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| Life just always seems to struggle here. Grandmom i miss you soo much. You were and always will be my role model. When i go on a rollercoaster i will always think of you. When i see a kit-kat bar i will think of you. When theres a sharp turn i will always say Slide Over Suga. And when its time to turn your clock forward or backwards i will always remember helping you with your watches. I will never forget how much you helped me get through Kate's death or my eating disorder. You weren't just a grandmom to me you were my mom//best friend. I just dont get how a person who i just saw two weeks ago and looked so healthy, but worried, could just be taken from us. Whys it feel like the people who understand me the most have to leave before you know it. I dont know what ill do with out you. RIP 11/21/06 Every story has an end,
but in life,
every ending is just a new beginning.
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| i need you real real bad...
my dream is to see that smile soon...
no more happy moments like this... | | |
| one year and 2 months.
i really can;t explain how it feels anymore. it seems to show more and more everyday that i hate it here if i can't see my big sister anymore. it feels like i just got hit these past 4 monthes that i will have to wait to see her. and that feels like an impossible thing to do. i hate everything about this world now. i hate going to talk to some ladies about my feelings, when they wont ever understand what i think because they're just doing their job. i hate being made to do stuff i dont want to do. it just makes me hate my life more and more. people think im a very very depressed girl and need help. but i dont think they understand i can do things on my own and im happier when i dont talk to some stupid ladies that make me notice all the things wrong in my life. i really just want my big sister back to teach me how to drive and to actually smile this summer. i just want to be a normal girl again. i want to have all my weight back , eat what i want, play lacrosse, and not have to be treated like a little kid anymore. i want to smile without being forced to. i want my friends to want to hangout with me. I JUST WANT EVERYTHING I USE TO HAVE BACK!
Life feels like an impossible journey....
I need you like water
Like breath, like rain
I need you like mercy
From heaven's gate
There's a freedom in your arms
That carries me through
I need you
Kate, i need your help badly, | | |
| A whOle YeaR...©it feels like forever. i dont know what to say anymore to explain how much i miss her. but i know that she is with me every single second of my life now. i know she is happy because shes told me. i know she wants my family to pull through this but it is the hardest thing anyone can experience. But it is amazing if you look around and see all the freaky signs she does to show you she is with you. This year seemed impossible at times and i didnt think i would have lasted this long with out her, but i did and its because of her. she helped me.
I wish i could have her back. i wish i could have that older sister here with me that would make fun of me or act like my mom. I will never forget the last day i saw her and was arguing with a teacher for me. i just need one more day with her...But i will have that day when its my time... i hope you and Annie are having fun up there, Kate. our family may suffer alot and not always smile, but we are the luckiest families to have angels up there helping us with every little thing. I miss you.
"What would you think of me now,
so lucky, so strong, so proud?
I never said thank you for that,
now I'll never have a chance.
May angels lead you in.
Hear you me my friends.
On sleepless roads the sleepless go.
May angels lead you in."
"Life is short don't ever take this life for granted
She never did, life is precious treat every day like such
The real tragedy is for those who never knew you
A life ended so suddenly sometimes I can't believe
Never just another a day in June, always a friend taken too soon So we'll say our farewells, but our tears still swell
And I just wish our time wasn't cut short
I just wish I could have said goodbye
We won't forget
Be my angel watch over me
Be our angel watch over us
Just wanting to know where we go from here,
Just wanting to know, where we go without you "
I LOVE YOU, Katelynn faye | | |
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©I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok
But that’s not what gets me
What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do
It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ It
It’s hard to force that smile when I see your old friends and I’m alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken
What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
Not seeing that loving you
That’s what I was trying to do ©
I miss you Kate, these last 2 monthes have been the hardest of them all. I hope you had the best birthday ever. And 10 monthes has been long enough. I need you to come back so bad. I need your help really bad with a lot of things and I cant do them without you. Please help me. Katelynn, Life has changed alot since the day you got in that accident. And i dont like it one bit. A smile is not a true smile anymore. And the dream i only ask for will never come true. But what i learned over the past monthes, you cant do anything about it you just have to move on. But i don't know how. So will you help me please.
I miss you sooo much and I really only ask for one thing, you back. | | |
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