I only want to love him, serve him, and be loyal to him. I want to do what he expects of me and more, like any good servant. I want to do things for him without being asked. BUT i'm so stuck in this world and driven by my worldy desires, and my worldly heart. I want him to be the sole motivation behind my every action. I want to love him like he loves me.

Jesus is much better than a candy heart.

oh how I wish I had mature and Godly love, but my love is selfish and immature.

"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrong. Love does not delight in evil, but rejoices in truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails." I Corinthians 13:4-8a

(i love my 7th grade girls..)HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY. Remind me how I can pray for you!

I'm just not feelin it anymore. facebook has won my heart.

Phillippians 2:14-16 - "Do everything without complaining or arguing, so that you may become blameless and pure, children of God without fault in a crooked and depraved generation, in which you shine like stars in the universe as you hold out the word of life–in order that I may boast on the day of Christ that I did not run or labor for nothing."

I love you, and I want to pray for you, tell me how.

and i love my mommy.

Currently Listening Psalms BREATH OF GOD see related

Oh make me the breath of God. Oh how God can reveal such huge things to me through such simple lyrics, i am thankful for Shane and Shane.

I WANT TO BE OBEDIANT. I WANT THE NATIONS TO COME TO HIM. I WANT TO SPEND THE REST OF MY LIFE WITH MY HUSBAND LIVING IN A SHACK IN SOME LOST COUNTRY TO SPREAD THE GOSPEL. nothing could make me happier. when I first felt like he was calling me to long term missions I had all these doubts like (selfish, greedy, worldy ones) like "but won't i miss TV, pretty clothes, and nice house" I know, horrible. that's how unclean I am. I question SAVING lives because of material possesions. Oh to be selfless and obediant, what a desire. I am so full of greed and sin. I want to give it all up. 

I was about to write an entry on how stressed out i am, throw a little pity party, you know, the usual.Sure failing school and finals is tough, but nothing compared to THE PERSECUTED CHURCH. my struggles are so small, and what freedom and love and oppertunities i take for granted. I'm not using my knowledge of the truth to it's full potential while there are people in asia, in africa who are being beaten, tortured and killed because THEY are.

I am in love. in love. in love. in love. with such a faithful and real God.

I love you, too.

here are some pics from progressive dinner.

me and lee (escort #1)

lee me brad (escorts 1 and 2)

me and lee

jon lee me brad brew and adam. (escorts 1-5) ha ha love them.

me and barbie (ha ha she's so gorgeous, i love her) (lauren)

Currently Listening No Nose Job: The Legend of Digital Underground By Digital Underground see related

ok, i'm not gunna lie, it's fake. it was a trick on my daddy. however i am in love, i thought i wanted one before but now, i reallllly do. The parents say no over and over. And i know you're thinking "but kaylee in a few short months you will be 18 and in starkville (or memphis), far far away from your parents." Yes, i thought that too. BUT They say "no money for college then" so i say "what happened to loving me no matter what" mom responds "love isn't money"

ouch. so i will honor them. but maaaan i want it. but i know i will have much bigger (and better) treasures with my heavenly father, and i constantly have to pull myself out of my worldy desires.

miller said i couldn't pull it off. he said "only skanky girls or really pretty girls can"...ouch, thanks.

 I WILL NOT BE ON XANGA FOR TEN DAYS. I'M GROUNDING MYSELF. THIS IS VITAL.

Currently Listening Ridiculous By Squeeze awkward..... see related

i've been using the word ridiculous alot lately. possibly because everything that has occured recently has been absolutely ridiculous. i don't even know what to think anymore.

thanksgiving is over. that's ridiculous. high school isn't. exremely ridiculous.

however, i got to spend extra time with our creater these past few days, and it has been superb. no matter what passage, what verse, what translation, He never fails to reveal his heart to me. ahhh, how i long to be obediant and faithful. that is the desire of my heart.

Here are some pictures of the incredible weekend i had two weeks ago: at the game in little rock. (MY TWO FUTURE BF'S...nothing could have made me happier to see them, well and hangin with my big bruther.)

tangi the love of my life, and soon to be best friend (if i ever make it through this lame year)

brother, future best friend #1, me, van, FBF#2

me and the MSU band. ridiculous. i know.

lance and i goofin off before the game.

well. i love you kids. tell me how i can pray for you, and remind me to do so. and i hope your lives aren't as ridiculous as mine.