"can i stay at ur place tonite? they took my keys n everything away.."
"......"
".. its ok.. i can find somewhere else to stay.. its gonna be another GIRL tho! just to let u know..."
".. ugh... okok"
"i had my keys in my pocket the whole time.. hahaha"
"HEEEEEY!!"

"we should try n finish the movie next time"
"i dun think we'll be able to!"

"what's wrong?"
"......"
"it's everything.. isnt it.."

"u should really quit smoking.. well, both of us should.."

"ahh.. those menthols are bad for u!!"

"u stole my cigarettes!"
"huh?! what r u talking about?! wo mei yo ah!"

"coz u r the only one i know that will take care of me.."

"why r u crying..?"
"i dunno.."
".. i think u do know.. u just not telling me.."
"I DUNNO!"

"dont depand on someone to make u happy.. coz whenever u do, they only let u down.."

"..u shouldnt let me get to u like this.."

"i got something that i need to tell u.."
"..is it bad..?"
".. no.. its not bad"
".. is it good then..?.. yaya i know.. its not good either'"

"i wanna tell u something.."
".. i dun wanna know.."
"but"
"DUN TELL ME I DUN WANNA KNOW!"
"but i have to.."

"ur a really beautiful girl.. nice.. n everything"
"dun give those bulls"
"its not bulls! im speaking straight from my heart.. ur really cool n"
"ya BUT what?!"
"...... but im just not ready for a relationship right now.."
"... why..?"
".. im afraid that im going disappoint u.. i can tell uve been hurt before.. n i dun wanna hurt u more.."
"..u just dun like me enough to go out with me.. coz when someday ur ready.......... it wont be me..."
"i do like u!"

"... guys can't cry..."

"its really hard enough.. dun make this harder.."
"...."
"... aite... im gonna do the hardest thing i have to do in my life..."

"what r u thinking about..?"
"about what ur thinking about.. what r u thinking about?"

"u making this so hard for me.. coz everytime i see u, i just wanna kiss u.."

"i suck in bed huh.. haha"

"u said i was the one thats always there for me.. but i wasnt really.. YOU r the one that was always there for ME.. whenever i need someone to go to.. i go to u.."

Justin's really being a bitch..
fuk that "we're friends now, ok?" shit..
PISSING ME OFF!!! ugh..
he's the one that i really care after all..
but guess what goes around comes around.. sigh..
i hate school...

Big Bear was pretty good without the lil incident yesterday..
(Michael, Frank, & Mike talked to me about how i should be more resiponsible n stuff..
i felt so bad.. cried n ran outa the house..
everyone was out looking 4 me..)
i think a lota people think im a spoiled lil girl now..
but oh well.. Fila, Michelle, Sophia, n me were talking about forming our own new club/serority..
hahahaha.. so stupid... but gonna be so cool if it actually works! =P
also got a lot close w/ JJ =)
so touched when he told me that ive done nothing wrong...

thanks everyone!
looking forward to the new semester for CSA =)

woke up crying this morning..
i was with Justin in my dream..
n at the end he told me that he had to leave me
coz its just a bet with his friendz, altho he really luved me..
i just.. miss him SO much..
i act like i dun care about him.. n will be just fine without him..
but.. guess hes more important to me than i thought he was..
i can never forget when he said how he likes me but cant be with me..
when we were crying together..
the picture of him walking away..
when he came again.. n we had the best time together..
id just think about all those n cry.. like now..
i miss him so much.. so much.. so much....