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Wednesday, April 02, 2008

Wed, 02 Apr 2008 04:02:41 GMT

etbu is cutting down trees......I"M MAD ABOUT THIS!!! and why are they cutting them down? because their putting a new security camera in and its in the way........are they serious? lets cut down a tree instead of put a camera in a different spot.

what ever happened to going green....it's April people. earth day is in 20 days....but lets go ahead a cut those trees down....

i yelled at them cutting them down....i was and still am angry about this. you know how long it takes a tree to grow and it was a dogwood tree. those are so pretty when they bloom!!

MAD!!

go green, turn off lights, save water, hug a tree, i'm 'bout to go hug those trees.

Monday, February 25, 2008

Mon, 25 Feb 2008 01:50:20 GMT

you should watch juno....it's good

i still want to be done with this place so badly, but it's getting a little better. i still think i could cry at the thought of being with my family...it makes me so happy.

i'm continually evaluating myself these days. i feel like this is the time for me to know who i am and if i don't like some things, then i should change them. i wanna be classy, i wanna be graceful, i don't want to be childish, but them sometimes i do, i want to be independent, i want to speak my mind, i want to stand up for myself, i don't want to BS, i don't want to get agrivated so quickly, i want to be a good leader, i want people to respect me, i want to love my friends, i want to be truthful, i don't want to judge others, i want someone to love me.

do you ever think about the things your parents did or didn't do that made you who you are? in class we answers questions about if our parents did this or that and how that makes you who you are. i'm scared i won't do the right things....how did my parents do so good? why do i respect my dad so much? how come some kids are taught and don't listen? i'm really glad i listened!

How does one transition from a child-adult relationship with their parents to an adult-adult relationship? does the relationship really ever make that change?

Friday, February 08, 2008

Fri, 08 Feb 2008 15:51:20 GMT

i can't express how much i love the cheap aisle in walmart......oh to find something that i love for 50 cents! it's so exhilarating!

it disturbs me when people paint over beautiful red brick..or an brick. why are they doing that? you can never get that natural brick back. why are we making things generic and white? let's keep the old things old and beautiful!! please stop painting over the brick!

i would really like to know if Obama is a muslim or not....i heard that he wasn't but people say he is, then i heard is and he's proud of it.....i looked online but i found both sides of the story, why are people lying and spreading rumors about other people's lives....just leave the man alone and let him tell us the truth...(this is not me supporting Obama, i just wanna know)

i have to get a real job in a few months and figure out what i'm doing with my life....this scares me and excites me at the same time. i so badly want to be an adult and people treat me like one, but i also want to take a nap, soooooo

i'm beginning a beth moore study on the psalms of ascent and i think i'm a little in love with it....it's amazing how closely it relates to my life at this time....go Jesus.....tell me what you wanna tell me

Tuesday, January 22, 2008

Tue, 22 Jan 2008 18:19:09 GMT

i'm finding out so much more about a bad situation than i original knew. It's not so good....more backstabbing.

Let's all grow up a little and act our age. When bad things happen, what is your first reaction? ...that tells alot about a person.

I'm not into bands...i don't give a crap about what sings what or some random new band.....lets just listen to the music and be happy.....who cares if you've seen them in concert or you discovered them first.

i never thought i would be one of those people who wanted desperately to graduate and leave, but things have happened and continue to happen......i'm not happy here anymore....i don't want to leave this place, i want to leave these people (well some of them).

Thursday, December 06, 2007

Thu, 06 Dec 2007 01:55:35 GMT

i'm happy right now

it's Christmas time and everyone is being nice and everything is wonderful...lights are glorious and treats are a plenty....cards are intimate and precious

friends have come and gone for me but recently some of them are coming back.....this makes me happy.

everyone is getting engaged or beginning relationships right now....usually this makes me want to slit my wrists, but i'm ok.....i'm happy

sometimes i just find myself smiling..... this is a time to celebrate.....let's party baby!!!!

Friday, November 16, 2007

Fri, 16 Nov 2007 20:54:32 GMT

I looked at a book at work about things people have left at the Vietnam Veteran's Memorial Wall. There were letters from little kids to their dads. There were letters and things from veterans asking others to forgive them for what they did or what happened.

I teared up several times. Then one of the older guys came in the office and said something about when his wife died....this all made me very sad and i thought.....

There are so many people who have sacrificed things for our country....so many people have lost loved ones and so many people have to live with thoughts of war or the past everyday. Everyone has gone through incredibly terrible things in their lives. Husbands wives have died.....boys have died in war.....kids have lost their parents.

I don't really know what I'm getting at but I appreciate all the older guys in my life so much more....i work with all these maintenance men and i've never really thought about what they've gone through. They are precious and i just want to give them and so many more people a hug.

I'm tearing up as i write this....maybe because just the thought of losing someone in my life is so terrible to me. But many of these people have experienced that lose and i want to cry for them.

I just want to tell them that I appreciate and love them.

I do love you

Friday, November 09, 2007

Fri, 09 Nov 2007 19:47:06 GMT

I got on Who's Who in American Colleges and Universities!! I pretty much very excited!!

I dyed my hair brown....i am very content with it.

the thought of going home for thanksgiving is so wonderful i can barely breathe.....it's what keeps me going. i have been at etbu since august.....far too long without a break.

i would like to admit that i am a movie junkie......i am slightly addicted. i watched 6 during last weekend....and several throughout this week. i love 'em!!!

the holidays are arriving and i want to get all snuggled up and look at christmas lights. my room will most definitely be decorated with christmas items!!

Thursday, October 25, 2007

Thu, 25 Oct 2007 19:30:47 GMT

Homecoming is fun

i love the cold weather, working on the float, how everyone's working together, being on court, bonfires, friday night follies, making fake bagpipes, the sheep on our float, and the game....i love everything

I'm on homecoming court....i've very excited. my grandma told me that i'm already a winner in her heart....thanks g-ma.

My sister is coming up today...i like this week!

I Love Festivities!!!!

Tuesday, October 16, 2007

Tue, 16 Oct 2007 19:17:27 GMT

I'm ticked!!

Senior year sucks so far!!! Who woulda known?

I have to get out of this place!!

stop acting like my mom,
stop acting like everything is fine when it isn't,
stop asking what i'm gonna do with my life,
stop talking about me behind my back,
stop acting like my friend when we both know you aren't,

Thursday, September 13, 2007

Thu, 13 Sep 2007 19:31:05 GMT

Do not treat me like a am a three year old child!

Do not tell me to cover my eyes or hold your hands over my ears so I won't see or hear things.

I've dealt with the good and bad of this world for 21 years pretty good by myself. I don't need you acting like my mother and protecting me. So back the HECK up!!

Thank you!