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| Eep. Today could have been better. I did some exercise (i use that term very loosely)
I guess I'm just finding it hard to get back in the swing of things... but i will get there, maybe take my journal to work tomorrow. We'll see it usually helps. DISASTER DIARY 1 cup of dry all bran weaties 2 cups of hot chocolate (eep... dispite it being burning hot outside its freezing at my work... tomorrow i will bring tea) 2 Bottles of water ( should be more) 1 Apple 1 tupperwear of carrots 1 salade 1 smalle viniger salade... .... and the kicker NACHOS terribe... of and a pint, and a half. Terrible. I dont even want to talk about it... im out. 
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| Well Im Back.  I guess I have been gone and back, off and on for the past 3 years. So lets see how long this one will last. I need to regain some kind of control over my life again. I dont have that and its driving me crazy out of my mind. So I will be back. head on, i dont think I have ever weight this much. (which is what i saw everytime i come back) I am tipping the scales at 143. I may very well had weighed a 145, or 147, at some time in my life. But i feel terrible, and this just wont do.
Look for my disaster diary, and thinspo. Coming soon!!
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| OopsOk so the weekend i dont get to my computer very often. So i guess i have some cathcing up to do... what a weekend. I had so many amazing plans and then they all went to shit. Literally! Friday Disaster Diary 1 Apple 2 Bananas 4 bottles of water 1/2 can of pepsi 1 35cal 0 fat yogurt 2 small brownies (eep) Saturday Disaster Diary 2 cups of soup 1 small brownie 4 bottles of water Eating wise it was ok... i didnt get any exercise, although my legs kill for some reason. Tomorrow i start my new job, and im going to walk instead of taking the subway. I wish i had more to talk about... but as of right now. i dont. love love love    | | |
| WeirdOK so needless to say right now i feel weird... which is weird by itself. Today was pretty uneventful. Went to Costco with the parents. picked up a few things. then they decide to eat lunch there, i didnt get anything... and then for some reason my dad decided to eat there. If they we had gone home i would have been able to lock myself in a room and not look/smell all the food. But i think in a way he ate there to punish me for not eating. But i didnt even look at them the whole time. Then i came home and sat in front of the tv. Did no exercise except walk my dog. i made myself a pretty good salade, and then sat some more in front of the tv. Eventually my best friend came and picked me up and we chilled. Literally didnt do anything all night!
Oh well i still had fun and all in all it was a pretty good day for me and Ana. DISASTER DIARY 1 black coffee 4 bottles of water 2 cans of diet pepsi 1 small salade, with 1 hard boiled egg, and 1/2 an ounce of chicken, some cheese (boo) and that spray salade dressing. 1 all bran bar And that was my day. i wish i had more to write about but i dont... tomorrow i may go dancing, if not tomorrow then saturday. love love love   | | |
| SupriseWell here i am... back again. I cant say I'm suprised. I guess i havnt been as far as i thought. When i stepped on the scale this morning and saw 137... i almost died. The lowest i have been was about 3 years ago when me and my boyfriend got together... i was 82lbs. So now im back. I wonder if any of my friends from years ago are still on this thing... doubtful. Oh well. Xanga always helped and i have my thinspo journal. Whenever it gets tought i open my book grab a magazine and start cutting out pics. DISASTER DIARY 4 bottles of water 2 cans of diet pepsi 3 dried mango slices 1 apple 1 tin of sardines 11 saltines. ok... tomorrow will be better. I also have to start back with my work out routine... i do dance twice a week... but i use to dance everyday. So i have to be more active then mondays and wednesdays... Tomorrow will be better... i can feel it! love love love   | | |
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