Again so much going on ... school starts back Monday which hopefully means more computer time for me. YEAH! Getting ready to go shopping for Moo a dress for her sister's wedding. I can't believe she is to be the maid of honor ... I have a real hard time looking at her and remembering she is only "almost 14". I was worrying about Moo and shoes (her towering over her sister), but then I remembered than Moo is much taller than Amanda with or without shoes. No way to avoid it unless Amanda wears stilts! Hard to believe her sister is old enough to be getting married. Amanda will be 22 in October. As hard of a life as Moo has had, her sister has had a much harder one. I wish she and I were closer but maybe in time and she deals and processes all she has lived through. I still think of her as my stepdaughter even though there is no connection now other than the connection her and Moo share.

It's been a rough summer. I just wish this past week had happened months ago. Things are not back to the way I wish they were, but things are out in the open and discussed ... meaning things are on the road to being better. As rough as things are/were we are on better ground than my mom and I ever were. That is a step in the right direction. This is ground never traveled for me and it is so hard because I have no experience to fall back on. God got us through the first part of the week and he will continue to guide us forward. I still stand by that if nothing else the legacy I leave will be turning those generational curses into blessings. It is one thing changing some of one's behaviors but things that have been ingrained for generation after generation, I feel at times like I'm beating a dead horse. HOWEVER, I do know faith and complete trust in the Lord is my salvation. By giving it to Him. if it is meant to be changed in my lifetime ... it will be changed.

I reread something in a book a blogging buddy sent me ... FINALLY a light went off. When the student is ready, the teacher will appear.

Please and Thank You, Lord.