Currently Reading A Modest Proposal and Other Satirical Works (Dover Thrift Editions) By Jonathan Swift see related

well i figure it's been long enough since i've given an entry, that sounded weird but oh well what can you do?  well i am currently in the mist of finals weekish...it started friday and ends tuesday... and yea it's not so bad.  i do get my research paper back on tuesday though, right before the final, and yea that kinda sucks since i'm really scared about it and all.  ya know once i finally started to get the content of my papers down, the schreinerization of yours truly, the grammar lady comes out of no where (that isn't right, is it?)

ok, now to the relatively social aspect of my life...the crazy insane part that currently shouldn't matter, but it's what's putting me in depression mode.  heres the story...boy likes me..i don't like boy...meet the amazing guy from boston and fall in kristin love with him...unfortunately the sweetheart who i'm friends with likes him too...so i should back off by all accounts, but i can't.  it's physically impossible.  there's this thing about him that i can't get out of my head, or whatever heart it is that i have.  well i guess this is high school...and it's not like it hasn't happened to me before, oh gosh no...there was never a guy who i liked but so did my friend so because i'm a good person, he was her's...not that he could really be mine anyways but what can ya do....

lacrosse is crazy, said bostonian boy plays, and for the first few times when he was there i sucked it up, bad.  but i guess i'm a pretty good player now...now that i'm not with bonnie and all the crap in colorado springs with the team... people believe in me here..it's nice

well i should go and study now, take a shower, go to church, play lacrosse with said boston boy and his girl...geez i wish it was different...

<3

k

Currently Listening Chariot By Gavin DeGraw see related

since it's been almost forever, or at least pretty close now, i figure i'll write again.  well since last time i am now a year older and a year "wiser" if you wish.  i'm still trying to learn about people though.  looking at your myspaces, seeing how much you've all grown up without me, it's a little depressing let me tell you.  the kivi sisters, oh man! ya'll are just to grown up for words!!!

anywho, on the serious note i was looking for when planning to write this entry, i hate being so confused.  and no, i don't mean confused as in "wanna hear an even dirtier joke, 16 white horses jumped in the mudd". yea not that confused. more, socially confused.  you see, in georgia, people actually think i'm smart and worth something.  guys think i'm cute (omfgosh!! what now!) and yet, poor kristin has fallen head over heals for the one boy she can't have...again...

and now, how is it that everyone knows what they want to do with life? i don't know where i want to go to school, i don't know what i want to be, i don't know who i want to love? how can you manage?? 1st off, guys are just another universe that women shouldn't have bothered to explore.  2nd off, i don't even know what second off is.  i'm sick of being called "shallow" and all that jazz.  i know i'm shallow, you don't have to rub it in. but maybe i'm shallow because that's what society (aka EVERYONE WHO BOTHERS TO READ THIS) makes me out to be.  i've got one of the highest grades in my history class, therefore i have not a single true friend in that class.  you have to suck and be able to accept it to get by.

i guess it's like gavin said life is just a "chemical party"... "you're just too high to see my point." annnnnddddd "i think i like you but you like this whole room you sexy machine" ya know if you really want to understand me, really want to know who i am, listen to alllll of gavin degraw's chariot cd.  it's amazing. and it's me.

<3

k

Currently Reading The Catcher in the Rye By J.D. Salinger see related

Ok, so for some reason I just deleted this.  So I'll write it again.  Maybe it will make more sense to Kristin this time.  Time for some ventage (that's all xanga is lately, a Ventage.  I just can't say it to your face yet, Kip would be disappointed.)  I hate the feeling that the minute I walk into a room, my boobs are the first thing everyone notices.  You judge me by the way I act, I guess, and that's not the real me.  I guess I have put on this amazing mask for the past few years so that everyone see's me as a bimbo blonde ditz(I know a little redundant).  That just seemed like what everyone wanted.  I'm such a people pleaser. Whatever you do, do not become a people pleaser. I just wish that I could have done some things differently while I was in Colorado.  I wish I could have spent more time with Wes.  And I really wish I could have gotten to know Kip a little better.  You all don't understand what an awesome, intelligent, more adjectives that I can't think of person that you have in Kip.  You are such a cool person, and you are just soo smart, in the best way.  I just do have to disagree that I would probably have fallen off the face of the earth without my parents at the ripe old age of 15.  But with some of the friends that I have aquired over the years, I think I might be able to get by. 

Kristin

ps.  My birthdays in a week.  I feel like such a little kid.  Everyone's so grown up, but all I want to do is become the modern day Holden Caulfield. 

Stolen from the Amazing Jen!!!

Dear the new freshman class:
Stay out of our way
or we'll kick your ass.
Don’t crowd our halls

To hug your friends.
In the lunch line,
Stay at the end.
We've been here at least a year,

Maybe two or three;
To think you have respect in this school,
You must be kidding me!

You’re not there yet!

Don’t think you’re big, bad and tough,
If you mess with an upperclassmen,
With you, they’ll get rough.

Trust us on this one, we just know.

Don’t think you’re cool,

No one likes you yet,
Even if you’re in high school.

Don’t even kid yourselves.

Just wait, when you’re a sophomore
You will know how we feel,

With a new class trying to fit in each year,
It’s simply unreal.

So here, to the girls of 2009:
Keep your shirts on,
And your clothes buttoned up high.
Steer clear of the senior guys;

Your reputation will be ruined,
And the older girls can kill you.

And here, to the boys of the new freshman class:
Most senior girls see you as yesterday’s trash.

They don’t care about boys
Who could be their brothers,

So just give it up now before

You mess up in front of others.

Now you've heard what you need to know

We hope you’ve learned from this,
Freshman year will come and go
Enjoy it now while its here.

Stolen from the Amazing Jen!!!

Dear the new freshman class:
Stay out of our way
or we'll kick your ass.
Don’t crowd our halls

To hug your friends.
In the lunch line,
Stay at the end.
We've been here at least a year,

Maybe two or three;
To think you have respect in this school,
You must be kidding me!

You’re not there yet!

Don’t think you’re big, bad and tough,
If you mess with an upperclassmen,
With you, they’ll get rough.

Trust us on this one, we just know.

Don’t think you’re cool,

No one likes you yet,
Even if you’re in high school.

Don’t even kid yourselves.

Just wait, when you’re a sophomore
You will know how we feel,

With a new class trying to fit in each year,
It’s simply unreal.

So here, to the girls of 2009:
Keep your shirts on,
And your clothes buttoned up high.
Steer clear of the senior guys;

Your reputation will be ruined,
And the older girls can kill you.

And here, to the boys of the new freshman class:
Most senior girls see you as yesterday’s trash.

They don’t care about boys
Who could be their brothers,

So just give it up now before

You mess up in front of others.

Now you've heard what you need to know

We hope you’ve learned from this,
Freshman year will come and go
Enjoy it now while its here.