Long since my last proper entry

In the midst of summer, I am stuck here on the 11th floor of One IFC. This is something that will look good on my CV, but I know, other than learning where to find past annual reports, I have not learnt much....The good thing about this, perhaps, is to get to know a group of new people, great people indeed, people that I sure would wish to stay in contact with long after this internship, these are people who appreciated what I have done and indeed I appreciate their support.

Exams results were terrible, too terrible to mention, at least, I have overall passed, the Matthew Fong today is nothing compared to the one in 2004, I have lost my focus, I have lost my motivations....and I must work hard next year.

Many things have changed this summer, Great grandma and grandma are both in poor health, auntie No8 is suffering from alzheimer's and auntie No4 from parkinson's. People people look much older than 6 months ago, it is all very depressing. And with my friends, many of them have finished with their education, these are now people who are responsible for themselves, the days of fooling around will happen no more, we shall see each other less often.

I've had a good life in the past 21 years, will this continue for the next 21 years or more? This is a silly thing to worry about, but surely a good life doesn't come without a cost. All I hope is I can live up to expectations, and carry on with this good life.

I read something about wants vs needs from somewhere, it certainly triggered some thoughts, this is indeed very true for a girlfriend. Of course I do want one, but do I need one? This is so me, too damn logical when it comes to these things, perhaps this is the reason why I am still single.