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Name: Alex
Birthday: 9/26/1988
Gender: Male
Interests: too many... why don't ya name it and ask me.
Expertise: none... for now
Occupation: Student
Industry: Research
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ICQ:  270075248
Member Since:
9/22/2004
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| TODAY IS easily one of the best days I've had every since school ended in May...
Carmen, Sharon, Jenny, Lam Pan, Billy, Cherlotte, Simon, Rainbow and Judith came over to my place to play!!
Although ar man and Lucy couldn't make it... but still, we had great fun!!
badminton, shuttlecock, wii sports, "STOP THE BUS" (special thanks to
jellybbb for teaching us this crazy game haha!!), Pizza Hut dinner,
draw-card big 2, hymns singing, basketball...
i really suck at wii golf haha "water hazard" for 4 times in a row haha!
treasure the time very much with you all... let's see when we can have
another gathering soon. really glad to have joined the CC christian
summer camp... made me good friends with all of you
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after all the fun, now have to concentrate on the research papers about the new and quick algorithm to price American options
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| so tired tonight
especially with the cold weather... makes me wanna just sit calmly in my room and feel the cool air
feeling a bit despair about my career in the future
these two months has really been a confidence-shaking period for me
not only got rejected by a few investment banks
but also unable to to understand the class material well... what's happening to me? i keep asking - is this my limit?
look, i know i am no math whiz honestly
i am no statistical expert as well
i ain't particularly sharp in finance and business
i have no interest in the boring theories in economics
god, what the heck am i?
why do i always need to search for my self-worth? am i not that confident me two years ago anymore?
suffering from a great lack of drive now...
today, heard ah ching talk about his regrets about his low GPA in year one and his worries in the future
yeah of course - no offence... i'm in a much better situation than him... but still i probably felt the same way.
am i expecting too much from myself again?
attended the dean's list ceremony last saturday... but actually i felt very stupid
truly i do not give a damn about this award
but i am still satisfied to attend the ceremony because i want my
parents to be happy, to be proud - this is much more important than my
own honor
to me, achieving something in life is not like getting some scholarship or award, or even some opportunity at investment banks
it's about honoring my parents, caring about my sisters, friends, my girlfriend, and having a good relationship with god
a week ago i made up my mind to break up with my girlfriend
but in the end, we stayed together. i realized it was about my goals in life
it was about our goals. it was about what kind of path you wanna take
in the future - it's too complicated, and it's too unpredictable, and
truly life's unfair. we can do nothing about it sometimes. but
sometimes when you look back at life, you realize all the miracles that
happened to you
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| i hate it when i lose control of myself again.
gotta mind your mouth, fool.
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| 學歐陽話齋, 都係時候約sam wong食飯啦
呢排班 RMS year 2班傻仔成日搞爛 gag
重無端端比人屈左做 RMS jong 創會會員嘅 P... 痴線 真係好無聊
點解我突然又寫番xanga?
因為我個好朋友 李傳豐 (亦即人稱的"呀信") 生日lor
20 嵗仔啦 哈哈哈哈哈
唔好重成個傻仔咁得唔得呀
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| i have been waking up before 7:30 for like - i don't know - 20 consecutive days.
hell, i just wonder if i'd ever get some sleep even on holidays... but
the thing is I just keep waking up automatically at 7:25, 25 minutes
after my 7 o'clock alarm rings
i dunno if i am in a family anymore...
i mean - when's the last time the five of us ate together at the dinner table? a month ago, maybe?
and god - i hate my sister for wrecking my computer
and for not giving back me $1200 for the wii that she promised to share with me
no, i don't think i'd ever get it back - but then again i really should
sympathize with her for the fact that she gets practcally zero stipend
for her internship
i really love risk management science
the more i think about it, the more i like it
or i should say the more i work at hsbc asp ccr, the more i like it
never mind quantitative finance or ifa - forget it
they're of a different style (haha screw you, qfn guys - just kidding)
i like strategic stuff with technical base, like analytics
it's the motor for much of the profits in banks (well, at least in retail banking, which is burgeoning as quick as ever)
but then again, i never really worked in an i-bank (or financial market-related stuff)...
maybe next summer - i really gotta try that out... the financial
analtyics in i-banks are probably even more exciting than the analytics
work i am learning now
when i entered university, pople asked me what's the difference between qfn and rms - and i never knew how to answer exactly
but now i realize, the question is for those who get a heck of A's in the HKCEE and are thinking of what to study
i think after you graduate, it's not the major people look at
it's probably more of the courses you took, the business-technical balance that you have and the whole demeanor of your person
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