Listening\\ the sound of my heart beating for hers..

It's been quite a while since I last updated this thing. It's been almost a year in fact.. So much has changed since then and now. People grew up.. People grew apart.. People grew together.. People have changed. Anyways, let's recapitulate what has happened over the past year.

The rest of senior year was a pain. We had so much work to do. Honestly though, all that work actually made the relationships that I had with my friends stronger. The times when we had late night study sessions trying to cram every last bit of knowledge into our heads were also some of the best times we had all year. Physics, english, and calculus tried to break us, but they only made us stronger. Senior ditch day was not what you would have expected. We all left to go to Denny's, but what the school didn't know was that we all told our parents already. The office was calling each and every one of them trying to get us in trouble, but it was to no avail. Senior trip was a blast. I didn't think that I would enjoy it that much. Acceptance letters eventually came in the mail. My mom really wanted me to go to UCD. I had no idea where I wanted to go. There was just something about UCD.. I talked about it when I was younger. Going to Davis that is. I prayed about it. The more I prayed, the harder my mom pushed me to go to Davis. Was this a sign? I don't know. But whenever I don't do something that she suggests me to do, it always ends up bad. So I finally made up my mind and sent my SIR to Davis. In the back of my mind I was hoping that I made the right decision. Graduation felt very surreal. I couldn't believe that after thirteen years I was finally there. That after thirteen years of work and sweat it could all be summed up with one night and a piece of paper. Graduation passed. So did my first month of summer. I didn't really celebrate my birthday. I just spent it with friends watching Hiyas perform. A few more weeks passed by, and it was time for summer advising.

The first day of summer advising was bad. I'm not really an out going person, so I spent most of my time alone that day. Later that night, I met someone named Vi at a thing showing TKD. It was weird having a yellow belt talk to me as if I were a white belt. In situations like this, you just have to stay humble. Anyways, on our way back from the ARC, Vi invited me to have breakfast with some people that she met earlier. I accepted her invitation, and went to my room to get ready for bed. The next morning, I met the people that would become my core group of friends (Tanya, Smokey, and Vi from last night). Little did I know that one of them would turn out to be much more than a friend. As the day progressed, I found myself developing a little crush on Tanya. I thought that she was pretty and as cute as a button =P. Later on I found out that she was in a relationship with someone, and I decided to keep my distance from her just incase my crush grew into something more. Well, advising turned out to be great. I kept in touch with most of the people that I met. Not so much with Tanya though because I knew that her heart belonged to someone else..

More time passed. People started leaving for college. I was the only one left of "the kings" that hadn't started classes yet. The day that I left for Davis, Charles came to visit me. It was good to have a laugh before I left. As I was about to get in the car, my dad handed me that car keys and told me to drive. So I drove all the way to Davis myself. After I got my stuff to my room, we said our good-byes and my parents left. I did a little unpacking then I met up with my friends from summer advising. Smokey tried to teach me how to ride a bike. haha. It didn't turn out too good. Later on in the week, Thursday I believe it was, I walked with Tanya to find where our classes would be. I swear, we had to have walked at least five miles. Well, that's what we like to say it was anyways. I got to know her a lot better that day. We talked about random things the whole time, but it felt like we had a really meaningful conversation. On Friday after "The Buzz", I was really tired and I passed out on Tanya's bed. I woke up to her playing with my hand. I thought nothing of it and went back to sleep. (She tells me later that I was touching her knee and playing with her hand first. I promise that I was sound asleep when this happened.) The next day, we all went bowling. As we were walking back from bowling, my hand brushed against hers. This happened several times. Finally, our hands met. Her hand fit so perfectly in mine, almost as if it was made for it. Later on that night, Tanya asked me what was going on between us. I had no answer for her at the time.. I was wondering if she still had feelings for him. I really hoped that she didn't.

The next couple of days, we were inseparable. Our bond just grew more and more every day. On the night of October 3, 2006, she asked me if this was a relationship. At that moment I had an answer for her. We both nodded our heads yes. It's been a little over a month now. A month and two days to be exact. I couldn't be happier. We've shed many tears together.. poured our hearts out to each other.. and afterwards we always get something to eat. Seems like a winning strategy to me =]. Well, that's about it. I don't have much more to say. I guess I'll end with this. I pray every night that what we have now won't be washed away with the waves of time, that her hand was still made for mine..