It's funny how you go through the year and nothing seems to change but when you look back, everything is different. It's amazing that no matter how much we tell ourselves that we won't change for anyone, we always seem to. And no matter how much we say we won't care what they think about us, it's the number one thing on our minds. If you look at how I used to be and you look at me now, you'll realize I'm not the same girl I used to be. All of this shit got to me. I've always avoided fights. I make jokes instead. I tell people what they want to hear just to avoid confrontation. I pretend to want things I don't want and I pretend not to want things I do want. No one gets hurt except me. The lines are so crossed and blurred at this point that I don't know what I want. I just know I want it to be easy... And sometimes it's easier for me to pretend rather than face my feelings. Sometimes it's easier to try to make it alone rather than risk getting hurt again. Sometimes it's easier to be numb towards certain people so I don't let them get too close. Sometimes I'm scared, but when I act numb towards *you*, it doesn't mean I don't care it means I care too much.
There's always some reason not to feel good ... or have a good day.
&&I heard them say ::
"I miss the old, happy-go-lucky, girl."
When will it finally hit them ;;
That's just not me anymore.
honey, this is what happens when you fall in love. you're looking at a natural disaster <l3
I'm nowhere near perfect; I eat when
I'm bored; I fall for boys too easily; I'm
vulnerable to believing lies; I'm hoping
that one day I don't need a fake smile &&
made up stories to get someone to like me;
I live by quotes & lyrics that explain exactly what
I'm going through & I make up excuses for
everything. I have my best friends && my
enemies; drama & memories. I'm just your
average typical teenager... </3
sometimes you just feel
everything and nothing all at once.
sometimes you'll find yourself smiling
while missing something at the same time.
at time you can absouletly love a person,
all the while wanting to hate them.
life comes without guarantees.
except that smiling will brighten your face,
laughing will enhance your eyes,
and falling in love will change your life. <33
While sitting on this cold kitchen floor
Head down to hide the tears
I've finally realized
that you were never meant for me.
i've discovered as i've grown up that
life is far more complicated than you
think when you're a kid. it isn't just a
straightforward fairy tale.
-rachel mcadams-
A beautiful girl with gorgeous eyes
Hidden in a world full of hurt and lies...
I'm sorry for staring at you
it's just that your smile
makes me smile
If someone tells you "it will be okay" it's because
it's tearing them up inside to see you torn apart
Those midnight conversations..
They mean everything to me
anyone can fall in love
but only amazing people
can continue to love after
their heart has been broken
i really dont care, what you think whore....
Waiting till tommorow won't make the problem any better
Ill do anything
Just to get my mind off you
Is this what being depressed feels like?
praying to god every minute of the day
so you dont burst into tears?
and at night not falling asleep
until you see 11:11
so you can wish you never wake up?
well...
thats what im going through right now,
but i just cant seem to explain why
when im sitting all alone in my room..
all i think about is you
Shes not the kind of girl to tell the world
how she feels about herself
lets kiss in the rain;;
where the rain is so hard
and we can only see
e a c h o t h e r
i could be in the absolute worst mood
ever & not want to talk to anyone.. but boy,
do my feelings change when i see your
b e a u t i f u l f a c e <3
he`s the kind of guy that makes
you love your name.. just because
of the way he says it <33
if he takes time to argue with you then
he cares more then you think he does.
bOyS are like hEelS *
so many different ones to choose from that look cute.. but they all hurt.
THERE'S A DiFFERENCE BEtWEEN
l0VE&liKE,
WR0NG & RiGHt.
NEVER RUN iF Y0U'RE N0t
READY T0 StEP,
& NEVER F0RGiVE
iF Y0U'RE
N0t READY T0 F0RGEt. `*;
Whoever said "What you don't know can't hurt you"
was a complete & total moron.
Cause..for most people I know,
not knowing is the worst feeling in the world.
-Grey`s Anatomy
B O T T O M _ L i N E ;
if you want me, you'll show it.
no camara could capture the smile she had
on her face the day he told her he still loved her.
if i don't make your heart
s k i p a b ea t
then hate me.
When we hugged for over a minute that's because I never wanted to let you walk away.
You can only be stabbed in the chest so many times before you realize "gee, this really hurts" and get up and walk away
If you take your love away from me I'll go crazy.
I'm missing your laugh
How did it break?
And when did your eyes begin to look fake?
I hope you're as happy as you're pretending.
You cut to forget something/someone. Someone else
would eat a whole lot of chocolate when they
don't feel so happy; you lock yourself up and
try to cut your memories away. You look like a
normal person, 'till someone brings up things
you don't want to think about. But it's hard to
forget things you are completely obsessed with,
isn't it
Hope you like the update.
xo <3 Jess [<3's Damian] | 
