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Tuesday, February 24, 2004

Tue, 24 Feb 2004 11:06:10 GMT

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Monday, February 23, 2004

Mon, 23 Feb 2004 20:57:13 GMT

++series one - as usual
-- name: marigold
-- birthdate: five.nine.eightysix
-- current location: bloomfield
-- eye color: black
-- hair color: black
-- righty or lefty: righty
-- zodiac sign: taurus
-- innie or outtie: innie
++series two - describe
-- your heritage: filipino
-- the shoes you wore today: my iversonz
-- your hair: haywire
-- your weakness: a whole lot
-- your fears: being alone
-- your perfect pizza: just plain cheese please
-- one thing you'd like to achieve: finish college

++series three - what is
-- your most overused phrase on aim: poop
-- your thoughts first waking up: snooze button.
-- the first feature you notice in the opposite sex: eyes. face.
-- your best physical feature: i dont know
-- your bedtime: 2-3 AM?
-- your greatest accomplishment: it feels like ive yet to accomplish anything.
-- your most missed memory: when everything was great. trouble~free.

++series four - you prefer
-- pepsi or coke: ginger ale
-- mcdonald's or burger king: wendys
-- single or group dates: i dont date.. always w/ friends.
-- adidas or nike: nike
-- chocolate or vanilla: mixed
-- cappuccino or coffee: iced-tea
-- boxers or briefs: boxers

++series five - do you
-- smoke: nope
-- cuss: not much.
-- sing well: not for my damn life
-- take a shower everyday: yes sire.
-- have a crush(es): one & only
-- who are they: my babee <3
-- want to go to college: i actually do
-- like high school: nope, i feel so.. unnoticed, alone, helpless. i hate it.
-- want to get married: one day ...
-- type w/ your fingers on the right keys: most of the time.
-- believe in yourself: sometimes.
-- get motion sickness: nah.
-- think you're attractive: nope.
-- think you're a health freak: nope.
-- get along with your parents: how i wished.
-- like thunderstorms: w/ lightning?
-- play an instrument: never took lessons. i know how to read music for the piano though.

++series six - in the past month, did/have you
-- drank alcohol: i cant remember.
-- smoke(d): nah
-- done a drug: um, nope?
-- have sex: next..
-- made out: yes sire.
-- go on a date: like i said, i dont date. lol
-- go to the mall?: um. yup
-- eaten an entire box of oreos: can't say i have
-- eaten sushi: nah
-- been on stage: uhhs. BOTC?
-- been dumped: nope
-- gone skating: nope
-- made homemade cookies: yes
-- been in love: every damn day of my life =)
-- gone skinny dipping: cant say i have
-- dyed your hair: nope
-- stolen anything: nope

++series seven - have you ever
-- played a game that required removal of clothing?: sad to say, but yes.
-- if so, was it mixed company: haha that was the whole point.
-- been trashed or extremely intoxicated: can't say i've done that.
-- been caught "doing something": no. not exactly.
-- been called a tease: yup.
-- gotten beaten up: yeah, omar beats me up all the time. & im still standing lol
-- shoplifted: nope nope nope
-- if so, did you get caught: no.
-- changed who you were to fit in: that's so stupid.no

++series eight - the future
-- age you hope to be married: 23-24
-- numbers and names of children: 2 & the name's depend on the father's name also.
-- descibe your dream wedding: traditional. white gown, flowers, in a church. etc.
-- how do you want to die: i have my life to live. i dont want to talk about that.
-- where you want to go to college: i always wanted to go to NYU, but it's not possible.
-- what do you want to be when you grow up: nurse. or something in the medical field.
-- what country would you most like to visit: europe.

