| | All my entries seem to be so upbeat and just amazed by what He is doing in my life.
I am still upbeat and happy and could NEVER stop being amazed by His
glory, but I was just writing an entry praising Him when I realized
that I am not even right with Him. I have lost focus BIG time for the
past week. I am not myself and to praise Him and share what He is doing
in my life as if everything is just dandy would be completely wrong. He is still in my life and in my
heart. That would never change, but I have not been listening or
responding. I havent even been seeking. I have given into the temptations and flesh of this
egocentric world. Just letting ya'll know that I am struggling right
now, for those that feel alone. You're not. Ever.
I am listening to Chris Tomlin's amazing worship CD "Arriving" and
praising Him isnt hard at all. I could raise my voice in melody for Him
all day. Its the obeying part. I keep justifying things thinking of why
these things keep happening. I think "well everything happens for a
reason, maybe Im supposed to do this to learn something.." haha. Just a
lil FYI if that thought goes through your head, you have learned
something right then and there, that what you are doing is wrong. If
there is any need for justification... it isnt something that pleases
Him. When that is what we are here for and what we strive for as true
Christians who know and love God and have Him in their heart, they want
nothing more than to please Him. When we walk that thin line and are
constantly thinking "Maybe this isn't wrong." or "Maybe God is using me
in this situation." Thats not living for Him. I am not living for Him.
I hate having to admit that. But it is very humbling. Anyway, just a
lil blurb there.
All I want, Lord, is for you to look at my life and be pleased that I did all I could to please You.
heart, amelia
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| | Posted 12/3/2005 3:33 PM - 1 view - 1 comments
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