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Name: Bethany
Country: United States
State: California
Metro: Los Angeles
Birthday: 6/23/1985
Gender: Female
Interests: Living for and loving Jesus, smiles and laughter, good quotes, good books, heated debates and discussions, dreams, God's creation, love and friendship, Europe, and accents!
Expertise: I love to smile, I'm great at smiling...If I'm not smiling, then you know something is wrong...there are many things I can try to master, but I don't think I can ever acheive true greatness, but I can keep striving for it...Philippians 3:14 "I press on toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus."
Occupation: Student
Industry: Medical
Message: message me
AIM:  wannago2paris
Member Since:
9/24/2004
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| nervous and scared... so i just rear ended somebody about an hour ago and am freaking out!! i was sitting behind this care at a stop sign and i thought they were pulling out into the street (apparently they just needed a clearer view though) and so i took my foot of the break and did not put it back on in time and i tapped their rear fender...we both got out and looked and both agreed we couldn't see any damage...but she asked me for my name and number "just in case." that's the part which scares me...if she couldn't find any damage, then why would she ask for my name and phone number??? i took pics of her fender with my cell phone to play it safe, but am still nervous and scared...this is the first time i've actually hit a car! i hate just having to sit here and wait...my mom and dad both say not to worry about it...worst case scenario is that she has a paint scratch on her fender that i will have to pay for, but they said as long as there wasn't any structural damage, there would be no need to file it...that helps calm me some, but i hope that there wasn't something there we couldn't see...maybe i'm just making myself nervous over nothing...but in the heat of the moment, i can't help asking myself...maybe i didn't look good enough and missed it??? i figure if i don't hear anything from her by this weekend, i'm in the clear, right??
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| love and marriagewow, it's been a long time...i should come back on here more often, i found sometimes just blogging on here cleared my head because i was kind of able to journal out my string of thoughts...it was nice...however, i got sidetracked with school, life, and work...oh, did i mention that the guy i started dating over two years ago proposed to me last september???? that would also be part of the reason i haven't been back here in a while...i love hanging out with him more than hanging out on the computer...now we are planning our wedding for june...i am so excited to begin my life with him and be able to see him everyday and never have to say goodnight! ah, it will be like a little taste of heaven on earth. I am so glad that God invented marriage! anyway, more to come! i miss you all (any of you who still read this anyhow)...
"Grow old along with me! The best is yet to be..." ~Robert Browning
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| friends/life friends are wonderful...life is beautiful!! God is good!
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| hmmm...i was sitting in my room this evening with a cup of tea nearby and attempting to work on my essays for my test when i heard a bird singing outside my window...let me give you some background here...it's almost 8 o'clock in the evening and i'm sitting there overwhelmed with life, missing my boyfriend because it feels like it's been forever since i've seen him and because of school and work, it feels like an eternity until i see him again, and just feeling slightly depressed probably due to hormones, but probably exacerbated by my feelings of overwhelming dread concerning school...anyhow...here i feel depressed, about to fall apart over school, and sad about not seeing my boyfriend as often as i would like and a bird is singing at night!!! i don't hear that often...and it got me thinking how depressing i must be if i can't even sing out amidst all my troubles and worries...it doesn't mean i have to be happy about them or even like them...but i should - i need to find some joy even when i feel this way...but i was almost angry with the bird for being happy...and then i felt bad for being angry at the beautiful bird, and then i realized how i should be more like that bird...oh how i wish i could right now...
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| New Year...It's 2007 already...an new year...what exactly does that mean? "New," defined by Webster's dictionary, means the following:
1) having recently come into existence
2) having been seen, used, or known for a short time; novel
3) beginning as the resumption or repetition of a previous act or thing
4) different from one of the same category that has existed previously
I don't like #3 and yet sometimes i fall or i feel doomed to repeat the "tragedies" and the mistakes of last year (whatever they may be). But "new year" vernacularly is looked to exist within the bounds of #4, as different from the year which has existed previously. We always strive to and want something different (or better maybe?) than the previous year. And we try to learn from our mistakes. We make resolutions and often times never keep them. What are resolutions really? They're made in order to "resolve," to answer, to determine, or analyze our problems into simpler ones - ones which we can deal with. We should not resolve to do something unattainable, that defeats the purpose of a "resolution." But what we should do with resolutions is do everything that is reasonable to do to help resolve our more complex problems. My boyfriend, whom God has lovingly placed in my life, gave me this method to help me with my problem of stress and worry. He told me to write down all the reasons and the areas that I stress about in life. Then he told me to write down every way which was reasonable for me to help with that stress. I didn't need to fix the problem (since most of my worries are out of my hands to completely fix), I just needed to find a way to help the problem and as I worked on helping them, I was ultimately helping myself to deal with my stress and worry in a very healthy way. I'm still working on this, or rather, resolving this, and I probably will for a while, but I find that as I take that advice, each time I worry, the load gets a tad lighter. Resolutions are a part of a process, you can't expect a problem to fix with just a simple resolutions...it takes work, effort, diligence, and time. Time is of the essence! So with this year's resolutions, firs tmake sure it is set forth to determine or "resolve" a bigger issue, and second, make sure your resolution is set forth by means of doing everything that is reasonable to help reach that goal.
Remember that your strength lies in the Lord and that following the Lord and leaning on Him and not your own understanding (Proverbs 3:5-6) can get you through anything...(Philippians 4:13)
Micah 6:8 "He has told you, O man, what is good; And what does the LORD require of
you But to do justice, to love kindness, And to walk humbly with your
God?"
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