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Saturday, January 14, 2006

Sat, 14 Jan 2006 19:03:40 GMT

12 days until the best day ever!!! Well it normally would be the best day ever, but unfortunatly, I will see NONE of my friends and family, I will be in a place that is boring as whoa (Toledo, OH) with people I have never met before. Whooooopie! I can't wait! Allie and Alex are planning a party for me, though. How exciting! Who knows what we will do. Go crazy, that's what.

So, week one back at school. Been pretty awesome. School isn't too demanding yet, so I have been just chilling. Haha, I'm like a different person. I actually told Flick to NOT to homework. Look what Matthew has done to me! And I like it! And he turned down alcohol for me! I know, I couldn't believe it. What a cutie. Speaking of boys though, it's a full moon week or something, because Katie and Emily's boys have been acting so crazy! We swear that boys have periods. Honestly.

K, that's it for now. Time to go do my math homework. Peace Out!

Wednesday, December 28, 2005

Wed, 28 Dec 2005 19:17:51 GMT

So...day numero 11 of the wondermus Christmas vaca and I'm sitting here bored. Haha, and I love it! Haven't really done much over break. Christmas was awesome with the fam, but now 1/2 of them are sick. You can guess that I am at the Burkies while they are being quarentined. I think I spelled that wrong. Finally updated that profile of mine...whoops! Why didn't anybody tell me...my bro did, thanks! Last night was Schwartz's alumni party. Fun times with Scene It? and the high school gang. Just been chilling with friends and I've read two books already. For FUN. It's freaking amazing. I think I am going to start knitting too. Wow, do I sound like a Grandma or what? Hehe.

Miss Matthew like it's my job. Can't stop thinking about that crazy kid. Can't wait to be back at Purdue and I know, I'm a nerd but I can't wait to start classes. Colorado sure is beautiful though. On Christmas is was 69 degees. Holy mother of mystery! If only we could transport the entire Purdue campus to the city of Denver. That would be stupendous. Well my doggie is getting antsy (she is turning round and round on my lap, trying to get comfortable with no avail) so I better go. See you all soon!

Friday, December 09, 2005

Fri, 09 Dec 2005 03:43:35 GMT

Well, this will be short and to the point due to the fact that my brain hurts and is so full of information, I may just explode! For serious, I have been studying so much, and I honestly feel like I'm getting no where. There is still so much I want to go over, but I get so antsy and my mind begins to wander. Focusing is not going very well, seeing as I get to go home in a week and a half, and I absolutely cannot wait! I miss my family and friends SO much! It's also very hard to focus with the gorgeous snow outside, Facebook and AIM calling my name, addicting Su Doku puzzles, and wanting to spend as much time with Matthew before I don't see him for 3 weeks!

I know, I know, 3 weeks isn't that long, comparing to, you know. But when the longest I've been away from him is four days (which seemed so long and drawn out), can you blame me? Everything is going so perfect now and I just want it to stay the same. So much can happen in 3 weeks. What if he finally comes to his senses and decides he doesn't want to be with me anymore?

Well, anyway, I think finally it is sleeptime. AIM needs to be deleted (so if I'm not on for the next few days, you'll know why--if I don't return by next week, send a search party. I may be underneath all of the piles of paper, homework, tests and lab reports in my room). Oh, and Katie pretty much rocks my socks off. She is freaking awesome! I finally got the best shirt ever! (I have wanted one for so long! )

So now I leave you with some words of wisdom for finals: Take care of the luck, if you have any...Haha. Brian Regan kicks ass!

Tuesday, November 29, 2005

Tue, 29 Nov 2005 19:24:05 GMT

Heellllllllllllllllllllooooooooo Everybody!!

Well, things are winding down aren't they? Just sittin' here, chillin' out. About to start some homework, but being a lazy bum. Look what Matthew has done to me! I may be having a good influence on him (you know, today he said he wanted to STUDY and I think that might be the first time he has said that EVER) but not the other way around. The other day he told me he wanted to do my math homework! And everybody thinks he isn't a nerd. Oh, he's a nerd all right. Just take a look at his bedroom. He is good buddies with Bill. Good times in Munster! I think his mother got offended that I just kept yelling "nerd! neeerrdd!!" But hey, can you blame me? Honestly, people. That kid is 100% big dork. You know how I like the dorks!

Anyway, Thanksgiving was grand. Good to see the entire fam and each wonderous food. Wish I could have been in good ole CO, to join in on the Homecoming of the Huth Gang! Yipeeeee. Finally they have returned. No more poopy Texas. Can't wait for Christmas. I might just be bursting at the seams. I have so much shopping to do, and I can't wait! I miss all my friends and family, it will be awesome to chill out with everybody.

So.........just got to get through the next month. Finals are going to kick my butt from here to the moon. For serious. Well, I must begin studying. Oh, by the way, totally freaked Matt out with my singing and dancing to nsync Christmas. He gave me the weirdest looks ever, but ohhh man, do I love that CD. Christmas songs are the greatest ever! I'm like a little kid. Seriously wondering why he is even dating me...

