improvisationen's Xanga

Wednesday, September 05, 2007

Wed, 05 Sep 2007 06:25:51 GMT

utterly blind.
these days, it feels like the days that rain. constant cycling of the problems, cumbersome, unresistable desire to procrastinate...doing this doing that. the world stopped watching and evaluating who i am but instead upon what i can or can't do; my ultimate melancholy.

what hurts the most on the inside is when i work every day to the utmost of my abilities to fulfil my dreams, but failed anyway, silence among the crowds is still what all i get.

Tuesday, April 24, 2007

Tue, 24 Apr 2007 04:52:33 GMT

Smooth.
don't you feel like at some point in your viscinity, you realize that who you are is merely a part of disconnection in the world? i'm thinking sometimes that maybe part of me - or the most of me is nothing but an unplugged TV.. it's got RCA cables on the back and a 42-inch widescreen plasma display panel that's just loaded. you think you got it all. until you realize you aren't tuned.

but you think you are.
maybe i'm still standing at a point where i'm just not really in the senses of understanding what's around me. it's not really depressing. but for the fact that what hunts me down most is the invisible emptiness within the self.

Ditto - life for rent + see you when you're 40.

Thursday, March 29, 2007

Thu, 29 Mar 2007 22:49:59 GMT

Strength to carry on.
"In these hands, i have found the strength i need and they will clear my way, No Matter Where I Go."

Rest in Peace Marine.

Semper Fi.

Thursday, March 22, 2007

Thu, 22 Mar 2007 07:48:10 GMT

Frustration.
minds. simply said. information wants to be free. but can't if just said. you can see it but can't approach it. and actually you could. but you locked yourself away from it. and then it's said. "you just can't do shit." right.

Saturday, March 10, 2007

Sat, 10 Mar 2007 06:12:51 GMT

Entice.
Sometimes, there is almost no words to express things i wanna say.. aren't we all? this picture somehow got to me so instantly, it's this something that speaks for what i wanna say.. i think only i know what it is though. but that's a cool picture.

Wednesday, February 21, 2007

Wed, 21 Feb 2007 04:01:15 GMT

desire of.
i seek for what is not out there, therefore, it doesn't exist. until we make belive that such a thing does exist, then it is out there. what is true to ourselves, it cannot be seen or heard. the notion of you finding the "truth" is just a matter of having to wait patiently and 'see' to prove yourself that seeing is not with your eyes but with your heart and some imagination required.

you will know that you've achieved perfection in design, not when you have nothing more to add, but when you have nothing more to take away...

"..it is only with the heart that one can see rightly; what is essential is invisible to the eye." -antoine de saint-exupery

Saturday, November 12, 2005

Sat, 12 Nov 2005 19:14:18 GMT

blank.
well its been a long slow collision.
im wasting my life, youre changing the world.

so i need some fine wine and you, you need to be nicer.

Friday, July 22, 2005

Fri, 22 Jul 2005 23:51:56 GMT

sigh.
xanga xanga xanga xanga xanga.

no, i didn't forget you. be patient.
as always, time was and will forever be against me.

it never fails to amaze me.
what more can i ask for?

we am smatr.
they dumber.

Tuesday, May 03, 2005

Tue, 03 May 2005 00:46:19 GMT

let it be.

just feeling alive. and alive is brand new and never opened. preowned and prepaid. made fresh and charge complete.

life, well it's almost there. but can never be perfect.

just let it be.

Sunday, May 01, 2005

Sun, 01 May 2005 23:23:50 GMT

twist.

about a hundred more words until my essays done. anybody write anything over 10+ pages? what classes do that? i never did. i'm just writing upto four. i'm having this sudden headaches as i'm writing this entry, and all this writing is getting pretty much pointless.

what am i doing?