my heart died today.

hey this si a stupid poem i wrote in the car on my way to florida. note that it was a 20 hour ride.

im moving so fast

but things go by slow

ive been in this car

for ten hours or so

and as i sit here

i can only think

of how great it would be

if i was able to drink

so instead i watch movies

and lie here in wait

in hopes of sometime soon

to stand in front of the gate

its hot down here

as everyone knows

and i try to cool down

as the temperature grows

im waiting inside now

for the man dressed in black

and sometimes i wish

i could only go back

so onward inside

i walk into the house

to get an autograph ...

from the great mickey mouse

i no i no, its stupid.

ps. amanda, that was for u. sry bout the autograph

hey guys,

if u wanna read this ur in 4 a long one...

im back from disney world and it was ok. i went on almost every ride there. i spent a good five days in only four parks. everything that i wanted, and you guys wanted, was in the parks. and i was ready to buy them but then my parents friends told us that they got a discount at downtown disney, a chain of disney stores inside the parks. and we all figured that they would have everything that was in the parks. so we decided to get the things there. so on the last day we had no more days on our cards so we decided to go to downtown disney for toys. you dont need the pass to go there so we were all -score-. anyways, we got there and they had almost nothing. everything was way overpriced and there was nothing that i, or u, wanted. and since we used up all our days we couldn't go back into the park. so i didnt get anything for you guys or me.

and then theres today. the first day of school back from the vacation. and everythings going great. i did my english report last night, took me til one in the morning to finish. and everythings great until math, when i realizei didnt do my science vacation assignment. so im like -crap- and its too late to copy it off of anyone because i had sci the next period and the assignment was really really long. so except for that dimenor my school day was alright.

but then i come home. i have to watch my brothers and sister so naturally i spent most of the time in the shower avoiding the responsability. and then my mom comes home and shes in a decent mood for being her. but then she gets all nit picky and starts screaming. and this goes on every day and if you have a parent who does this to you then you know what its like. but for those of you who dont its like an irish banshee in your ear the entire time your home. dont get me wrong my mom is kool but shes just got the worst temper. and she agrees. and anytime your mad at her she brings back the time when her parents had fourteen kids. and that she needs help with her anger. but then she doesnt do anything about it. i think that she should stop spending the money on vacations and get help. still she could be cool but she needs help with her anger and how to deal with it.

anyway enoughabout me for today and thanks to all of you who are always there for me.

smell ya later

hey

"There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved."

- George Sand -

 im tired of all of these people that think their life is so bad. they have everything that they want but they still feel that they should have depression in their life. and all of those people who throw around "love" they say that they "love" some one but they need that other person in there life to keep them from hurt. ill tell you what love is because i think i have a pretty good understanding of it. love is when you see that special person and try to hold back a smile to make it seem like you dont like them but it forces its way out anyway. its when you cant go an entire day being mad at them. when it hurts that they're mad at you and u fell safe when they're around. like there is nothing bad can happen to you because they are there. and dont you just love those chick flicky movies where the ugly person becomes perfect and goes out with the perfect person. im just waiting for that perfect person. the person that excepts your pros and cons. ive only met two women(girls if you must) that fit that profile, but unfortunately i wasnt cool enough for them so the once perfect friendship comes to an end once you're capable of love. im tired of those people that act like they're too good for you and hide the fact that they like you, or mabey even love you. we all have people in our lives that make you think how would you get along without them. why does popularity have to determine whats right or wrong? i just wish that everyone would follow their heart and show how they feel and holding back. if you do that i guarentee that youll be missing a chance of a life time. so i hope everyone follows my advice and for gods sake follow your heart and not your ego.