Sunday, November 13, 2005

Sun, 13 Nov 2005 17:05:16 GMT

This has been one Hell of a weekend.

Friday Night: Date with Matthew. Dinner and Movie, sounds harmless right? Ended up being not so good. Went to see Crazy Monkey's too, which was awesome. But, I, who was PMSing, acted like a moron and freaked out over nothing. Then, instead of telling Matt why I was upset, I proceeded to not speak to him for the entire night. Bad move. Got even more upset when he just dropped me off, so I ended up crying forever and he came over much later so we could work this out. And we did...or so I thought.

Saturday: Game with Allie, watched some OC and Reunion, took a short nap and did a little homework. All in all a very good day, which was followed by an awesome night. GIRLS NIGHT! We started at Boiler Market with the best pizza at Purdue...SO GOOD! *Throws head back and bangs fists on table* Then we headed to Border's (because that's what cool kids do on Saturday Nights! ) and Silver Dipper. Rented chick flicks and began lounging around my room. Alex was being a barnacle, Allie and Alex were bookends ...(?) and Alex took a "four minute nap and I feel like a new woman." Great times, laughed my ass off. Tom gives the best massages in the world, by the way! Love you Bonesy!

But then...the unexpected happened, and I still don't know what to feel about it. Matt came over and said he didn't want to be with me anymore. WTF?! Out of nowhere. Claims it was because of Friday night and he's "not ready for a relationship". I said don't make this decision based on one night. Told him to leave if he didn't care about me anymore. He didn't leave. Told him to leave if the bad outweighed the good. He didn't leave. Said he'd call me tomorrow. I said NO, not if you're breaking up with me. He said he couldn't deal with not talking to me. He'd made a mistake, he didn't know what he was thinking, gave me the largest hug ever. Everything was fine?! Yes. Everything is fine.

But, what am I supposed to do now? Second time in a week where he wanted to break up with me. I can't just forget about it. But I don't want to bring it up again, incase he will make a rash decision again. I don't want to lose him, but I am still so upset. *Cry* I think it's because of his friends, but I can't ask him that just in case I am wrong. But he is SO influenced by those guys, he will give in to everything, and they don't like me taking up his time. I think they said something to him. And he believed whatever it was. I don't know why else we could go from being fine to him not wanting to be with me anymore.

It's weird being on the other side, seeing it from the other person's perspective. Makes you think twice before hurting someone you really care about...

Sunday, October 30, 2005

Sun, 30 Oct 2005 15:20:57 GMT

Whoa. Last night I actually had FUN going out! What's up with that? That NEVER happens! So...here's what went down:

On Friday I went with Christine to Halloween USA and bought my Tinkerbell costume! It is a child's size dress and I wore it as a shirt...no Halloween does NOT mean slut in my book...but for every other girl, it is, I know. Haha Katie and her slut outfit! I love it! Anyway, so last night after the volleyball game, I put on about a pound of glitter ALL OVER (I mean ALL over...hair, legs, face...EVERYWHERE! ) and Alex, Tiffany and I went to Cortney's party. It was SO much fun! We just danced the night away until it got too freaking hot and then we headed over to Mark's party for a few minutes. We all ended up in his tiny little kitchen and ended showing everybody our new dance moves... Then called up Matthew and he was not having a good time, so we headed over to Zarvus' and of course I got bored...So we walked home--so just picture it. Me, in a skirt and a tiny shirt, with tights and NO SHOES, Matt in spandex (gross, I know) walking home in the 20 degree weather. I think that was the coldest I have ever been (Yes, it comes very close to the time we stood outside the WB news center for 3 freaking hours).

Yeah, that's it. It was a blast and I was sober...who knew that could happen?! So, maybe I'll have to go out more often...as long as it involves dancing and glitter!!!

Saturday, October 22, 2005

Sat, 22 Oct 2005 21:10:11 GMT

Avoiding work once again...

Saturday afternoon, cloudy sky, pretty chilly and windy...it's a great day to sit inside with a blanket and a cup of hot chocolate, delve into a wonderuful book and stare into the abyss of clouds. What am I doing? Well, besides writing this entry, I am contemplating a nap, reading my Materials book, and starting to stress about statics. Doesn't it sound like a bunch of fun?

Went to Matt's friend's apartment last night and I just felt so out of place. It's not just that they were all drinking and I wasn't, because honestly that's not that big of a deal. It's just the fact that I know they don't feel entirely comfortable around me, because they honestly know maybe one other person that doesn't drink. And they probably don't hang out with that person anyway. But I want to be friend's with Matt's friends and I want them to like me! But I'm not going to start drinking just to be friends with them. Barf. It was partly my fault too, I know. Because I didn't want to go in the first place, but Matt wanted to so bad, and I knew I wouldn't get to see him at all if I didn't go. Also, I felt totally uncomfortable in what I was wearing, I just didn't feel like myself. I truthfully felt like someone else, going out on a Friday night, wearing a tiny little shirt that kept falling off me...So not wanting to go+uncomfortable outfit+feeling out of place=bad mood. Luckily, Matt is the best ever and realized my bad mood and we left pretty early. So, that was my night in a nutshell.