++series nine - opposite sex
-- best eye color: black.
-- best hair color: i dont know.
-- short or long hair: short.
-- best height: omar`s
-- best weight: omar`s
-- best articles of clothing: omar`s
-- best first date location: typical. movies. dinner. something fun.
-- best first kiss location: slight smooch on the lips =]

Thursday, February 19, 2004

Thu, 19 Feb 2004 03:58:50 GMT

dont read if you know its not addressed to you ..

earlier today i wanted to blog and let everyone know that i`m happy and that i`ve changed.. or so i thought .. why must it constantly be like this? everyday it`s the same old routine .. i want change & i want to change .. not just for myself, but for you .. you mean so much to me and it hurts me to see you & i both get hurt .. i`m sick of always getting mad at you for no apparent reason .. it`s not only hurting you but it`s also trapping you & hurting me in the process ..

whatever happened to those good old days? do you remember when you first moved to NYC & it was so hard on both of us? we talked about what`s bothering us & what we could do to make things better .. i said i`d appreciate a little quick hello here or there from you even for just a second .. what happened to those? the truth of the matter is, i miss you .. i miss you so much more now than i had .. and you know why i do .. you're the only one i`ve really got ..

i just want what`s best for you .. and lately i`m not sure if it`s me .. i love you .. don`t forget that ..

you're my angel. my sun up in the sky. we`ve been through hell and back together. why you want to leave me now? only you can ease this pain i feel & wipe my tears away. why dont you come back home and make me whole again? ..

Thursday, February 05, 2004

Thu, 05 Feb 2004 01:55:09 GMT

wow .. this week marks the ending of so many things .. sunday marked the ending of the best weekend possible in the history of this earth [right priscilla?] .. monday marked the ending of bowling season [last game vs. hackensack] .. and today, wednesday marked the ending of the never ending battle of the classes .. CONGRATULATiONS JUNiORS !!! WE OWNED BATTLE OF THE CLASSES 2003-2004 !!! UHHHHHH YEAHHH!!!! ... we might've lost to the sophs in the talent, but HELL YEAAA we won OVERALL against the SENiORS .. that must suck to place second on your last year .. but anywhos i admit everyone did good .. we all together put on such a good show .. good luck next year.!!

hMmmmmm my weekend was both the best and possibly the worst thing .. but of course, it was only the best because i spent it all with my sweetheart =) .. yeahh planz got fcked up but hey it turned out to be one of the sweetest nights ever .. dontchu think pris? lol

and so before i end this wonderful blog of mine .. i'd like to give a shoutout to my chicka krystal elias who i know is reading this because all she does is complain about how me and priscilla never updates lol ... here's to you krystal! haha .. til next time ..

* marigold

Friday, January 16, 2004

Fri, 16 Jan 2004 04:18:48 GMT

edit //> jan. 18 -- i`m sorry i can`t offer what your friends can, i`m sorry i can`t be there every second, minute, hour, every day. but i`m doing the best i can to show you that i love you .. i`m sorry i can`t provide you with your every need .. but atleast know that i`m trying .. // edit

some anology they don't teach you in SAT PREP ..

it's like a dinner where you have the appetizer, wine, main course, and dessert ... everyone else gets ALL of it .. and all i get is the leftovers .. i try to make the best out of that leftover .. but what can i do? it's bound to dry up and be gone sooner or later .. i can't do anything about it ...

the dinner is you .. your work & friends get all of your time & energy. when it's finally my turn, i can't have all of your energy or time, therefore all i get is the leftovers .. by the end of the night, your energy's bound to run up .. leaving me with no choice but to let you off the phone because in about 4-5 hours you've got work .. and i can't do anything about it can i?? except try to make the best of the time i've got with you .. i try hard to do so, but i guess, i always spoil the dinner for the both of us ...

Sunday, January 11, 2004

Sun, 11 Jan 2004 04:30:58 GMT

hey peopolz .. wow, past couple days have been quite chilly .. dont you think? heh .. so tonight [saturday], went to the movies with perri, katie, melissa, camille, and rekz .. we saw Chasing Liberty - typical chick flick but i liked it hehe .. then me, perri, camille, and rekz snuck in to see Cheaper by the Dozen .. funny movie .. fooled around a little bit after the movies .. perri and rekz threw a cart over a bridge, perri peeing in the tree lol .. Dad picked us up around 11:20 and off on home we go .. fun night ..

