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Name: Gemstonn
Country: United States
State: New York
Metro: Queens
Birthday: 6/5/1986
Gender: Male
Interests: I love to run, and i play tennis, i like going out to movies with friends (i never even dared to go to c a movie alone (no offense out there, but i think going to the movies alone is courageous but lame)), meeting new people and wondering for how long with u be with that person...?
Expertise: I like to help pple, if i don't then it will be hard for me to sleep the night off...hehe... guilty conscience in other words sux even if it wasn't ur fault, leading is also an expertise of mine sometimes without even noticing i'm leading people on what to do and most of the time it works (i think), um what else is my expertise, o coaching or helping a teammate, it feels good when u c someon take ur advise n it actually works...
Occupation: Student
Message: message meEmail: email me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  Gemrocks2
Member Since:
7/2/2004
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| Summary of things that have happened and still Happening...Hi guys if anyone actually still read this thing...
I just want to share how it's been with me.
Things I've learned:
Dealing with STRESS and how to fight it!
Depression sucks ass
Running away from it is a big mistake
Dealing with it after you find out it was a big mistake only leads to good outcome
Letting stuff out instead of leaving it inside like a crucible, getting 'it' out of your "system" through talking and not only drinking it away actually helps! lol
BECAREFUL on who you trust on telling all of these things because a stab in the back is a painful sonovabitch!
You don't have to be nice all the time
Truth only hurts if you can't handle it,
Friends will ALWAYS be there for you and if not you can always leave a message and they'll get back at you, count on it.
Taking one step at a time
If you think it's gonna happen... IT'S going to happen! lol (so be positvie  )
I was always fearful that my success would end somehow, that i can't always be this successful, obsessing over this thought hurt me the most, because my thought was stuck on this [failure], little did i know i was in a complete downfall, I finally got what i wanted, my Fear of failure was behind me all that time when the thought started, I opened my eyes  and saw that I've hit rock bottom!
I examined rock bottom for a couple of months ok maybe more...
Accepted the fact I've hit rock bottom and all I can really do is accept the fact that I've failed, yes failed, fearing over it too much got to me, and I failed
I cried
became hopeless
Mad
wanted to quit
Then i decided fuck it and suck it up, I punched the rock, got back up and started to climb a stair that i know would be hard with each passing step with a harsh memory behind it, heart broken, I close my eyes and continue my journey, the only way is up for me, and my motivation for this is a motivation line told to me by none other than my best friend "Remember to always look onto your past because your success are smiling upon you"-Victor
Love stinks
And lastly i found out that losing a friend is my BIGGEST fear next to failure and i have to take my own advice and not obsess about it cuz it will happen if i don't stop thinking about it...
There are more but I've learned one mistake BECAREFUL on who u trust (listed a couple lines above ^ lol) so the rest are in my heart and these are the things i wanted to share hope it hepls some of you take the words mentioned above and do ur own interpretation
Behind all of this I had the support I needed just wanted to say thanks
i dunno who has xanga anymore so ye...
Just a couple shout outs: Victor your the best seriously it's more than a title Thank you is not enough
Friends I met in Albany thanks for keeping up with me,
:tear: i'll end it there lol
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| Wow let me just update real quick before I go to Class.....
OCTOBER 28-30 UNFORGETTABLE WEEKEND (well atleast most of it...)
I got wasted and i had fun with LIGA Family atleast with the LIGA heads
that were there, Shouts to Spunk who just put the light to LIGA (AHHH
We see the LIGHT)
I know that night will never be forgotten by anyone but me cuz like
what i said "Guys this is all a dream and it never happened good night"
(Gem knocks out)
Anyways guys when i start putting underwear on my head pls take it off....
But I am glad evry1 just laughed and had a good time i can go on and on
and on about this but u know what? What happened You tell Me then it
will refresh my memory!
Take Care Evry1 as i go on my quest on back to back examination!
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| Hi guys long time i know
I was just thinking about college and everything else why i do things they way i do
I mean i came to think or maybe the way i do things the way they are is
to try to escape my destiny, i try to distract myself (atleast thats
wat i think), meaning maybe i do a lot of stuff because im just scared
to do science (my major) and if i feel i do alot im lying to myself or
i'm building an excuse y my GPA is the way it is, i try to limit myself
from doing too many things but it just happens, it's just inevitable. I
just have to face my fear ( i didnt know it was a fear in the first
place), my fear is kind of ridiculous [u guys decide] my mentality
works as follows:
Great powers in history have collapsed from Caesar (Rome), to Genghis
Khan (Mongolian Empire), the Brittish (in early colonial years), in
times i know they were at their peak their powers so great, achieved so
many things but in the end they somehow collapsed. I feel the same way
i am just on this roll of succession that i'm thinking when will my
"reign" end it will end somehow the more i think about it the more it's
coming true. I think the flaw these rulers had was they became to power
hungry or became corrupt in the way, i came to think if i need to come
back to succeeding years i need to change...
I am going to change, im close to changing and i think i should...
Change is always not for the good (there should not be an excuse for
anything but excuse like my failure and things i do are just inevitable)
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| My computer crashed no computer for me..  im using some1 elses o man this semester is going to be hard and it wil suck... i want my computer back | | |
| So i am back here at UAlbany (#5 party school YAY!! getting better)
well i have been busy, ofcourse. I miss the city and the friends. So my
schedule is something i can talk about. Mon: 10:25am -11:20am Genetics
1:40pm-2:35pm Genetics discussion
Tues: 11:45am-1:05pm Organic Chem
1:15pm-2:35pm Geography
7:15pm-8:35pm US HIS
Wed: 10:25am -11:20am Genetics
Thurs: 8:30am-11:30am Orga LAB
11:45am-1:05pm Organic Chem
1:15pm-2:35pm Geography
7:15pm-8:35pm US HIS [THURSDAY is MY HELL DAY]
Fri: none lol well almost none
just one class so its 3 day weekend for me every week.
Thats my schedule i just to read a billion pages every day thats all so no partying for me atleast not yet...
My room is big i have no sense of decoration so i got me an IKEA
catalog and it will be nice if i had money with the catalog but i dont
so i guess i will just have an empty room for now. Well the good news
if you are ever around the area u r always welcome!! i have a lot of
room so give me a call! 
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