so it's been quite sometime...

some updates on life...

so a trash truck side swiped me about a month ago and bent up my car a little bit but my dad went to the junkyard and got a silver hood for my car cuz he didn't wanna spend a bazillion dollars on a new saab hood...and he fixed my car but it's white and silver ha it makes me feel like an idiot sometimes but oh well it gets me where i need to go and we're gonna get the hood painted white again.  anyway, prom was last night, and i didn't go. things sort of fell apart with the person i was going to go with - yeah i was pissed...so i have to live the rest of my life with a missing piece because i didn't go to my junior prom (yes, that was deep, i know.) it really sucks getting heartbroken 3 days before prom, i mean really. but whatev - i am over it. don't need that BS in my life, ya know? i'll go to prom next year, senior year is what matters the most. anyway, my brother disappeared off the face of the earth - and took the puppy with him...i miss her sooo much...yeah i miss him too haha. things won't be the same around the house...but it's life - he's 30 and i guess it was time for him to leave. and my sis is getting married on may 6 - the same day i am taking SAT's so that's going to be a fun filled day. and that's really all i gotta say for now. maybe i'll update in another 4 months. who knows. 

school, homework, projects, work...that's all it ever is anymore...

got stress? i do.

no school today, thank god. mid-terms were hell. i am scared to get my grades because i know they are going to be bad. i need to do good this year so i can get the hell out of this place. i just can't wait til college...

i still don't have my car.  my dad and i haven't been on good terms lately cuz of that...i really need my car...i've had my license for quite sometime now and it's just not fair...and it makes me really angry.

...and i'm always heartbroken...what else is knew...

i need to get away from this place...

i need a tropical vacation.

maybe a hot guy too???

that would be nice...

i love my mommy...

I HATE MY DAD.

and yet again i'm torn between two dysfunctional houses.

i want to just move out and be on my own and never look back. i mean NEVER.