i was given a second chance for an action that i know i could have controlled better. i tried to stop it from continuously going on but i guess it didnt really help. knowing that i shouldnt have had been given a second chance but knowing that you care for me so much makes me realize how special you are as a person. that you have a trust in me. i know my action was wrong, and i learned a lot from it. i really did. almost losing the one person that has really been an impact in your life, that has brought smiles to my face and words out of my mouth that i have never spoke before to having been told that you considered "us" as a nothing anymore i knew i had to start changing some habits. as of rite now, once again, you are in a whirl wind about what you know. iuno what you have heard but im probably sure its something to be really pissy about.

i love it how pepo talk shit about me. especially this this one person in particular...

i was told that i am "player", that i should not be talked to, that i'll onlie hurt your feelings, that i talk to a lot of pepo. kinda makes me wonder....hrmm that sounds like someone i know. yeah i talk to pepo but i dont think i talk to a lot. yeah conversate with um but as a friend. im not trying to fkn get with um. i know what my fkn boundries are! iuno what im talking. random thoughts are being put out. im really pissed. im really sad....or jus in a state of a thousand emotions rite now. if it has to end, im fine with it. i mean i dont deserve a third chance if it comes down to it. let alone i never thought that i deserved a second. 

im no longer updating this piece of fkn shit. im out. peace out muthafkers!

iM NO GOOD FOR ANYONE!

i jus fk things up. anyone reading this, please dont leave a comment or call me saying no im not and all that comforting shit. cause its stupid to try and fkn disagree with something everyone else agrees on. ever since "it" happened, many things have been working my mind like crazy. i feel im not worth having as someone to love. im not a true friend. i dont know how to be faithful. im boring...........*tears*

ARiES
A dramatic incident will highlight the pros and cons of a current relationship in sharp contrast to those days gone by with previous companions. Look to see your popularity tethered to the whims of a rumor-fueled crowd of people.
- today's horoscope [astrology.keen.com]

EDiT: im not worth having. i onlie fk things up. it seems i prove myself wrong as im blind to see how immature i am. how childish my actions are. how dumb my mind works. i have a really fk'd up life. i dont know how to live. every person i come in contact with i seem to really fk them over.

iM SORRiE i...

its hard knowing that i've made you think about the 'us' topic for a second time. im far beyond sad jus knowing that i always make you think *tear* im sorrie. makes me think am i worth the time for anyone. dun feel bad for bringing up the subject. its my fault.