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Thursday, December 14, 2006

Thu, 14 Dec 2006 05:58:58 GMT

Funny. It occurred to me that not many of my closest friends are married or involved.

Monday, November 13, 2006

Mon, 13 Nov 2006 04:53:19 GMT

Long term Vancouver weather forecast is and more(can someone please tell me why people want to live in Vancouver? )

I am in a withdrawal right now because of this. Rain just sucks out of any good time I had in Punta Cana, Dominican Republic. I miss the sun, the locals, the beaches, and the adventures.

These days, I long for traveling aboard and exploring different cultures, instead of just working at a job that I find unrewarding. I forsee myself quitting my job and traveling around the world some times in 2007.

I can't believe this. Just a week ago today, I was sipping rum and baking under 30 degree sun. Today, I had to wear my tuque, endured pouring rain and cursed at every single bad Vancouver driver. It sure gets my blood boiling!

Anyhew, enough of sulking. I had a blast. I fully enjoyed my annual stress-relieving vacation, and charm and warmth of Dominican people sure did not disappoint me:

2 hour catamaran ride to Savona Island, a typical virgin Caribbean island. We had BBQ on the beach and more rum.

Look how blue the water is. Vancouver has what? Smelly Furry Creek?

This was where I swam with the sharks and sting rays. No, serious. I really did swim with the sharks and sting rays. Crazy eh? The night before the trip, I could not sleep. I was so scared. Just moment before I had to enter the water, I almost pee'd in my shorts. No pictures to share right now as I have to develop the film from my underwater camera.

This was the aftermath, getting first aid on a shark bite. Nah, I accidently kicked a coral reef after a shark came within 6 feet of me. I was bleeding. I seriously thought I was going to die. Blood + Shark = Jaw movie. Funny, I don't have much luck with water. I almost drown in Greece. I almost got swallowed by the wave in Cancun. And now this.

Me posing with a starfish, in a middle of the caribbea sea. That was a very strange natural phenamenon. Out of nowhere, the sea was only 6 inches deep. The locals call it a "Natural Pool".

Friday, October 27, 2006

Fri, 27 Oct 2006 06:07:27 GMT

I have been quite lethargic lately. Perhaps, "lethargic" is not the right word to describe my life the past few months. Hmmm... There were many meaningful and enjoyeable changes like moving back, settling into a new job and lots of golfing / playing hockey. However, I feel like I am trapped and wanna get out. It is like, what do I need to do to move forward? Strange eh? Ok, enough of me trying to be insightful. Let me just vent and let it all out

Stop giving me this farking silent treatment because your baby son is going on a vacation for a week. What am I, 5?

You are mad at me because I did not ask your permission if I can go away? Give me a break. I have gone to places before without your approvals. This is not the first time. Have I ever disappointed you? I called you every time just out of respect and left with details you could reach me in case of emergency.

So what I am spending money again? It's not like I have an extravagant life, and I work my as* off this past year to get to where I am in my career. I need a break. Work is stress. Life is stress. Having family pressure is stress. So this is how I pamper myself for have handled the stress well.

Or are you feeling upset because I am not taking you guys? Cut me some slacks would ya? I was willing to offer to pay for your trips, wasn't I, but you are so concerned about spending the money. Plus, we are spending time together as a family in LV in December anyway.

Ya, I am going with her. So what is the big deal. No, I did not pay for her trip. This is split equally right in the middle. I know where you are going, but that is totally an unrelated topic, which we will discuss later.

I seriously don't see why you are making such a big fuss over this because there is no reason to be upset or worried. With all due respect, I want to live the life I want. I seriously don't want to be sheltered.

Wednesday, March 01, 2006

Wed, 01 Mar 2006 23:07:40 GMT

NOT AGAIN...

Wednesday, June 22, 2005

Wed, 22 Jun 2005 18:50:34 GMT

FARK!!! Another one of those times where I don't know how to answer about commitment or future. I seriously don't know!!!