yesterday, friday, however, was totally a different story .. first started off by skipping school, yes siree .. off on a bus to port authority, aboard the E train and off at 75th and broadway .. hunnie picked me up like 20 minutes later .. and off to his house we go .. imagine the WHOLE day just me and him, and cocoa lol and his mom .. but tita left around two for work so its okay .. man just pretty much stayed in bed under the cover for the WHOLE day unless we had to pee or eat lol .. watched shows on TV and slept .. yup .. felt soo damn good to be with my sweetheart .. i love him .. tita was just cool about letting me stay there .. she left us alone .. man you have no idea how much i really liked that .. my parents would've flipped if me and omar were in the same bed together .. oh well .. so around 8:30ishy we left to come back to bloomfield .. got home around 11:30ishy .. and that was the end of my day with my babee .. awee hunny thanx for skipping work for me =) i love you .. don't worry babe, hope our next plan works hehe .. love you sweetheart ..

babe, i trust you with all of my heart .. i do .. im sorry if it seemed as if i questioned it because of all this xanga BULLSHiT .. but i love you hunnie .. i can't express it any other way ... people will try and break us .. but it's not going to work .. you know why? because we love each other .. and nothing's going to break that .. i love you ...

HAPPY 14 MONTHS SWEETHEART, i LOVE YOU .. 14 down ... a whole lot more to go =)

Friday, January 09, 2004

Fri, 09 Jan 2004 00:32:03 GMT

BATTLE OF THE CLASSES

WHEN: January 15th 2004
TiME: 7:00 PM
WHERE: Bloomfield High School
ADMiSSiON: $6.00

want tickets? post here or at the BOTC xanga ...

Tuesday, January 06, 2004

Tue, 06 Jan 2004 01:14:36 GMT

i love you, sweety. i miss the good old days. you and me together. things were good. don't know why things ended up the way they did. i still long for that one day to come for us to feel the happiness we once felt, together. i love you.

Tuesday, December 30, 2003

Tue, 30 Dec 2003 14:48:30 GMT

hey guys .. happy belated merry christmas =) hope santa was as nice to you as he was to me .. yup yup santa was quite giving this year .. for the first time in 4 years, we were complete this Christmas. The whole family was here =) .. anywho here's what's been up so far on my wonderful Christmas break ..

friday - bowling game vs. paramus .. we beat them =) some jerkoff decided to steal my 89th ANDY PETTiTTE BOBBLE-HEAD!! went to play pool because ADRiAN was back =) .. so yeah hung out with jeralen, trey, adrian, hector & other kids i forget their names .. me and jerl lost against cleffi & some kid in 8 ball TWiCE! me and angel lost against trey and jeralen .. gosh these people suck lol jk jk .. i won against anthony wahoo .. then went home .. and maybe had the worst night i could ever think of .. TWO HOURS w/o you is unliveable .. i love you sweety..

saturday - woke up puffy eyed and all .. but it's okay things were fixed =) .. uHhm . i dont remember what i did . poop oh well .. i probably went out and bowled or something, i don't remember ..

sunday - nothing early in the day .. then i went bowling with my brother, ate josey, ate marlan, and kuya lester @ playdrome around 9:30 . krayz, we bowled until 1:45 AM lol .. i love 25 cents games lol .. i did pretty okay .. i beat kuya ONCE! woohooo .. i think i'm on a roll with my 152 games =) dropped kuya les and ate marlan home .. fell asleep in allendale .. left at 4AM to get home by 4:30 and just fell asleep ..

monday - went and met up with my babe at 74th err 75th? lol .. i swear i didn't see my stop .. so we just chilled at his place as always ..carless = stuck at home .. it's okay i didn't mind .. i was in my babee's arms .. nothing can beat that =) .. we watched pumpkin lol .. "reEetarDded" .. gosh i love you babe .. saw a little bit of Little Monsters .. i fed my sweetie `=) lol .. then joey drove me to the station and i said bye =( .. got to bloomfield by 7:45? went to mandee's .. shopped .. and taxi-d on home ..

