes (190 calories)
D: Grilled Chicken Salad from Subway w/ Fat Free Italian (165 calories)
Snacks: Blue Bell SF bullets (15 calories)
Jello SF chocolate pudding (60 calories)
TOTAL: 500 calories

This is a good one because you get some yummy ice cream but still stay in your limits:

B: Lite and Healthy Tropicana Orange Juice 8 oz (50 calories)
L: Taco Bell Fresco Style Taco (150 calories)
D: Turkey Breast Wrap from Subway (190 calories)
Snacks: Dreyers No fat/No sugar added Vanilla Ice Cream 1/2 cup (90 cals)
TOTAL: 480 calories

Tell me if these meal plans seem to be useful or informative to any of you and if so, I'll keep posting them. Also, if there is anything else you gals would like to see me post about, just let me know!

EDIT
Okay, I am a very logical person. I need a plan for everything. Well, I have 4 weeks until I move in to my apartment. I still want to lose at least 16lbs, which means I need to lose 4lbs a week. That means all these silly binges are going to have to stop and I am going to have to start fasting weekly. Here's what I am thinking:
Daily Calorie Intake: No More than 600 a Day
Calories Burned a Day: Between 350-600
Fast Weekly: at least for 36 hours
I think with this plan, I should be able to lose 16lbs easily. I have a short period of time, so I HAVE to focus and get this done!

Thursday, July 21, 2005

Thu, 21 Jul 2005 15:08:50 GMT

Okay gals, I ended my fast at 63hrs. I woke up this morning and stood up and I swear it took at least a min for the tunnel vision to go away. Since I had to come to work, I decided it was probably best if I ate something. God knows we don't need me colapsing at work again. I want to keep my calories low today though, under 500.

I weighed in this morning at 169lbs! I haven't seen my weight in the 160's since at least last summer! I'm afraid that since I ended my fast, I will probably go back up to 170 or 171, but that won't be too hard to get back off.

Intake
Light and Healthy Orange Juice 1 cup (50 calories)
1/2 SF pudding (30 calories)
Water
Turkey Wrap from Subway (200 calories)
Diet Pepsi
10 Pretzels (40 calories)
PLANNED FOR DINNER: Grilled Chicken Salad w/ Fat Free Italian (160 calories)
PLANNED FOR DESSERT: SF popcicle (15 calories)
TOTAL: 495

Workout Plan
45 min of cardio (burning at least 400 calories)
30 min of weight training (115 calories burned)
10 min pilates for abs (50 calories burned)
TOTAL BURNED: 565

PLANNED OVER TOTAL FOR THE DAY: -70

I really don't feel too well today coming off of that fast. It might also be because I haven't taken a Dexatrim today yet either, and my body has become quite dependent on those too.

Wednesday, July 20, 2005

Wed, 20 Jul 2005 13:57:10 GMT

I LOVE FASTING!

I weighed this morning at 172lbs. How nice to see that number! That's 3lbs down fro yesterday and 4.5lbs down from Monday, which seems CRAZY. I hope my scales not broken. But I really believe the only reason my scale even said 176.5 on Monday was because I had just started my period and I ate bad, which caused water weight. Whatever the case, 172lbs is a much better number, but I would like to see it much lower.

It's almost 9am and I am at about 40hrs on my fast and still going strong.

I am trying to figure out what I am going to go do on my lunch break to keep me from eating. I would just skip my lunch break, but I go crazy here if I don't take an hour break from my crazy job. Hmm...what could I go do?

Just to share a little from my personal life...since I am moving into my new apartment August 18 and I start school August 22, I had to find a bank branch (if you guys don't know, I'm a bank teller) closer to where I'll be lving and going to school. Well I got hired at a new branch earlier this week. I am very excited, but nervous at the same time. I start August 1, which means I will have a nice 40 min drive to work everyday while I'm still living at home with my parents. But once I move into my apartment, it will only be about a 10 min drive. My life is changing so much, at times its quite overwhelming. Okay, but the whole point of this story is to help you guys understand I guess, why I want to lose the weight. I am having the opportunity to change almost every aspect of my life, with the exception of a few things like my family and boyfriend, and its something I can't let pass me by. I don't want to go into all these new experiences as the same person, looking, acting and thinking as I have all my life. I want to be different than what I am now. And I will be!

