It's happened.

I am, once again, agnostic.

I have little if any faith.  I really would like to believe, but it just doesn't make sense.  I won't write out my thoughts on here because if someone unsure read it, I might just push them over the edge.  If I'm going to go to hell, I'd rather not take anyone with me, because that's just selfish and mean-spirited.  I'm still working on my theory of morality, because I think that is one thing that Christianity gets (mostly) right.  I'll probably base it off of Locke and the concepts and philosophies behind the creation of the United States of America, along with some other philosophers.

A friend of mine said I needed to read Alistair McGrath, because he makes some good arguments for the existence for god.  Actually, he just said that he beats Richard Dawkins in debates.  I'm skeptical, but interested. Of course, in the interest of a fair fight in my head, I'll probably read Dawkins stuff, too.  I try to be fairly open about various ideas, but some just don't make sense. I'm gonna stop myself from delving into that because I said I would already.  If anyone of faith reads this, I sincerely hope you find what you seek (or that what you seek will find you, as some like to think of it).  I very much wish you the best of luck.  Don't take any of mine though, it hasn't done me much good.

HA. It's finally done.  I am content with my past in that respect.

What is it about "should have" situations that make us so miserable?  It's not like we could have made a different decision without different reasoning, which requires different knowledge, which, had we had that knowledge, we wouldn't be thinking about that situation anyway.  So why do we bother?  I don't know. Maybe it's a learning mechanism in our psyche that helps us to evaluate perceived mistakes to reduce future mistakes.

I think that a key to overcoming remorse is first, properly analyzing the situation to see if you could have done something different based on what you knew, and second, if you couldn't have done anything different.....let it go.

It's so hard for us to let go of things, which is probably why half of our time is spent in at the shrink these days.  Just sad. I'm not really going anywhere with this, I'm just glad I'm done with that.