fucked up

did you all know that my life is fucked up? i have never cried so much in my whole life as i had in the last three months. my life has gone from awkward to amazing to wonderful to the best time of my life and now back down to the worst. do you want to know why my life is fucked up? its because i have moved away from the only place i have ever felt that i fit in. lets face the facts. the girl known as Lizzie Moore was a freak before she moved to carlisle Pennsylvania. no one liked her and she was retarted. but then she became normal and cool and loved life. suddenly way too soon her "understanding?" parents uprooted her sorry ass and made her move to a hell called Fort Monmouth new jersey. i never knew how miserable i was here untill i moved to pennsylvania. thank you bunches lauren connor and kelsey for making me realize how miserable i am with out you. did you know that sometimes i just sit there and wish that i had never moved to carlisle. seriously. i wouldent have to miss you all, and i wouldent have to know what a good place looked like. there is a quote that goes "grow where your planted." but the only problem is that i am stuck growing in nutrient deficient soil. please dont say you know what im going through, because unless you know what its like to have youre whole life torn apart and your heart fucking stretched so far its about to burst, unless you know what its like to smile and cry at the same time when you remember all the fun and the people you miss, unless you know what its like to hide in your room from your parents and sisters because you dont want them to know anything is wrong, unless youve missed someone so much it hurts, and unless you have cried youre self to sleep more times than not... you do not understand what im going through. i am a mess. i just am glad i have amazing friends who keep me from killing myself all together. most of the time i wish i could move back to pennsylvania... but then again i know no one would like who ive become. i dont enjoy anything anymore. please dont hate me...please. im gonna get better, im gonna get through this, im gonna br strong... or at least im gonna try... 

dont forget me

please.

Lizzie<3