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Name: Jennifer
Birthday: 9/6/1986
Gender: Female
Interests: the One and Only CHRIST Jesus. gymnastics. coaching. football. mavs. being outside. stars. workin out. writing. DBU. reading. dancing. laughing. loving. youuuuuuu.
Expertise: Rainbow Brite... yup, that's me. :)
Occupation: Other
Industry: Other
Message: message me
AIM:  UR iFeR iFiC 333
Member Since:
1/14/2004
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| my best friend, Jessica Ilse, is getting married tomorrow to another one of my good friends, Phil "of the future" Nixon.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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| I like[d] the feel of your name on my lips
And I like[d] the sound of your sweet gentle kiss
The way that your fingers [ran] through my hair
And how your scent lingers even when your not there
And I like the way your eyes dance when you laugh
And how you enjoy your two hour bath
And how you convinced me to dance in the rain
With everyone watching like we were insane
But I love the way you love[d] me
Strong and wild
Slow and easy
Heart and soul
So completely
I love the way you love[d] me
- John Michael Montgomery | | |
| Just Another One of Those Days That Defines the Rest of Your Life
10:52pm Tuesday, Jan 30
have you ever sensed that the day ahead of you will become increasingly significant? maybe it was a vague, distant warning... one which appears almost unable to contain its excitement... one that strains to hold back a marvelous secret. maybe you choose to ignore it, assuming you were never meant to be a person of any noteworthy purpose. perhaps this sensation was simply a creation of your own mind, possibly a subconscious or borderline-conscious wish. you try to think yourself out of it, but admittedly it sticks with you throughout the day- a day which reaches a couple of precious high points, presents you with too many questions, contains a bit of luck, offers you a considerable amount of unfortunate incidents and frustrations, includes important decisions, reveals the tiniest corner of an answer, finds you in one of your lowest moments weeping all alone and praying aloud through sobs because your mind within is already too full to support the weight of your plea on its own, warms you for a single transcendent moment lit with the beauty of truth, and silences you in a state of silent reflection and desire. you sit and wonder what ever became of that call to significance... that small but distinct voice that you eventually submitted to calling "divine." your prior fears of its imaginary nature come rushing back to you and the possibility that this is just another day-another wasted, meaningless day-crashes down on you like an anvil. this happens not only because you've felt it repeatedly, but also because of the added disappointment found in the fact that you've battled and surrendered to the belief that today was going to be unique. and in the midst of hope's rapid descent...
you stop abruptly. you slowly began to relax the tension that had emcompassed your whole self as you realize that your faith, your beliefs, your affections, your dedications, your thoughts, your words, your intellegence, your efforts to mature, your passions and loves and mesmerizing emotions... all of these are not, in fact, futile. as relief and a full-body smile (i'll explain if you ask) overcome you, you recognize that today WAS a special day after all..a defining and notable succession of hours. not because you met your future husband. not because you stumbled across any particular fortune. its transforming significance can only be located deep under its surface... where life and truth collide. today, i lived. it is a wonder just to exsist, a marvel simply to think and feel and breathe, and a mystery still to be able to LIVE... to experience and contemplate and act in our Creator's universe with such intensity and exhilaration. surely this is the purpose God had in store for me when He whispered those hints of importance to me from this morning til now- not that i would have the opportunity to dwel in the splendor of a single significant event, but that today He would call me to live life and live it fully. He has done this every day, and often i have been incapable of recognizing this call to live life as an end in itself rather than the means to some unknown purpose. yet at times such as this, i find myself indescribably thankful for the opportunity to experience and learn and grow through the best and the worst of each day, as well as everything in between, for truly EVERYTHING is considered eternally valuable, from the smallest drop of dew on the grass to the undeniably powerful sunset viewed from the front of the Mahler overlooking the lake. | | |
| "The Lord's laws are perfect
reviving my soul
they are changing my spirit
and making me whole.
There are rewards
for those who obey."
-No Other Name
"Up in the attic...down on my knees
Lifetimes of boxes... timeless to me.
Letters and photographs... yellowed with years.
Some bringing laughter... some bringing tears.
Time never changes the memories, the faces of loved ones
who bring to me...
All that i come from, and all that i live for.. and all that i'm going to be
My precious family is more than an heirloom to me.
Wisemen and shepherds, down on their knees
bringing their treasures to lay at His feet.
Who was this wonder? Baby, yet King.
Living and dying [and resurrecting], He gave life to me!
Time never changes the memory, the moment His love first pierced through me.
Telling all that i come from, and all that i live for, and all that i'm going to be...
My Precious Savior is more than an heirloom to me.
My Precious Jesus is more than an hierloom to me."
-Amy Grant
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| i love my family so much it hurts, and that pain sometimes causes me react in ways that i regret. :( but i love them way more than i ever realized. i was driving back to school today by myself, which is something i haven't been able to do in a while, and "Mary Did You Know?" came on. when it said "and when you kiss your little baby, you've kissed the face of God" i pretty much burst into tears. it was actually really weird and took me by surprise, but then i kind of had a relapse of that moment when it then said "the sleeping child you're holding is the great I AM." granted, those are kind of climaxes in the song, especially the latter, but that whole song just got me. great great song. i've sung it many times, but the words sometimes just hit me like that and all i can do (often through tears) is say "WOW."God is good.. that was so reaffirmed to me through that song today. especially after studying philosophy and morals a lot lately and questioning EVERYTHING. not that i necessarily doubted His goodness, but that strong reminder was nice. :) Mary did you know, that your baby boy
Would one day walk on water?
Mary did you know, that your baby boy
Would save our sons and daughters? Did you know, that your baby boy
Has come to make you new?
This Child that you delivered,
Will soon deliver you! Mary did you know, that your baby boy
Will give sight to the blind man?
Mary did you know, that your baby boy
Would calm a storm with His hand? Did you know, that your baby boy
Has walked where angels trod
And when you kiss your little baby,
You've kissed the face of God?
Oh, Mary did you know?
Mary did you know? The blind will see, the deaf will hear,
The dead will live again,
The lame will leap, the dumb will speak
Praises of the Lamb? Mary did you know, that your baby boy
Is Lord of all creation?
Mary did you know, that your baby boy
Will one day rule the nations? Did you know, that your baby boy
Was Heaven's perfect Lamb?
And this sleeping Child you're holding
Is the Great I AM
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