and the boy says to the girl:
"i love you"

she says to him:
"i think i love you too"

he says back:
"how can you think you love someone?"

"well i don't really think i know what love really is."

"i don't think there's really anything to know, you just do."

"oh. i'll work on that."

&&&a few days go by and they talk as if the conversation had never happened. life goes on and nothing changes between them, except the constant question pounding in her head, "what is love?"&&&

soon after on halloween she says "i love you."

and all he could say was:
"its about time."

though this story is a beautiful one, neither one of them obviously knew what that small but powerful word meant.  a word meant for one special person has now been deluted by yet another soul.  how tattered can this word get before it loses its meaning? if people keep saying it so loosely as they do now, how will our children use this word? will it even mean anything to them?

"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. ⁵ It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. ⁶ Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. ⁷ It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

    ⁸ Love never fails"

Currently Watching Just Like Heaven (Widescreen Edition) By Reese Witherspoon, Mark Ruffalo, Donal Logue, Dina Spybey, Ben Shenkman (II), Jon Heder, Ivana Milicevic, Caroline Aaron, Rosalind Chao, Ron Canada, Willie Garson, Gabrielle Made, William Caploe, Shulie Cowen, Billy Beck, Diego Sebastian, Cristian Cruz, Benjamin Hughes, Cara Vivien Rosenberg, Catherine Taber see related

THiS JUST WASN'T MY WEEK...

i HURT MY ARM AND i HAVE TO WEAR A BRACE FOR A WHiLE

i LOST A FRiEND

i LOST MY PURSE

FOR THE FIRST TiME, i DiDN'T DO MY HOMEWORK

i SPENT WAY TOO MUCH AT THE MALL...THERAPY iS EXPENSiVE THESE DAYS

i AM EXTREMELY EXHAUSTED...MENTALLY, PHYSiCALLY, AND EMOTiONALLY

AND i AM JUST LOST.

AND EVEN THOUGH i KNOW THAT i'M NOT, i FEEL ALONE; LOST iN A WORLD THAT WON'T EVEN BOTHER TO FiND ME.

BUT LiFE GOES ON.

TOMORROW i WiLL WAKE UP AND EVERYTHiNG WiLL BE BETTER. i WiLL SiT AND SMiLE AND LAUGH AND BE THERE FOR OTHERS--A SHOULDER TO LEAN ON AND SOMEONE TO LiSTEN TO PROBLEMS AND DiFFiCULTiES--THE ONE WiTH ALL THE MAGiC ANSWERS--THE ONE THAT PULLS EVERYONE TOGETHER FOR TWO AND A HALF HOURS SO WE CAN BE CiViLiZED TO ONE ANOTHER.  BUT WHAT HAPPENS WHEN i FiND MYSELF NEEDiNG SOMEONE LiKE THiS?  WHAT HAPPENS THEN? WHERE DO i GO?

"and now again i find myself so far down, away from the sun again"

Currently Listening The Brothers McMullen: Original Motion Picture Soundtrack By Original Soundtrack I Will Remember You see related

an old song...but a good one.

I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don’t let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories

Remember the good times that we had?
I let them slip away from us when things got bad
How clearly I first saw you smilin’ in the sun
Wanna feel your warmth upon me, I wanna be the one

I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don’t let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories

I’m so tired but I can’t sleep
Standin’ on the edge of something much too deep
It’s funny how we feel so much but we cannot say a word
We are screaming inside, but we can’t be heard

But I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don’t let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories

I’m so afraid to love you, but more afraid to lose
Clinging to a past that doesn’t let me choose
Once there was a darkness, deep and endless night
You gave me everything you had, oh you gave me light

And I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don’t let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories

And I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don’t let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
Weep not for the memories

Sitting up on the roof
Sneaking a smoke by the chimney
Checking out the moon
And the city lights
He takes off his flannel shirt
And he drapes it around her shoulders
Slides up behind her and holds on tight
And she says
"I don't want this night to end
Why does it have to end?"
Tomorrow she'll be rolling down I-10
Baton Rouge, LSU
18 years in her rearview
He's got a Friday paycheck lined up down the block
At daddy's shop
It ain't much but its a job
They've been dreading this moment all summer long
The night before
Life goes on
A tear falls off her cheek and
Right when it hits his arm he says
"Come on baby
Let's get outta here"
They take one last drive around town
And man it
Already looks different
He bangs the wheel and says
"Life ain't fair
And this growing up stuff man I don't know
I just don't wanna let you go"
Tomorrow shell be rolling down I
10 Baton Rouge
LSU
18 years in her rearview
Hes got a Friday paycheck lined up down the block
At daddy's shop
It ain't much but its a job
They've been dreading this moment all summer long
The night before
Life goes on
Yeah that's what my momma told me
And just like those kids
I didn't wanna listen to no one
Yea theres nothing you can do
Theres nothing you can say
And I know how it feels when love goes away
Tomorrow shell be rolling down I
10 Baton Rouge
LSU
18 years in her rear-view
Hes got a Friday paycheck lined up down the block
At daddies shop
It ain't much but its a job
They've been dreading this moment all summer long
But here it is
They don't have long
The night before
Life goes on

Currently Listening Deep Blue Something By Deep Blue Something breakfast at tiffany's see related

ok xanga is getting really boring.

but just so you know, that last entry had no reflections on me or my life or my relations with other people.  that was actually a conversation between my cousin and her friend when we were all laying out at her pool.  her friend is 19 and is getting married and moving to florida and being a housewife and she just feels incompitent because she is the same age and she doesn't even have a boyfriend and that has been what has defined her life since 8th grade (when she started dating her exbf...they just broke up).  i was just reflecting on how that should not be the center of her life to get a new boyfriend...maybe God should be the center of her life...

alright sweet i'm really tired i have had a LONG weekend and that is going to turn into a great two weeks and then a LONG year. only two weeks of summer left...wow its been a short one. God bless.

"Why are we afraid to be broken? After all, God uses our brokenness and our imperfections to show His glory and His strength. It's not about us; it's about Him."--Natalie Grant