Her heart still slightly ached for
the one she met, but never quite knew.
-Chloe Higashida

Greater than the tread of mighty armies is an idea whose time has come.--Victor Hugo

Do you believe in heaven?

heaven heaven, or here with you heaven?

-8 simple rules

"Everything you can imagine is real."

--Pablo Picasso

Forgiveness is a virtue of the brave.
--Indira Gandhi

Music happens to be an art form that transcends language."
--Herbie Hancock

Music is a moral law. It gives soul to the universe, wings to the mind, flight to the imagination, and charm and gaiety to life and to everything."
--Plato

"All love shifts and changes. I don't know if you can be wholeheartedly in love all the time."
--Julie Andrews

"Love is the flower you've got to let grow."
--John Lennon

She rolled over and stared into his eyes,
"Promise you won't ever forget me again."
He kissed her forehead & said, "I never did."

Man, it takes a silly girl to lie about the dreams she has. Lord, it takes a lonely one to wish that she had never dreamt at all.
-Carve Your Heart Out Yourself by Dashboard Confessional

too often we're scared, scared of what we might not be able to do, scared of what
people might think if we tried. we let fears stand in the way of our hopes. we say no
when we want to say yes. we sit quietly when we want to scream and we shout with the others when we should keep our mouths shut. why? after all, we do only go around once. theres really no time to be afraid. just do it.

Life happens to us,
The only certainty of it all
is that it just keeps happening.

I remember every word you ever told me.
I can't stop thinking about it.
So I keep talking.
Because I’m so scared that you'll stop

Life is a beautiful thing. Don't let bad experiences, misleading thoughts, or discouraging people get in the way of living your life with happiness. Life is too valuable to allow these small disruptions shatter your joy.

And no matter what the situation may be, just remember to hold your head up high. it may be a long way to the top, and you may stumble and fall once in a while, but it's better to pick yourself back up than to watch someone else make it while you're left on your knees.

No day is truly over if it makes a memory

The two hardest things to say in life are "hello" for the first time and "goodbye" for the last.

every second brings a fresh beginning.
every hour holds a new promise.
every night our dreams can bring hope,
and every day is what you choose to make it.

i am coming to terms with the fact that
loving someone requires a leap of faith,
and that a soft landing is never guaranteed.
- This Lullaby

Here's to all those girls who used to be his number one. The ones who waited all night for him to call, only to check the caller ID the next morning and be disappointed. The ones who made it through that bitter break up, dried your own tears, and moved on with your life, only to have him walk back in it months later like nothing ever happened. Those of you who cried on the first day you talked again because you knew exactly where this phone call was going. The ones who listened to him say, I only want to be your friend, one day, and the next, listened to him say how much he loves and misses you. We deserve something, and this is our tribute. Here's to the ones that took him back, hoping that maybe this time, he was different, hoping that maybe people really do change. We listened to our friends tell us that we were stupid for even thinking about giving him another chance, caught crap from our parents, and even snuck around to see him for while. We went through the great stage with no fights all over again. We started this out thinking it would be just friends, and ended up falling in love with him again. We wanted nothing more in the world than to hear him tell us he loved us too, that even though things were bad in the past, they would be different this time. And when we finally heard it, it was like we were dreaming. This is for us. Here's to the ones who believed what he said, sat around all over again waiting for a phone call that might come in a few hours, or a few days. Here's for the tears cried and dried all over again. We wanted so desperately to believe that he was really busy, he couldn't possibly call us at that moment, or even that he fell asleep early. We trained ourselves to believe the lies because we wanted to believe we had found the one for us. We learned to settle for someone who didn't treat us the way we should be treated. Here's for the ones who did their hair and make up and put on their prettiest earrings, only to hear him say that he couldn't see us today. The ones who never believed it when people told us there might be someone else. We just couldn't believe that he could do this to us again. This is for those great girls, who loved him more than words can say, and took him back no matter what happened last time because they couldn't bear to look back on their lives one day and wonder "what if". This is for the girls that stayed up all night long listening to him whine about an ex girlfriend who cheated on him, and cried during the entire conversation. The ones who hoped he would realize that he deserved better, that he deserved us. When he said that he loved you, but he was in love with her, he didn't mean it. This is for the ones that held on to something that was never there to begin with. This is for us girls, who somehow managed to get him to forget about her, and get him to tell us that he was in love with us again, only to have him tell us three weeks later that "things were going too fast, he needs time." Here's to the girls who couldn't cry to their friends because of how stupid they felt. The ones who held it all in when things came crumbling to pieces again. This is for the ones who couldn't bear to even tell their mom what was going on, for fear of an "I told you so." The ones that could just tell that they had made a mistake ever allowing him into their hearts, and their dreams again. We knew that we deserved better the entire time that we deserved a guy who would call when he said he was going to, one that would come see us whenever he got the chance, one that would really care about us. We just wanted the one that we loved like that. Here's for the ones that FINALLY realized that he never gave a crap about them. Here's for the time that he broke your heart again. This is for those days spent trying to hold back the tears, and the tears that turned into anger, then disappointment. Here's for us girls who finally realized that we deserve better. This is for those confusing days, when you miss him, and want nothing more than to hear his voice, or feel his arms around your waist. Stay strong, and remember that relationships are like broken glass, sometimes it's better to leave it alone rather than try to put the pieces back together and get hurt. Remember the times you cried, and how long it took you to even be able to look at another guy like that. When "your song" comes on the radio, turn the station. When the day comes that he realizes what a mistake he made and tries calling, turn your phone off. When he tries coming to your house, don't answer the door. Think of the broken promises, and the lies, the manipulation and the tears, the wasted moments and staying up all night wondering where the crap he was. Think of how your heart used to jump when your phone would vibrate in the middle of the night, and how it fell to your stomach when you saw it wasn't him, and realized that once again, he hadn't called when he said he was going to. One day, you'll find a guy whose worth all the tears, but he won't make you cry. You may think that you'll never care about someone like you did that guy that you always ran back to, but you will. It's gonna hurt like crap, and it's going to need time to heal, but the point is, it will heal. This is for those girls, who fell back in love with a guy, only to get hurt all over again.