I am so emotionally immature

Friday, February 04, 2005

Fri, 04 Feb 2005 05:20:51 GMT

Have you ever applied for a job with the same guy, not once, not twice, but THREE times? It sure left a bitter taste in my mouth knowing that he ("boss")refused to consider my work ethics, attributes, education and strong desire to succeed to be any qualities that he wanted his staff to have. I felt like I was begging.

First time I met boss, I was looking for an opportunity with his old company. Apparently, boss previously hired my friend who I have met from my work and was not quite satisfied with my friend's performance, so boss was looking for someone to replace him shortly after my friend resigned. During the interview, he made an insulting assumption that I would not be able to handle the pressure because my friend failed, and we both were from the same company. That did not sit well with me because he was comparing an apple to an orange with that accusation. Of course, I did not get the job. Boss told my recruiter that I did not show enough interest. Oh well, c'est la vie!

Few months later, in the midst of the organizational changes within my company, boss jumped ship and joined us, an organization that he did not think highly of in the first place. I teased boss about how he felt like, becoming one of us, but he did not understand. Shortly after of his appointment, boss was looking for a manager to be his assistant. So I jumped at the opportunity and applied with great enthusiam. I tried to sell myself to him; how much my knowledge of the company and the industry would help ease his transition now and in the future, and blah blah blah. Ok, boss did not bite and did not even give me an interview. He went outside to hire someone else and paid $$$. Instead, I would have cost him $$.

Few weeks ago, my old boss recommended me to my boss's boss for a new manager position that they are looking to fill and believed that I could take on that manager position on top of my current role. I guess his boss was happy to hear that suggestion - 2 positions for the price of one! So he told boss to speak to me and ask for my interest. It would have been nice and dandy but boss presented in a way that he would like to see a role increase in my current role AND take on the new position. He structured in a way for me to fail. Me no dummy! I said whatever I could to be interested in the position yet protect myself at the same time. Today, I was told by a friend who was sitting in the meeting they (managers) had that boss presented to his boss in a way that I am not quite interested in the job. I heard that comment once already and it was absurd how boss would put words in my mouth on my behalf. So I went to his boss to tell him my interest and boss had to walk into our conversation!!! From the sound of it, they think I am too senior for that position. I smell something slipping away.

I really don't know why the *bleep* is he against me? Because I have the credentials? Because I am not fat like him? Because I am asian? Because I am younger? What am I? A piece of dirt? 3 strikes and I am out. peace.

I would rather still be in Cancun, where water is blue, beach is white and the weather is 28 degree!!!...

"man, I got my dignity and respect here! Why did not I stay longer?"

Wednesday, November 17, 2004

Wed, 17 Nov 2004 05:32:14 GMT

HELP!!!!!!!!!!!

I accidently spilled milk in my car and now my car smells worse than hockey bags or men's change rooms.

Any solution to make that smell go away?

Tuesday, November 09, 2004

Tue, 09 Nov 2004 05:09:43 GMT

Cancun

or

Cozumel

???

Friday, October 29, 2004

Fri, 29 Oct 2004 05:17:39 GMT

Sometimes, women are hard to understand...

Maybe I am just too afraid to open my heart...

Wednesday, October 27, 2004

Wed, 27 Oct 2004 05:54:06 GMT

Are we born with IT? is IT part of my makeup? How can I acquire IT if I don't already possess this trait?

It is funny how I notice things around me when I am going through this painful personal transformation. Even the littest thing will shed some lights, enabling me to uncover the mysteries about myself.

Tonight, I sparred in my kickboxing class for the first time after 8 months of training and torture. I was very tentative and very scared. I would get punched and punched on the face repeatedly (even by girls) without fighting back. I was not aggressive at all in the imaginery rink. I was soft.

On my way home, I realized I lack Killer Instinct, not just in kickboxing. I can vividly picture how I am like in sports or in my work environment. I always have the desire and the diligence, but I have never had an edge about myself. I am fully aware now that my potentials and my attributes have carried me so far in what I want to achieve in life, but I really do need to kick up a notch if I want to progress further along.

I sure could use this new discovery tomorrow when I have to negotiate at work. I don't mind to get knocked silly again. It was quite an experience.