tuesday - went to JC with trey and jeralen . met up w/ my TWiNNN! =) jeralen and krispy got their haircuts while i sat there for almost two hours utterly jealous lol being broke SUCKS .. so we headed off to newport .. all we did was eat lol .. walked around .. i bought my joanna's and jv's Christmas gifts =) .. went home ..

wednesday - woke up at like 10:00 .. got to my sister's house at 12:00 .. watched the kids while kuya lester helped my brother move the new tv we got [64' babeeee lol] .. got home around 9:00 PM with the kids .. wrapped some presents til 11:45 .. took a shower .. while drying my hair i saw it was 12:00 so the first person i called was my one and only hunnie =) then i went downstairs to greet my parentals and such ..

thursday - from 1:00 AM - 5:00 AM we were up opening gifts . the sad thing is, not everybody finished openining their gifts lol and i got my ROCAWEAR JACKET =) wooo lol .. couple more rocawear stuff .. and i got my digital camera, not the one i wanted but hey a gift's a gift =) .. i supposedly got 2 cameras but they refused to give me the other one since i got one already lol .. dammit .. my brother got all ecko shit i felt bad i know that's all he wanted and i got him things for his stupid job lol .. i felt like santa this year =) people actually read "from marigold" instead of "from mom, dad, and marigold" lol .. SO we slept around 5:30 ... woke up at 10:00 .. got ready for mommy zen's and got there around 12:00 to open more gifts =) .. i love family time .. haha Christmas this year was overall, crazy..

friday - uMms .. oh yeah, had BOTC practice at my house from 12-4 but few stayed til 7 lol .. sort of successful lol .. and that's all i did today .. BOTC yup ..

saturday - went malling with a few BOTCers - jeralen, trey, sunny, perry, camille, & eddie .. yupp "Camille, you need a ride?" ~ "yeah" ~ "okay, i'm on my way" lol .. seems like the guys know what they're wearing for BOTC .. us girls figured out the shirt we'd wear .. i saw kristine joy and melissa there .. havent seen kris since the vacay started, i miss her .. and melissa, wow i haven't seen her since "ivanpalOoza" lol .. great seeing people =) .. as soon as i got home, went and turned my TV to channel 7, SOUND OF MUSiC! lol i went to sleep at 7AM because i couldn't sleep :COUGHOMARCOUGH:

sunday - i did NOTHiNG .. my mom wouldn't let me out .. bla bla bla .. so i slept all afternoon .. watched movies all day .. another sleepless night .. fell asleep at 6AM :COUGHOMARRRRCOUGH:

monday - nothing successful lol .. went to the bank, withdrew money . but then no one took me to go shopping lol .. i watched LOTR the two towers for the second time this week .. lol i LOOOOOOOVE LOTR and especially Legolas move during the battle where he slid down the stairs .. you know what i'm talking about .. dad told me he'll take my mom and me to see it on sunday .. nice family time .. so i sat in front of the TV til 11:30 .. watched the 10 o'clock news on THREE different channels lol .. watched the celebrity poker too .. that reminds me of Christmas at my aunt's .. man they were madd krayz with the pots ..

today - i'm holding yet another BOTC practice at mi casa .. OTHERWiSE ... i WOULD'VE WENT TO MY SWEETHEART'S .. you know i'd ditch anyone for you lol [jk] .. really sorry though . maybe if you called me up the past couple of days, you could've told me about your day off ... hMmmm? i love you ...

have a happy new year everyone ... don't forget to get drunk and wasted =) =) =) ... oOoooh allendale, here i comeee .. hahahahha ...

Monday, December 29, 2003

Mon, 29 Dec 2003 02:10:24 GMT

your words are so vague - your stare is too cold - dont know how much more i could take - how much more i could hold - am i losing you - to something i dont know - are we almost through - is it time to go - my words are so stern - my eyes are so sharp - each day we learn - to live without each others hearts - are you losing me - to something you dont know - are we almost free - is it time to go - we're living each day - not noticing our own faults - going our separate ways - are we losing us?

10:00 PM 12.28.03