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Tuesday, October 04, 2005

  • There once was a girl
    Who thought she had it all
    She had, friends, love, and a family
    What more could she want?
    She wanted to fear,
    She wanted to know what it was.

    The fear of loosing her life
    It just wasn't there
    She didn't care about herself
    She cared about everyone else
    She wanted to be gone,
    Her friends wouldn't let her,
    She wanted break free
    Away from the sadness that filled her ming
    Everyime she tried to sleep at night
    She wanted...just a simple thing
    Death.

    Why did she want it?
    No one was sure
    All people knew was that...
    She sufferend underneath her disguise
    A disguise that everyone thought
    To be the truth.
    Everyone who didn't know her
    That is.
    But those who knew her
    Could not help in anyway
    Everyone just said I love you
    I need you here
    To live and be happy
    Yet she didn't understand why.

    Why everyone needed, loved, wanted her here
    She felt them all lies
    They did noy need her,
    They did not love her,
    They did not want her
    They just said that to make her stay
    But why? she was not sure.

    All she knew was that
    What she wanted
    Was for people to be happy
    Yet she also wanted to be gone
    What could she do?
    She knew her friends just loved, cared, wanted, needed
    Her here because she always tried to make them happy,
    Yet the other people...they had no excuse
    They shouldn't care as much, what happened to her.

    This way she felt for a long time
    And she still does...
    There are times, when there are no reasons to live.
    So why suffer?
    Why be in pain?
    Why not just finally see, what fear trully is?
    What loosing you life, and friends is?
    What being completely alone is?
    What death is?

    k so tell me what you think of it please!! alright thank you!<3

Friday, August 05, 2005

  • Why do I feel so used?

    So betrayed?

    I wish I had never know this life of pain…

    Why do I feel like no one cares?

    When everyone around me say they do…

    Do they really mean it though?

     

    I wonder everyday why love has become just and other word

    With no thoughtful meaning behind it…

    It used to be a mouthful now its nothing,

    Just like everything else in my life…

     

    I have so much to put through yet no one understands

    And no one ever will, everyone says that they know

    How I feel…and they may only have a guess no one

    Knows what it’s like to feel neglected by the most important

    Person anyone could ever have…no one knows what it’s

    Truly like to miss someone dear to you, someone that really is

    The closest one to understand you, when nobody else can

     

    No one really knows what it’s like to worry

    Day and night…

    About the same thing over and over again…

    And when you do, all you do is break down and cry…

    Friends all around you trying to help

    Yet each word they say, is like a knife through your chest

     

    They say that know…they understand…

    But do they really?or is it just an other illusion?

    I wonder…I worry…I miss, and I cry everyday…

    And always for the same thing…I wish for it to stop

    Yet no one will let me stop it…

    I wish to be gone…away from pain and love…

    Away from anything that hurts me…

    I can’t take it anymore!

     

    Why don’t you let go?

    Why do you keep me her…

    Locked up in a world of misery and disgrace?

    Why don’t you forget about me?

    Why do you love me?

    Why do you care?

    Why does each day hurt more and more?

    Why can’t I forget you all?

    Why can’t I stop this pain?

    Why…why live when it hurts so??

    k well thats all for now...
    </3Rosmary</3

Tuesday, July 26, 2005

  • As I lay here in this dismal place
    I think of everything that we used to be
    Everything that we will never, ever again see...
    In each others eyes...

    I saw love once but now i can't see a thing...
    I see darkness...and I resent I ever loved you
    You only hurt me...
    And now forever will...

    I can't explain it...
    I loved you and I regret it...
    Maybe I would be better if I hadn't had you
    But that again I will never know...

    Again, and again I feel an emptines inside that I cannot fill...
    I fall once more into darkness...
    Darkness that makes me heartache...
    For you, for your love...that I will never again have

    This darkness that lies deep within my room
    And in my head...
    That I cacnnot easily escape...
    That hunts me every time I think of you
    And no one else understands how it feels to know...
    That someone wont say I love you anymore...

    This darkness in my mind...my room
    Cannot compare how I feel when I think of you...

    there you go tell me what you think of it ok? k thanks i'll love you for it!!<33

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    • Birthday: 8/8/1990
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