| by J. Lugger
this is the first chapter to a story I have in my head that I decided
to write down. the story has no title, but the chapter is titled
The First Thursday
The First Thursday
I could have flipped through one of
those 365 day desktop calendars, closed my eyes, stuck my finger inside and picked
out some random day with about as much certainty and forethought as whomever created the cosmos
put into picking that specific Thursday for me to wake up at 8:47 in the morning, after only four hours of
sleep. Four hours is barely a nap. At least for me. For whatever reason, I didn’t roll back over
and go back to sleep. I got up. I put a hoodie on and decided to hit the
cafeteria for breakfast. Before it
closed at 9.
I was hard into four years of college. I had something like 2 semesters or 3
semesters to go when the damn school dropped me for having poor attendance. Now, I don’t know a single student who does
not absolutely hate attendance policies.
Its like having a teacher who makes up a seating schedule before the
year even begins, and you’re last name is Anderson or Brown and you always have
to sit in the damn front rows while York and Ziffner always get the god damn
back rows. I had no classes, and no
financial aid, but somehow I still had a meal plan so I regularly ate at the
cafeteria on money I’m sure I’ll have to pay back someday.
The cafeteria was thin, maybe 40
people in 400 seats. They all seemed to
be packed into groups of 2 or 3, I was alone.
I never go to breakfast. In four
years I’ve been to breakfast twice, and both of them were in my first year,
first semester and first week of school.
I don’t know why I was here today, but here I was. I found a table off in the corner where I could
enjoy my biscuits, gravy, sausage, eggs, hashed browns, bowl of lucky charms
with the special stars that turn the milk blue, and tall glass of Dr.
Pepper. I’m not gonna lie, breakfast is
easily my favorite meal. It’s a shame
that I so rarely get to enjoy a good one.
It would be nice if I could have breakfast at night in place of my
dinner time. I could push dinner up to
lunch time and lunch to breakfast time.
I’d never eat lunch but then again I really don’t care. I get dinner and breakfast and that is all
that matters.
Now I was fully enjoying enjoying
my meal by myself. I do like socializing
and eating with my friends but its way too damn early for me to talk to anyone,
which is why I am so enjoying eating
my meal alone. That, however, was when
the absolute best looking girl I had ever seen in my 4 long years here in
college sat down by herself, at the
table directly across from my table, on the opposite side of the table as me,
so that I had no choice but to either be looking directly at her or directly
down at my nearly empty bowl of lucky charms.
I couldn’t decide if I was mad or ecstatic about this. She was
gorgeous. Not in that Maxim supermodel hot skinny actress with
large tits way but like the kind of good looking that hurts even worse because
you actually think that you could
have a chance with someone like this. Someone
real with real lips and a real smile when she glanced up at me and saw me
staring and real tits and a real ass that looked really good in pajama
pants. Technically all women look good
in pajama pants. I don’t know what it
is, maybe the idea that they are probably not wearing much underneath, or the
fact that any guy could see a girl in PJ’s walking around his bedroom in those
pants any morning. It’s just sickeningly
believable.
I had to go. I didn’t want to. I wanted so badly to stay there, right there,
at that table. Not to continue eating, I
was full, or even to stare at that girl.
I just wanted to be there within her proximity. Maybe in hopes that she would start playing
with her hair, or the minute possibility that war could break out and that world
would destroy itself with nuclear weapons and only our two table would survive
and we would have to continue on as the next Adam and Eve, or maybe just that
she might occasionally glance up at me and smile. Just a smile.
I could live for that. An occasional
smile just to prove her awareness of my existence in the world. I could live for that. But no, I got up and left because I’m pathetic.
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