Tonight, it's a girls night! Woot woot! Allie, Alex and I are heading to dinner and then a Haunted House. Last years extravaganza was soo much fun (it included both of them latched on to my arm for the entire time ) so hopefully tonight will be awesome as well. Matt of course is going out and getting trashed. Don't even get me started...

By the FREAKING way...thought I didn't do too well on my Chem Exam, and I was delightfully wrong!

So...I miss Colorado. The mountains, the weather, the family, and mostly the friends. I miss you. I want to be friends. I have so much to tell you that I feel that no one here quite understands. Stuff about school, me and my family. So much has happened and I could talk to you for hours. But I don't know if you want to talk to me. I'd understand if you didn't. Honestly.

Saturday, October 15, 2005

Sat, 15 Oct 2005 20:32:24 GMT

This'll be quick, I promise.

What is new? Lots! Did amazingly well on my statics exam...I thought I would hate this class, but it's actually one of my better classes! Woot Woot! Still hate those people that come to me 2 freaking hours before the exam and say "Teach me Everything!" And then they say "Wow, I failed that" but get the exam back and they got a high B. Amazing. I wish I were that smart. Damn you cute boys that are smart and have a 4.0 and a full ride and drink all the f*ing time! Can't seem to get away from you...

Speaking of...I had a few moments of clarity and came up with this amazing analogy. Here's how it went down: First, I applied the SpongeBob band-aid to my heart because I was hurting. The wound was deep and fresh. SpongeBob band-aids are the best; they always make you feel better. But, the wound does not heal with a SpongeBob band-aid. The wound needs air. Then came the worst part. On Monday and Tuesday, I ripped off the band-aid. Ouchie. That hurt real bad. But, my wound is healing. I am getting better and moving on.

Smiling a lot lately, feeling butterflies...Gotta love it. Have a super week everybody!!

Tuesday, October 04, 2005

Tue, 04 Oct 2005 03:15:29 GMT

Wow, it's been awhile. It's been so insanely busy. For those of you who care this is what has happened since I updated:

*Aced my math and chem exams. Yipee!!!

*Had a few interviews with some companies and I kind of want to screw school and just get a job!

*Went on a few retreats~I heart EMV and SWE!! <- yay for acronyms!

*Watched way too much OC, Gilmore, Friends, etc... and eaten WAY too much cheese sticks (and one thing I haven't done is go to the gym so I'm feelin' a little large...)

*Had some AWESOME dance parties in the room with the best roomie ever! Swing dancin' with Panda!

Well, I'm sure there are so much more, but honestly, I have a feeling you don't care anymore. Are you still even reading this? I am just putting off the homework...statics exam tomorrow. It's going to be a doozy. I am really evaluating my life, and I don't believe in regrets, so I'm not regretting. But, I am missing, and I am pretty Fing confused. I don't want to hurt anybody anymore. I don't know what I want or how I feel. I'm not sad, but I feel empty. A shouldn't just fill that with anything in particular, it would be just a replacement. But I think that it will always be a replacement. No matter what.

Monday, September 12, 2005

Mon, 12 Sep 2005 20:43:40 GMT

So I missed it! I am upset! I was supposed to have a ONE-YEAR POSTACULAR but I am two days late. Damn. Anywho...I will have it now. So, all I want to say is Happy Birthday (Belated) to my blog! I can't believe it's been a year. We have been such good friends.

Ok, enough of the mushy stuff. On to real life. Ha! What do I know about real life?! Probably not too much. I am definitely putting off homework right now, but who really cares? I only have one (count it--ONE) class tomorrow. But, it does seem like I have an awful lot to do tomorrow. I have a meeting with someone in my major. Whoop Whoop. Then I have to go to office hours for my materials class. THEN I get to play CROQUET!!! In the engineering mall! How freaking exciting is that? I can just say one thing: Random kids at Stadium who turn out to be not so random! I love it. Oh, and then I have a statics review session because I am the biggest nerd ever, and then SWE meeting! I got so many people coming (well at least I think so, what a downer that would be in only like 2 people showed up) And then....drum roll please...Gilmore Girls season opener!!! Wooohoooo. It'll be freaking awesome.

So I was discussing with Katie today about how I am becoming a very bitter person. I told someone to fuck off and I am constantly sticking up my middle finger at my friend Matt. I don't usually do that, so what happened to me? I have come to the conclusion that I miss cuddling. I need someone to cuddle with! Anybody that wants to cuddle with me, I am here for you dude.

Conclusion: Happy Birthday. Tomorrow is a busy day and I get to kick ass at croquet (Hey! That rhymes! ) and I need someone to cuddle with. Any takers??