tap - tap - tap. the rapid beat of fingers on the desk, pointer - middle - ring. unconciously they imitate the tick of the clock, of which she herself is very concious. the math homework in front of her is unfamiliar, alien. she know what a directrix is, but only in words. its definition cannot be plugged into an equation, and she lacks the concentration to derive its application. silently she looks up and contemplates her reflection in the face of a small clock on her desk. the second hand moves steadily, mockingly, around her face. "what impatience!" it seems to jeer. she smiles. how childish of her, she thinks, to exhibit such lack of composure. but no one is watching, and she is glad that there is still childishness left in her to be exhibited, at least in private. she laughs softly, and thinks that in him, too, there is childishness, and it makes her infinetly thankful for the immaturity of men. her lips curve, and, resigned, she pushes aside her homework and glances out the window. her fingers resume their steady drumming on the smooth surface of the desk. she waits, impatiently.

inspired by 3 people, one of whom teases, the other who pushes me to write, and the third who wonders who the hell i am. thanks.

APS ARE OVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEER!!!!!

take that! >)

EDIT: testing...

hope you like one of em, sash...

...i added the canadian accent to my list ^_~

changed the song...

this one is for someone who probably doesnt even read this anymore. and if he does, this music is too girly for him. and if, by some miracle of the Lady, he stops to listen... i dont think hell hear the words. but if he does, if you do... this is for you. i was singing it in chorus today, and i thought of you. i love you.

well, AP exams in a week. funfunfun. must go kill self with studying. ^_~

peace out. <3

*hugs zaxi*

i r there for ya. dont hesitate to call. ^_^

my birthday started less than 1 1/2 hours ago, and im already rich. i got my very first happy birthday at exactly 12AM, by the atomic clock, on the dot. Thank you brandon! <333 my very first birthday card from dustie (yea so it was an ecard, so what? =P) and my very first birthday kiss from him, too. =O thanks dustie <33. thanks to brandon, dustie, scott, jessica, and joaquin (<33) for the happy birthday wishes. i love you all. ^__^

i just got off webcam with dustie... why is it that when we get on that thing, neither of us can stop smiling like friggin morons? meh. he has such a pretty smile.

anyway, yesterday was an awesome day and today is gonna be even better. im totally elated right now.

i guess i should give a sober speech about growing up, but... i cant do it. i guess im not mature enough for this kind of thing. i look around at all the people and some of them disgust me, some fascinate me, some i hold in contempt and some fill me with pride. i lost my train of thought. oh well. fallen off the mental trolley, eh? your mind is such a terrible thing to lose at such a young age, as Hornish said....

my birthday wish to you?

may you all lose your mind sometimes. may you feel... alive.