Ok, Wifey
It can't be helped.  i'm surrounded by too many married couples to not think about marriage.

Now, it's not like i have this dream of a fancy wedding.  Or riding a tandem bike with my wife through a park.  It's just the thought of being married.  Like what would it be like?

Who do you get married to?  Is it someone who fits most into the dream girl mold you have?  Someone that actually tolerates you (and heaven forbid.. likes you) for more than 20 minutes?  Or is it someone who likes the same taste in TV shows as you so you can watch TV together forever?  i don't really get it.  Maybe it's confusing to me because for 17-odd years, i assumed my parents were happy together and then next thing you know they were divorced.  So all that i thought i knew no longer stood true.

Then i think of even further in the future with kids.  i work with some older people.  People old enough to be my parents.. or even older.  So they tell me stories about their daughters and sons in college and it kind of blows my mind.  Like i'm sure that i'll get married somewhere along the road unless i'm more repulsive than i think i am.  So, i'll probably have kids.  And those kids will be going to college.  It kind of makes you think.  Like will i be as..  weird as i am now?  Will i be posting on Xanga about how my kid is going to an out of state school and it makes me sad?  Hmm....

It's weird though because it looks like the older you get... the more compromises you make because the more desperate you get.  i guess that's the consequence of marrying late.  Your selection starts to get a little thin.  But the positive is that your competition gets a little weaker too.  Though that's also a bad thing.. you become more of a "oh well, i suppose i could do worse" or "i'm not getting any younger" candidate.

All i know is that if i have kids.  i'm going to take lots of pictures.  i like looking at old pictures.  But me having kids?  That's just scary.

Enough about that though.  Thinking about marriage is weird.  It's like one of those inevitable things, but i'm not really at a point in my life where it's realistic.  Heck, i'm not even with someone.  So why bother thinking about it too much?  Plus the more i talk about it.. the more people will think i'm like getting the marriage bug or whatever and it's bad enough when your mother and her friends get wind of that.

i don't get headaches very often.  Whenever i do, it really really sucks and i always feel like i have brain cancer.  It's so irrational, but i can't help it.  Maybe i just don't understand the concept of what a migraine is.