k bye

I'd GIVE ANYTHING TO WAKE UPINYOURBED NEXT TO YOU

Ps.. i got a new xanga.

www.xanga.com/beeautiful_letdown

I need to stop spinning around
and just keep my feet on the groud
it's so easy to just let go,
But I have to say no

I want to Fly away
But I really have to stay grounded
I feel as though my body might decay
Because I'm always bounded

Need you

To show you who I really am

Is a tough thing for me

You don’t want to know…

But you’ll finally see

Lost in translation

You’ve become translucent

Maybe I need you

But I probably don’t

I don’t need you to bring me down

I can do that myself

I don’t need you to stick around

I’ll find someone else

You think I can’t live with out you

Well I’ll prove that your wrong

You won’t even realize

That I’m really gone

Or that it’s me singing this song

Ohh ohh I’m finally free

Free from the madness

That lies in your soul

But with this song I thought you should know

I hate everything that you did to me

I hate the night s that I wasted

Lying awake, not able to sleep

I thought I was in love.

Well I’m not anymore.

You weren’t honest

Go be with your whore.

Ohh ohh I’m finally free

And now your madness sickens me

She’s good for you she’ll cheat on you too

Hope your happy

Don’t worry you’ll miss me

You think I’m coming back

You’ll never see me again

But every time you hear this song

You’ll think of what we had

And you’ll miss me

Ohh ohh I’m finally free

Free from all the memories.

Can you tell im happy

When you hear this song….

I hope you miss me!!!!

How can someone that once meant so much... say such hurtful things to me?

I'm moving on. slowly. but it's definately happening. and everytime you say things... It just pushes me more towards... OVER YOU.

I don't hate you, but sometimes I wish I could climb through the phone and STRANGLE you.

I know... I'm just SOOOOOOOOO SWEET!

I never should have felt so strongly for you. You were a dick from the beginning I just never saw it. Or refused to believe it.

Remember when you told me to wreck my car on the way home... That was sooo adorable!

Oh and remember when you were lifting like a little bitch the other day... and you got mad because I told you *HE* benches more than you... haha that was funny!

I can be a bitch too.

HAHA... get into shape... That won't change who you are... or what your face looks like!

ANYWAYS

On to a better subject...

I'm serious...----------->>>>AMAZE me... you know you want to!!

Mr. BRADY is sick....

no CMSU this weekend.... bleek

I hate going to someplace... that you use to feel welcome at. and suddenly it doesnt matter.. you don't feel welcome anymore... I don't really have that one place that I always feel welcome at... ... not anymore... I feel akward walking into anyplace. so unwelcome. so... un wanted.

So... alone. WORTHLESS. invisable. hated. used.

I FEEL SO... dead to you.

someone quick... hurry Jump start my heart before I die.

"so Much for never making the same mistake. I can't believe I'm here again. So much for ever thinking that I could change. My good intentions still remain. in chains. She's gotta be over me now. Probably moved on with her life, found someone she knows she can believe. God I would give anything if i could just go back again. and be the man she needed me to be."

Well another update  for you guys...

Work called. ... I wasn't here.. haha. I was a t zach's but then I recieved a phone call and went and hung out with My brother, Heather and Brady <3    Yeah... it was cool. we all went to dinner at Tommy's ... and then we went and played pool at Bo Jos and got dirty looks from the owner and/or Manager...( since I just happen to be 17 and their Kitchen was Closed.)

Oh well it was cool.

I had fun... woo hoo.

What do you do when your left in the dust and the only one that's fully able to pick you up is the one that left you there?

I feel like I've been left in the dust, left behind to pick up the pieces of my past, just to continuously try to put them back together, but yet everytime I'm missing that one last peice.... YOU.

I hate my emotions. There up and down, here and there, I need someone that can understand them, more than I can. Someone that can.... put them at ease.

Everything I've ever wanted to say can be found in a song.

I miss the days... you know... the days. the days. when nothing was as appearant as it is now. back when i didn't realize the stupidity behind every persons smiling face. and back when you were just a dream, back when I hugn out with all the boys and all the girls told me i was going to catch "cooties" back when boys weren't important, and all I cared about was ... my stuffed animals. I wanna go back to those days. because the days i'm in are completely repeatative, never anything new, i want you to sweep me off my feet, like i thought you would when i was a little girl, I want you to sing to me with the radio on to my favorite song I want you to realize that theres more to me then whats here in front of you and I want you to recognize the real me instead of the me that everyone else sees, I want to fast forward to summer, so that we can drive to the middle of no where and just lay under the night sky just starring up ... and then seeing that perfect shooting star, then we can close our eyes and make the same wish. to be together forever, I can't wait til summer, I MISS YOU SUMMER!!!!