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| i got a new xanga cus i don't listen to nirvana much anymore so sorry kurt is dead sucks now |
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| omg i think tonight was the worst night i've had in a lonnnng ass time just things finally hit rock bottem i thought it was already there but guess waht i was fuck'n wrong it'll get better i soppose but i'm guess'n it won't cus this looks like a problem thats gonna last and idk i've been think'n aobut going back to some old habbits and i just feel that no one is here for me annymore that idk i think idk i feel my freinds have out grown me like at the game to night i realized i think they have idk
tommorw night i'm play'n up in michingan with a band it should be could hopefully it will get me to be happy again but idk probly only for that few hours but here this song is realy describeing how i feel jonny cash and nine inch nails is a crazy combo but so good
I hurt myself today
To see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing that's real
The needle tears a hole
The old familiar sting
Try to kill it all away
But I remember everything
What have I become
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know goes away
In the end
And you could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
I wear this crown of thorns
Upon my liar's chair
Full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
Beneath the stains of time
The feelings disappear
You are someone else
I am still right here
What have I become
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know goes away
In the end
And you could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
If I could start again
A million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way
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| quote of the day "theres something here happen'n here but you don't know what it is mister jones" bob dylan
idk i'm realy depateing my life in genral what to do what i should be doing and how i am doing it idk i realy want someone i can lean on ifyou know what i mean but idk its just idk i feel like i'm doing all of life on my own so idk i'm wolloing in self pitty i guess.
i saw joel in school a few days ago he didn't look that good and i'm realy worryed idk i wish life would get better hard to belive about 3 weeks ago i was on top of the world thinking i was great and happy its supriseing how a few little things bring you down but well i'm on the way up because if you don't trying geting up you won't ever stand |
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| well today alot happened it was the homecomeing game
well first some mother fucker pissed me off at the pep assembly when the handicap kids were leaveing he said hey seth there goes the retards and my brother was being pushed out in his wheel chair actully at that moment. so i cused his ass out but i refained from useing voilent because that would make me as ignorint as him. then someone i respect alot kept doing things that made me feel like i was getting stab in my chest over and over again and idk i just kinda feel pissed idk i don't think i even want to go to the dance anymore because idk i feel i'll get disapointed if i go but idk. there was alot of fights at the game tonight the ambulance were in takeing people away i think someone might have gott'n fuck'd up real bad but idk.
the neo-naizes are martching here idk i want to go protest even know i know thats giveing them what they want as an orgainsation but dam it sure pisses off there indiviuals o well i've had one bad day in a week of bad days and i'm sure tommorws looking worse. hope your lifes are as good as mine or better. |
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