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Thursday, May 31, 2007

Revalations

It can take something small to remind you of a time in your life when things were happier. A time when you felt like you were untouchable to everything in this world that can tear a person apart.
Then you remember when you woke up, and realized that you are only human. And that as far away from reality you can take yourself, you're still subject to the same punch in the face that someone firmly grounded in reality is already expecting.


Saturday, December 09, 2006

Poetry and Wordvomit

Today... The things I pull out of my brain never cease to amaze me. Only because of the fact that sometimes in all that crap filling it up I manage to spit out words. Verbal onslaught to hopefully fill your brain with MY crap. Cheers kids.

I wish I could say more
But it's enough to keep it in
Silence
The only sound that breaks through
For lack of somthing more to say
I walk away
Silent
Everything I've ever known
With the snap of a finger
Gone...
What utters from inside is a tear
Falling to the ground
But a single one
Penetrating silence though barely a sound
Hold it together to save yourself
Crying never helped
Plead your case by walking away
Forget the hurt
But accept the heart ache
Love never ends
It simply loses interest
Or so it was said
I believe in love...
But not with you
Though I loved you
Toughen up child
Theres always a brighter day
"It can't rain forever"
So throw that frown away...
You're bigger than you've know
Strength
It glows bright
Your light through the cover of sorrow
Guidance, taking you home
To your own


Losing it AGAIN

Somewhere along the way, I got lost. Somehow I lost sight of everything I wanted to be and traded it for everything everyone else wanted me to be. I'm missing more of myself than I thought and where it went I don't know.

The only thing I have left is the idea that life itself is a journey and one that, to fully enjoy, I have to understand myself and my purpose. Not that I'm not enjoying life because I do, I love my friends, love my family, love everything that I have in front of me, but I don't know if I love myself anymore. I'm letting things slip, letting myself fall into some kind of hole that the more I let myself fall without reaching for the hands that are held out to help me, then sooner or later I'll be unreachable.

I guess this was more a reminder for myself. Losing ground isn't as hard as getting it back...


Monday, October 30, 2006

Motivation.

"My dad used to say, the only way to be good, is to be better then the other guys, the only way you'll do that is if you let go of the reasons why your not."

Best shit I've heard in a LONG time. Kalani you rock.


Friday, July 28, 2006

I'm good with where I'm at, eventhough I don't quite know where that is. Ha, I like not knowing.



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