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Wednesday, November 07, 2007

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    Live Forever: The Album
    By Magnus Carlsson
    Waves of Love
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    It feels so good!

    Like my title states, its great to be back here on Xanga with some of my old friends still blogging! Its actually quite shocking but makes me feel good as now I have people who can actually read my blog. Thanks to you guys and the new readers that I have including UBS.

    I knew I wanted to be a flight attendant when I was quite young and I think I've decided that I'm a lifer in the industry. I've sacrificed a lot in my life to be one, which includes much of my personal life, dating, and home. This definitely does include a lot of my relationships or lack there of. Though male flight attendants have a negative connotation attached to them as being "flying mattresses" or people that have men in every port.

    This idea, or stereotype, is something that I can't really deny as quite a few of my gay male colleagues in the field do tend to meet men abroad and end up having a shag in different ports. But why on earth does this idea have to be placed on many if not all gay male flighties. Yesterday night I met with UBS, as I had forgotten my phone in his car upon coming back from Buffalo, for Tea before his dinner companion showed up. So I brought up some news about the job and well he kinda got riled by the whole "naughty" flight attendant aspect about my job. He asked me a few times if I had boys in every port, to which I answered truthfully:

    I don't have boys in every port, but I did date a guy in Manchester and a guy in Vancouver due to the fact that I was in those two destinations for quite a while(long layovers back to back etc).

    So I dunno how I felt about it, I guess I felt almost a bit offended as in every job there are promiscuous people and then there are people who aren't. My roommate brought up an excellent point though... could the guy who works cash at McDonald's not get laid just as much as someone who works at 35,000ft? I mean when I pull a layover I feel like trash and just want to lock myself up in my hotel room till I deflate.

    I guess what I really want to know though is that why is being a flight attendant less trust worthy, as per relationships sake or being faithful, than an office worker? I mean one of my ex's had so little faith in me that he was prone to faxing the hotel a list of do's and dont's for me. Its one of the reasons why I rarely want to date outside of the industry not for non-industry folks naivety but just to save on paranoia and mistrust. It can def be very hard for someone. Advice anyone?



Monday, November 05, 2007

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    Live Forever: The Album
    By Magnus Carlsson
    Waves of Love
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    Tired!

    I must apologize to everyone as I did say that I was going to post over my night stops in London and Paris! I unfortunately never got around to it as I had a really great crew and so I didn't have time! Sorry!

    So yesterday I made a trip to Buffalo with a guy that, well, I started to see. It was our first date! :P Can you believe that?! To my apprehension I had a great trip! I woke him up fairly early on Sunday, as we had made plans previously that we would head over to the States, and we took off late in the morning. Course the drive down was a lot of time for us to talk and to get to know one another. Gotta love those circumstances where you're thrown into a closed environment when you have to talk to one another eh? So after a full day of wandering around the Walden Galleria and our purchases of a very expensive formal/informal jacket and (my obsession now) PSP and DS movies and video games, we made our way back to Canada.

    On the drive back I got to thinking of some dilemmas that I would have in deciding to actually see this guy again. I had this problem before with a good friend of mine that I've been friends with since coming out in Toronto. This friend lets call him "Faith" has been a good friend to me, but when it has come to guys that we both liked... well... it was a bit tough. The first person, "Blue," that we had a problem with was a sticky situation as Faith introduced us only so that they could be more comfortable on their date. Course what ends up happening was that Blue ended up liking me and asked me out. Obviously shit ensuited and it was not the greatest of situations as Faith and I ended up not talking and almost becoming enemies. It ended up with me breaking it off with Blue as I valued the situation with Faith a lot more. Course this happens three more times over the course of our friendship. So what am I to do?

    This new person, "UBS," is quite nice and actually we kinda ran in similar circles when I was younger and its only now that we really noticed each other. And the only reason really that I really knew of UBS  was due to Faith who told me that they had a crush, of sorts, on him and started chatting him up now that UBS' relationship ended with their ex. Faith even invited me out to go to one of the local bars so that they had someone to be with at which UBS would be at! Oi vey...can we say uncomfortable?

    Alas so I don't know what exactly I should be doing at the moment with this situation exactly. Though I do enjoy UBS and I think that me and him do share similar values and each others company, but I don't want to break Faith's heart, if you knew them you'd understand why I don't want to do this. A rock and a hard place. Any advice?

    So, it's been quite a while since I've actually written anything -- thats why I've just added a few photos to this first real blog entry. The first is of a colleague on the ground and yours truly pre-flight at the airport, the second is at the poltergeist steps?! Or exorcist steps? Which was my trip to DC. The third is a meal from our sister airline based in the UK, next is with my good friends -- in which we have bi-monthly get together's and finally, you may have already seen this, in front of my beautiful bird!


Wednesday, October 31, 2007

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    Stand by For
    By Mans Zelmerlow
    The Prayer
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    My First Post

    So, I've returned!

    It's been a number of years since I've typed any kind of blog. I've been quite busy with flying and all but I think coming back is a good thing since I'll need to hone myself to sit down and study and what not now.

    Hopefully you can expect more blogs in the upcoming week, especially on the first when I start my first pairing of the month which is to London! Look forward to writing and well see ya soon! It's good to be back.

    ~Johan