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12 days until the best day ever!!! Well it normally would be the best day ever, but unfortunatly, I will see NONE of my friends and family, I will be in a place that is boring as whoa (Toledo, OH) with people I have never met before. Whooooopie! I can't wait! Allie and Alex are planning a party for me, though. How exciting! Who knows what we will do. Go crazy, that's what.

So, week one back at school. Been pretty awesome. School isn't too demanding yet, so I have been just chilling. Haha, I'm like a different person. I actually told Flick to NOT to homework. Look what Matthew has done to me!  And I like it! And he turned down alcohol for me! I know, I couldn't believe it. What a cutie.  Speaking of boys though, it's a full moon week or something, because Katie and Emily's boys have been acting so crazy! We swear that boys have periods. Honestly.

K, that's it for now. Time to go do my math homework. Peace Out!

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So...day numero 11 of the wondermus Christmas vaca and I'm sitting here bored. Haha, and I love it! Haven't really done much over break. Christmas was awesome with the fam, but now 1/2 of them are sick. You can guess that I am at the Burkies while they are being quarentined. I think I spelled that wrong.  Finally updated that profile of mine...whoops! Why didn't anybody tell me...my bro did, thanks! Last night was Schwartz's alumni party. Fun times with Scene It? and the high school gang. Just been chilling with friends and I've read two books already. For FUN. It's freaking amazing. I think I am going to start knitting too. Wow, do I sound like a Grandma or what? Hehe.

Miss Matthew like it's my job. Can't stop thinking about that crazy kid. Can't wait to be back at Purdue and I know, I'm a nerd but I can't wait to start classes. Colorado sure is beautiful though. On Christmas is was 69 degees. Holy mother of mystery! If only we could transport the entire Purdue campus to the city of Denver. That would be stupendous. Well my doggie is getting antsy (she is turning round and round on my lap, trying to get comfortable with no avail) so I better go. See you all soon!

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Well, this will be short and to the point due to the fact that my brain hurts and is so full of information, I may just explode!  For serious, I have been studying so much, and I honestly feel like I'm getting no where. There is still so much I want to go over, but I get so antsy and my mind begins to wander. Focusing is not going very well, seeing as I get to go home in a week and a half, and I absolutely cannot wait! I miss my family and friends SO much! It's also very hard to focus with the gorgeous snow outside, Facebook and AIM calling my name, addicting Su Doku puzzles, and wanting to spend as much time with Matthew before I don't see him for 3 weeks!

I know, I know, 3 weeks isn't that long, comparing to, you know. But when the longest I've been away from him is four days (which seemed so long and drawn out), can you blame me? Everything is going so perfect now and I just want it to stay the same. So much can happen in 3 weeks. What if he finally comes to his senses and decides he doesn't want to be with me anymore?

Well, anyway, I think finally it is sleeptime. AIM needs to be deleted (so if I'm not on for the next few days, you'll know why--if I don't return by next week, send a search party. I may be underneath all of the piles of paper, homework, tests and lab reports in my room). Oh, and Katie pretty much rocks my socks off. She is freaking awesome! I finally got the best shirt ever! (I have wanted one for so long! )

So now I leave you with some words of wisdom for finals: Take care of the luck, if you have any...Haha. Brian Regan kicks ass!

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Heellllllllllllllllllllooooooooo Everybody!!

Well, things are winding down aren't they? Just sittin' here, chillin' out. About to start some homework, but being a lazy bum. Look what Matthew has done to me! I may be having a good influence on him (you know, today he said he wanted to STUDY and I think that might be the first time he has said that EVER) but not the other way around. The other day he told me he wanted to do my math homework! And everybody thinks he isn't a nerd. Oh, he's a nerd all right. Just take a look at his bedroom. He is good buddies with Bill.  Good times in Munster! I think his mother got offended that I just kept yelling "nerd! neeerrdd!!" But hey, can you blame me? Honestly, people. That kid is 100% big dork. You know how I like the dorks!

Anyway, Thanksgiving was grand. Good to see the entire fam and each wonderous food. Wish I could have been in good ole CO, to join in on the Homecoming of the Huth Gang! Yipeeeee. Finally they have returned. No more poopy Texas. Can't wait for Christmas. I might just be bursting at the seams.  I have so much shopping to do, and I can't wait! I miss all my friends and family, it will be awesome to chill out with everybody.

So.........just got to get through the next month. Finals are going to kick my butt from here to the moon. For serious. Well, I must begin studying. Oh, by the way, totally freaked Matt out with my singing and dancing to nsync Christmas. He gave me the weirdest looks ever, but ohhh man, do I love that CD. Christmas songs are the greatest ever! I'm like a little kid. Seriously wondering why he is even dating me...

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This has been one Hell of a weekend.

Friday Night: Date with Matthew. Dinner and Movie, sounds harmless right? Ended up being not so good. Went to see Crazy Monkey's too, which was awesome. But, I, who was PMSing, acted like a moron and freaked out over nothing. Then, instead of telling Matt why I was upset, I proceeded to not speak to him for the entire night. Bad move. Got even more upset when he just dropped me off, so I ended up crying forever and he came over much later so we could work this out. And we did...or so I thought.

Saturday: Game with Allie, watched some OC and Reunion, took a short nap and did a little homework. All in all a very good day, which was followed by an awesome night. GIRLS NIGHT!  We started at Boiler Market with the best pizza at Purdue...SO GOOD! *Throws head back and bangs fists on table* Then we headed to Border's (because that's what cool kids do on Saturday Nights! ) and Silver Dipper. Rented chick flicks and began lounging around my room. Alex was being a barnacle, Allie and Alex were bookends ...(?) and Alex took a "four minute nap and I feel like a new woman." Great times, laughed my ass off. Tom gives the best massages in the world, by the way! Love you Bonesy!

But then...the unexpected happened, and I still don't know what to feel about it. Matt came over and said he didn't want to be with me anymore. WTF?!  Out of nowhere. Claims it was because of Friday night and he's "not ready for a relationship". I said don't make this decision based on one night. Told him to leave if he didn't care about me anymore. He didn't leave. Told him to leave if the bad outweighed the good. He didn't leave. Said he'd call me tomorrow. I said NO, not if you're breaking up with me. He said he couldn't deal with not talking to me. He'd made a mistake, he didn't know what he was thinking, gave me the largest hug ever. Everything was fine?! Yes. Everything is fine.

But, what am I supposed to do now? Second time in a week where he wanted to break up with me. I can't just forget about it. But I don't want to bring it up again, incase he will make a rash decision again. I don't want to lose him, but I am still so upset. *Cry* I think it's because of his friends, but I can't ask him that just in case I am wrong. But he is SO influenced by those guys, he will give in to everything, and they don't like me taking up his time. I think they said something to him. And he believed whatever it was. I don't know why else we could go from being fine to him not wanting to be with me anymore.

It's weird being on the other side, seeing it from the other person's perspective. Makes you think twice before hurting someone you really care about...