So I'm like I'm incredibly bored right now...

I've been (mostly) studying all day and I just can't do it anymore. Finals start next week, but after that... FREEDOM!!! Well maybe... no definitive plans yet. I might actually end up having two jobs over the break, but we'll see what happens. I'm tempted to try to start up another Tech reunion and have everyone invade Wollman Rink again this winter break. I say we should. It's always so fun when we do it. Haha.

So... any thoughts? Elaine? Stephanie? Alla? Leona? Sam? Anyone?

Why is it that I only end up writing one entry a semester on here?

So after another full semester hiatus from xanga, I've decided to start writing again. There's no particular reason why I've started writing again. The urge just came back on a whim. I started reading some of my old entries and I realized that I was very goofy... and amusing... and silly in high school. I guess I still am to a certain extent, but I've grown up a lot. Ironically though, I'm more confused about myself and who I am now more than I ever was. In junior high, things were very clear. High school blurred the picture. College is even worse because I'm changing so quickly that I'm not sure who I am anymore or even who I'm becoming. I never thought I was held back in terms of my growth as a person, but the more I think about it, the more I realize there were A LOT of things that I never learned. It's very scary when you don't exactly know you who you are anymore, especially when you've always felt secure and confident in your abilities. It's even gotten to the point where I'm questioning my intelligence and the attractiveness of my personality. . It sucks, but it's true. Very odd, coming from Secret Agent Shortstuff, isn't it? Self doubt is quite out of character for a person like me.

However, there are certain things about me that probably won't ever change. I'll always love having my "Amy the Explorer" days. There's no denying that I get positively hyper when I've made plans to explore and then go on like three day high afterward. I'm pretty sure I'll always love a good thunderstorm, too. Not the wimpy ones where like you get soaked to the knees. I mean the ones where your underwear gets soaked, too. You know what, I have to make plans to do that. Yes, I think so... the next thunderstorm, I'm going to go out and bask in the rain until every single piece of clothing I am wearing is soaking wet. Haha... I feel more like myself already.

So it's like the first week of school...

And I'm surviving! Yay!

I've re-adjusted back to living on campus. I, of course, adore it. I have a single room (again!) in Century Hall so if anyone wants to visit, I can hook you up. Ironically, it's very quiet here considering Century is suppose to be the "party" dorm. Granted, I had originally wanted to live in O'Connor or Carey anyway for its reputation for quietness but really, it's so lacking in liveliness here. It's amazing how one or two people decide not to come back and then there's like no life here. I admit there were problems last year but they added to the personality of the suite. I took what we had freshmen year for granted. Nevertheless, I have a nice suite. Everyone's really nice. No funny habits to throw things off. (On the other hand, my heart rejoiced when my old suite mate walked into our class completely wasted. It felt like DaSilva all over again. It felt good. Haha.) Everyone seems in sync which is really cool. Little dull I admit but you know I'm happy. Hopefully, things'll stay the same. Believe it or not, St. John's fudged up and guaranteed too many people for residency on campus. So guess what? We have freshmen and upperclassmen living at the Holiday Inn at JFK. Like WTF? To start accommodating for those stranded at the Holiday Inn, they quaded all the triples and doubled all the singles. Fortunately, they have yet to mess with Century. Let's hope it stays that way.

Classes seem to be going well. I'm currently taking two Honors courses, two Hospitality Management classes, one Marketing course, and one Management class. They all seem quite bearable, though I'm worried about dozing off in the Marketing and Management courses. And please, explain to me how once I switched majors, the prices of my books tripled?! It's insane. The worse part? I can't even resell the two most expensive books because they're in looseleaf form. ArGH! My little wallet hurts. I can't even spend money to go out on weekends now that my weekends are freed up. Not cool.

In addition to all that, I finally got a job. True, it's no where close to what I was hoping for. I was hoping for a job at Conference Services or Graduate Admissions. I start working on Tuesday at the Department of Government and Politics. I'm still not to sure how I got that but I have it. It basically went like this: 

Little One goes to Lady (A) to ask to see if the desired positions are available. Right before Little One opens her mouth, Lady (B) approaches Lady (A) and pleas with Lady (A) to find her student workers for her office. Lady (A) looks over at the Little One and goes "Work-Study?." The Little One nods. Lady (A) goes "Follow her," and points to Lady (B). Little One, stunned, follows Lady (B) to her office. Little One, still stunned, sits through an interview conducted by Lady (B). Lady (B) says "You're hired."

So now I'm sitting in my little room in Century, still stunned, with a job that starts Tuesday. Sure, it's wonderful that the process went by so quickly but you know, a girl likes a challenge once in a while. So yea, I have a job now in Government and Politics. Yay?

Well to make up for any apprehensions about this new job I so quickly acquired, I get the chance to run for Hall Council Treasurer again. If the winds are with me, I'll just ride straight into the position. If not, hopefully, everyone will think my name sounds pretty, and circle my name on the ballot. One can hope.

So to start off the new school year, GOOD LUCK to everyone (unless you're running against me during Hall Council Elections... if so, *claws spring out and roars*)

The End of the Beginning...

So here we are... its really here. Took my last final this morning. Moving out tonite. Summer awaits. It's really over. My freshmen year. Can you imagine? One quarter of my college career is done for. In the fall, I'll be a sophomore living in Century Hall, once again, lucky enough to get a single again.

Yea, there have been ups and downs. Fall semester was fast and spring semester was even faster. It was a good first year, though. First year to manage on my own. I think I did pretty well.

It's kinda depressing when you really think about. I watched three of my suitemates move out at the same time yesterday. After I said bye and went back into the suite and I looked around and was like "What the fuck is going on?" There's no mess on the tabletop. There are two desks restored to its original place. There are bedrooms, naked of any signs of humanity. To say the least, my suite looks... dead. At the moment, there's three of us left. Regardless of that, I'm the last one to leave, which means I'll have to live here for 4 hours alone, and devoid of human contact. The fact that I can run around in my birthday suit doesn't do anything for me. It's just going to be me, this laptop, and the overstuffed luggage bags standing on my bedroom floor. The bed doesn't even have sheets on it. Solitude and stillness is good, but not at the price of human obsolescence.

Sadly, all that survives of this fast-paced first year of college resides only in my head and on the walls that we didn't clean well enough.

On a lighter note-

Academically, I pulled my GPA up. Since my grades aren't all in yet, I have to see if it goes higher. I have nothing much to say about this semester's classes, or last semester for that matter. Next semester, I'm back to the six class course load. All back to back in the mornings. Probably not the best decision on my part since I sleep late, I really should wake up later, too, but I'll have 5 more semesters to get it right. I also changed majors. I was official as of yesterday. I am a new Hospitality Management major. :)

On the love front, its still the same guy from the same high school. Shouldn't be any surprise to anyone really but there is an occasional antagonist here and there. Dumb in all honesty but they do it nonetheless. Let them buzz in my ear. I have earplugs.

As mentioned above, I'm moving back home tonight. Therefore, I won't say anymore about dorming life since I already devoted an entire section to it but if anyone feels like listening, I have plenty of stories.

So farewell, ladies and gents. If you need me, you'll know where to find me.