i hate hate hate hate this

i think i just need to go to fiji for a while.

just to go away.

so. i keep doing this.

i have this habit. of doing the same things over and over again. and each time i do it. i promise myself i wont ever do it again.

i'm so great at lying to myself.

well. its been a while.

that was probably the longest i've ever gone without updating my xanga.

and. thats pretty sad.

a lot of new things. like. a boy. a new job. new relationship with Jesus. new outlook on life. new perspective. new rules.

i like it.

mer.join in this celebration of life.fitz

mmmm. he is incredible.