iluvguysndfish61's Xanga

Tuesday, April 19, 2005

Tue, 19 Apr 2005 16:44:39 GMT

my one n only game is tomarrow @ 3:30 @ the highschool gym(). srry if u cant come. im not so hot any how. (but some one else might possibly be....) EHEM!!!

where was i...oh yes. whadayamean "ewwy boys??" r u crazy? we LIVE, BREATH, and EXIST for boys. GASH legs, what were u thinkin? j/k. gtg.

luvy

torz

Tuesday, April 19, 2005

Tue, 19 Apr 2005 16:36:57 GMT

idiot. allegra, i gave this thing 2 alex, so now i cant really say 2 much anymore coz he might read it. will get my new name 2 u, once i come up w/ it!!! hows pickles n mike. u still like ine of them? or do u like peter!!! u n sarah did great on youth sunday, hehe!! gtg!

tori

ps im going 2 king of prussia in philly sun prolly!!! tons of hott guys there. will give out ur number!! hehe, j/k! bia!

Monday, April 18, 2005

Mon, 18 Apr 2005 21:12:30 GMT

i may make a new profile, cuz i gave it 2 some people n now cant say stuff i wanna tell legs

stupid tori!!!!

bia!!

tori

Monday, April 18, 2005

Mon, 18 Apr 2005 21:11:15 GMT

Water polo very cool. best part is, alex is there!! he is pretty cute specialy in his jammers, hes cool..... he's going out with maddie jones anyhow thought id update 4 allegra n jenna if she ever gets on. Legs, LOVE the new site. did like the old one 2 thou. Still after matt but it seems hopeless with trinity looming. is def going 4 guys who r normal n not all up @ me, so i have 2 work 2 keep their attention, which is good 4 me. Also, actually DO like bj. we're connected, somehow. dont get it really. its his eyes. ill tell ya if ya wanna here. promise 2 update again soon, but gtg.

love always (specialy legs coz i luv her!)

tori

ps hi alex if u come!!!!

Saturday, March 12, 2005

Sat, 12 Mar 2005 08:36:16 GMT

haha, allegra, you have to read my profile. its really pretty funny and basicly the cold hard truth about my life haha... i just think its funny...

tori

(ps, that whatever smiley is my new little logo, cuz that is sooo me most of the time!!!)

(not with you of corse!)

Saturday, March 12, 2005

Sat, 12 Mar 2005 07:48:44 GMT

sorry i didnt say much about sara and allegra's play. i waz rude and self centered in my venting, then took a walk down memory lane and started rambling. you guys, i loved the play. you were beautiful and amazing and i loved it! maybe ill buy you some chocolate.....

love all!

tori

Saturday, March 12, 2005

Sat, 12 Mar 2005 07:44:22 GMT

allegra and sara's play was beatiful, loved it!!!! im really mad because i gave matt 20$ for his birthday and i get nothing! just a friggn email that says "thanks for the card. it ment alot". alot my f****** a##!!!!! it means he can take every friggn thing we ever knew about each other, did together, and meant 2 each other and shove it up all the friggn preps that matt flirts with every single friggn day's friggn a**'s!!!!!!!!!!!!! he didnt even put my friggn name in it, like he 4got what it was. waste of my friggn 20$s. which is basicly how i ended up going after some adorable boy who was really hott, but basicly turned out 2 be a dud, not because of him, but because he happened 2 be in the friggn 5th grade!!!! dude, whats up with that?!? he looks like a friggn 7th grader!! i thoght he was old enough for me! waaaaaa. i lied because of my mom allegra. i had a terrible week. matt looked @ me, in the eyes, 2 times and i hate it when he does that. swear 2 god, its like he reads my mind and i read his. i try 2 send this vibe that says " i really dont care all that much anymore i just pretend like i do" but when i look in his eyes it doesnt work anymore cuz he can see what im really thinking. and the only thing i can ever get out of his eyes is a question, like "why do you care about me anymore, cuz we lost what we had a long time ago?" i think he might be mad @ me for likeing mike all those years and never really seeing him for more than a connection, which is a lie, because i think he was probably one of the best friends i ever had and ever will have. it would take a lifetime to describe all the little hints i pulled that he liked me in the fifth grade, but the one that haunts me is this: we sat one the floor of his closet, his room, his house. he told me secrets, the first ones of that kind i'd ever known. ones that we didnt want my little brothers to hear. like how one of his friends said he caught his brother and his brother's girlfriend in a closet stripping while they were makeing out. i was never nervous with him. he was great, a gentleman, my closest friend, at least 4 that night. we sat close on the couch, together, and watched movies like osmosis jones. i took his gameboy game home with me. i forgot about it. never forgot him. he came to my grandparents pool, once, with his mom and now in collegesister, who i had gone shopping with a good few times. we werent wearing much. we touched alot, never on perpose, but never awkward, never noticeing. we were close, sat in the really big tube while my brothers tried to find us. never forgot him. 6th grade came. mike broke my heart and went 4 carrie whitten, the friggn prep. i realized i like matt, because, to him, i had been fragile and real. in 7th grade i told him, asked him if he would go out with me. he said he didnt want a girlfriend. the ease of our friendsip shattered. i went home and played his game on my old gameboy. about a month later, i returned it to him. we went on a feild trip 2 philidelphia. he spoke 2 me, was kind 2 me. he showed me what id given up on so many counts. that was the last time he ever really talked 2 me. now hes beautiful and amazing and deeper than anybody but me can see, i think. and i guess, now that ive vented all this out, i truthfully cant blame him. sure, what he does is rude and painful, but it was me who closed off that chapter of our lives with countless and fatal mistaks, and now, no1 ever wants 2 talk about it any more. but i just did, and thats one misake i know i havent made.

Friday, February 11, 2005

Fri, 11 Feb 2005 18:37:49 GMT

blahh..... ive been workin @ the gym @ the y for like 2hrs every day and like running 2 miles nd im tired nd stressed. even though allegra wont get 2 read this till after the fact, i cant wait till skating nd the movie. see ya later yall, specially legra! bya

Tuesday, February 08, 2005

Tue, 08 Feb 2005 18:52:08 GMT

soooooo bored.... goin 4 cybex training in 5m nd counting. barely saw mjr today. hes still pissed @ me. think gracie is 2. cant tell lately. :( dunno. seeyalater allegra.
byez ;)

Sunday, February 06, 2005

Sun, 06 Feb 2005 22:23:06 GMT

Xanga

Too bad the eagles lost the superbowl. ohh well...... i reallllly dont wanna go back to school but itll give me a change to take in my supercutie. mjr (ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh). gtg. lol its way past my bedtime.