CRAZY WEEKEND!!!!! i will enlighten you with a list of highs and lows!

LOW: my boyfriend called me at 1:30 am wed. night/thurs. morning and informs me that he's in the hospital for internal bleeding (he had lost over a pint of blood) .........NOT FUN! the phone dies on us midway through the conversation and i start freaking out! i get some sleep and proceed to wake up early in the morning and venture to b-wood to see him.

HIGH: getting to the hospital and seeing that he was still alive and doing QUITE well! smiling.........cracking jokes. just seeing him made me happy!

HIGH: he got released later that afternoon and we got to hang out more! ALWAYS FUN!

LOW: i worried about his condition all weekend, down to what he ate.

HIGH: i got to see lindsey and carrie, kat p., erin, laura, danielle, APRIL! ohhhhhhhhhh it was happy times!

LOW: i didn't really get to hang out with everyone that i wanted to......i only saw tovah from afar. however, she looked DASHING in her homecoming dress!

LOW: IXA didn't participate in the parade this year........yah.....that pretty much sucked.

HIGH: i got to see the guardian with my boyfriend!!! GREAT movie!

LOW: feeling very thinned out amoungst friends. wish i could have spent more time with people.

overall i would have to say that it was a GREAT weekend! Everyone looked so wonderful! Good food, GREAT friends, AMAZING boyfriend! i love being back at HPU!

for those of you who are wondering how my interview with my church went today.......

they voted YES!!! 

69 for......1 against!

if you know my church that's a BIG DEAL!

history was seriously made today.......i have a week to pray about it and give my answer.

The other day I watched an interview with the lead singer from Casting Crowns, and something that he said struck me. I mean it REALLY caught my attention! He said something to this affect: The world doesnt get angry that we as Christians sin. they get angry because we pretend not to. WOW! So true!

I cant tell you how many churches I have walked into fearful of the sin that I had in my life and whether or not I would be judged by other Christians. And as I would glance around the sanctuary I would wonder just how judged and alienated non-believers feel when they walk into our services, or pass by our desks in our job places.

Theres something WRONG with that.

The last time I checked the Bible says that we are ALL sinners and have fallen short of the glory of God. (Romans 3:23) We are ALL imperfect. ALL flawed, believers and non-believers alike. We mess up and we try to hide it. they mess up and we point a finger. What makes their sin so different from ours? Isnt a lie still a lie? Isnt an affair still an affair? Certainly. The only difference is that often times as Christians we teach about compassion and mercy for the sinner and yet we fail to give it! Not only do we fail to give mercy and compassion to the non-believer, but to our fellow brothers and sisters in Christ as well!

How sad that we would choose to look at others through the tainted scope of judgment rather than look at them with the loving eyes of our Lord. Its not our job to judge. its Gods. When did that EVER become our job? Sin is inevitable. Ever since the garden it has become a way of life for human beings. Theres no escaping it. But we have to realize that its all the same! ALL sin STINKS to God.

you know....i don't get it.........i just don't get it......i've tossed it around in my brain a bit.....i've cursed........i've cried.......and i'm still right back at the same spot....the spot where i am speechless..........the spot where my heart just aches and there's nothing left to say.

i lost one of my kids tonight.

it's not like they died.....and for that i'm sooooooooo grateful! but i lost them.

i got a phone call tonight from a very angry mother who was wondering why her daughter hadn't met her curfew. the curfew was at 8:30. (which OF COURSE the daughter had failed to mention)

here's the deal........every sunday and wed. night after church our youth group goes out to eat......it's not a manditory thing by any means, just something that the kids have put together and i attend so i'm able to hang out with them a bit more.

all the kids are usually home no later than 9:00. it was 8:50 when my phone rang.

mom: is my daughter with you?

me: no maam, she left with ________ a couple of minutes ago...she was bringing her straight home.

mom: does she have her cell phone with her??

me: i'm not really sure?? (why is SHE the PARENT asking me if her child has her cell phone on her??)

mom: she was supposed to be home at 8:30!!!!

me: i'm sorry maam! she told me nothing about that! had she i would have personally had her home by that time!

mom: i think that it's RIDICULOUS that you're keeping the kids out past 8:30 on a school night!

me: The dinner after church is not a manditory thing....you may come and pick her up as soon as we get out at 7:30-7:45 if you would like.

mom: don't even worry about that, my daughter will not be attending again!!!!!

me: is this because we go out to eat afterward??? (completely puzzled and in disbelief at this point)

mom: yes!!!!! my daughter is in HIGH SCHOOL now and she doesn't have time for all of this church stuff! i just think that it's RIDICULOUS that you're keeping them out after 8:30 on a school night!!!!!

me: like i said, you are more than FREE to come and pick your child up right after we finish...i would hate for her not to be allowed to come anymore because of this!

mom: she won't be back again!!!!

me: i'm sorry that you feel that way.......

and just like that the conversation ended.........needless to say..........it has NOT been a fun night!