Today's Plan
Continue fasting
30 minutes cardio (burning at least 250 calories)
3 dexatrims
6 bottles of water (which equal about 9 1/2 glasses of water)

Fresh Tomato Salad
A simple blend brings out the succulent flavor of early summer tomatoes.

Ingredients:

6 medium tomatoes, chopped
1 small red onion, chopped
1 small seedless cucumber, peeled and chopped
1 bunch arugula, torn in bite-size pieces
1/2 cup chopped fresh basil
1/4 cup whole black olives
2 teaspoons olive oil
1 1/2 tablespoons red wine vinegar

Directions:
1.In a large serving bowl, mix together tomatoes, onion, cucumber, arugula, basil and olives. Make a dressing of the olive oil, vinegar and 2 tablespoons water; add salt and freshly ground black pepper to taste. Add dressing to bowl and toss

Servings:

6 servings.

Per Serving:

64 calories
8 g carbohydrate
2 g fat
2 g protein
98 mg sodium

Tuesday, July 19, 2005

Tue, 19 Jul 2005 16:17:08 GMT

Good Morning! I am down 1.5lbs from yesterday, which means that extra 1.5lbs was from me starting my period and water weight from eating bad all weekend. I am trying to fast today, but I am not really worrying about it too much. We will see how I feel as the day goes by.

As of 11:00am, 18hrs fasting (with only neg calories)

Intake
5 mini-carrots
water
dexatrim

workout plan
45 min cardio (burn at least 400 calories)
Full Body Strength Training (1 - 1 1/2 hrs)

Hopefully I will stick to this plan. I'm not going to the gym to workout until about 6:45 tonight, which means I will workout straight through dinner and not get out of the gym until at least 8:30, putting me home at about 9:00pm. Sweet!

What I have to Share Today...

Whole Wheat Pancakes
2 cups whole wheat flour
2 cups skim milk
1/3 cup egg substitute
1/4 cup applesauce
2 tablespoons SPLENDA
2 teaspoons baking powder
1 teaspoon baking soda
1/2 teaspoon salt

Combine all ingredients and mix well. Heat a large nonstick skillet over medium-low heat until hot. Pour batter on skillet 1/3 cup at a time making sure edges don't touch. Cook until golden brown and bubbles appear on top of the pancakes. Flip and continue cooking until other side is golden brown.

Each pancake only has 80 calories. This is great if you are really craving pancakes, but need to save some calories!

EDIT
I hit 24 hours on my fast. That always seems to be the hardest hurdle to get over, but I made it. Let's see if I can make it past 40hrs, which is the longest I've ever fasted. Please keep me motivated!

Monday, July 18, 2005

Mon, 18 Jul 2005 13:52:58 GMT

ERR...another weekend binge. Morning weigh in 176.5lbs. I am PISSED! Okay, I officially have 35 days until my first day of college. It is time to buckle down. I have really been slacking lately, sneaking cookies and weekend binges. That's not helping me. New goals:

Lose 15lbs by August 22.
Drink at least 90oz of water everyday.
Low carb intake.
30-45min cardio EVERYDAY.
Under 500 calories a day.

Planned Intake
B: Water
L: Open Faced Tuna Sandwich (155 calories)
S: Carrots (30 calories)
D: Chicken and peppers (230 calories)
TOTAL: 415 calories/9g carbs

Girls, I really need all of your support right now. Please keep me motivated! I need this so bad, I need to be different when I start college. I am so sick of being the 'chubby girl'. I know I have the willpower to do this. I have already lost 15lbs, I can keep going.

EDIT
Ate about 500 calories today
Burned 600 calories at the gym doing 1hr of cardio. It was GREAT!
TOTAL: -100 YAY!
Feels great to be back on track. I have found something that helps me. Workout at dinnertime. I ate at 4:30pm and then went to my meeting and then to the gym. I didn't leave the gym until 9pm, which by then I was too tired and it was too late to eat. Awesome. Depending on how I feel in the morning, I may fast. We will see. I always do well on fasts when I start them in the afternoon. I'll let ya'll know tomorrow what I'm doing. Thanks for all the comments. they mean so much to me!!