it's so frustrating to always be the last thing on your mind.

You want everything to stay
the same until you're ready for it
to change. But you can't do that.
You can't expect the whole world
to stand still until you're ready.

Sometimes things happen.
Things happen even when you
don't intend them to happen.
Maybe at the beginning you had
good intentions, or no intentions,
or intentions you thought were
harmless.But before you knew it
things got out of your control.

I love it when someone
insults me. That means that I
don't have to be nice anymore.
-- Billy Idol

No picnics or unguarded smiles. No rings. Just stolen moments that leave too quickly.

Because sometimes you have to
step outside the person you've been and
remember the person you were meant to be.
The person you wanted to be. The person you are

I need a reason
to stay here. I need
a reason to wake
up and not care
that it's raining.

It's not his fault
you're so fabulous
he can't think
about anything else.
~ Gilmore Girls

What hurts more?
Thinking you should hate him
or knowing that you don't

It's nights like this I feel alive. When every sentence we make is a promise. Holding our arms up to the sky, like every breath we're taking is perfect.

i'm sharing a drink with a memory,
and a laugh with an empty seat.
do you still look the same ?
cause i know that i don't.

so i know you all hate me right now. but i have a very good excuse for not updating.

i have a nice, long entry. however, my mouse is being mega gay, i need to get it new batteries. it's just not up to constantly copying and pasting, and i don't have the patience to deal with it. it'll be soonsoon though.

i'm sorry =[=[

Omg! I am the biggest bitch in the world for not updating as i promised. don't hate me guys! first i was just too lazy, then my computer crashed and took all my quotes and pictures with it :[[

But you'll get one soon, swear!

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goodbyes make you think. they make you realize what you have, what you've lost, and what you've taken for granted.

on the outside, you're not the same kid anymore.
you've been through too much lately.
but deep down, there will always be a part of you that rejects reality.

Someday I'll find a way to show you
just how lucky I am to know you.

friends are God's way of
apologizing to us for our families.

we don't like what we don't understand. in fact, it scares us.
beauty and the beast

You broke my heart. And you acted like somehow it was my fault, my misunderstanding, and I was too in love with you to ever be mad at you, so I just punished myself.

I understand feeling as small and as insignificant as humanly possible. And how it can actually ache in places you didn't know you had inside you. And it doesn't matter how many new haircuts you get, or gyms you join, or how many glasses of chardonnay you drink with your girlfriends... you still go to bed every night going over every detail and wonder what you did wrong or how you could have misunderstood. And how in the hell for that brief moment you could think that you were that happy. And sometimes you can even convince yourself that he'll see the light and show up at your door. And after all that, however long all that may be, you'll go somewhere new. And you'll meet people who make you feel worthwhile again. And little pieces of your soul will finally come back. And all that fuzzy stuff, those years of your life that you wasted, that will eventually begin to fade.

when you can't quite match your clothes
or when you laugh at your own jokes
thats when I love you.

"Laughter is timeless, imagination has no age, and dreams are forever."
Walt Disney

I think the worst feeling,
is being forgotten about,
by someone you will never forget.

i love everything you are
and everything you're not.

They should name a gender after you.
Looking at you doesn't do it, staring is the only way that makes sense.
And trying not to blink so you don't miss anything.

 Spanglish

Ahh! You guys, i'm so sorry that i haven't updated in like, a million years. But it's summer, and i've been really busy doing nothing, or otherwise too damn lazy.

The best you can hope for is a update around the beginning of school, i'll probably need to blow off some steam.

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