so i went back and read most of my xanga entries.. my grammar has improved.. haha...boy did i write like shit in high school. no wonder i failed so many of my papers.. in fact, my writing probably still sucks, but at least it won't be judged anymore. (no more english classes). i've come to realize what a realist i'm not.. i have so many spontaneous moments and ideas that i never go through with. wanting to be a doctor and a lawyer..sure they're great pipe-dreams, but i doubt those plans will ever unfold. i forget about all the real world constraints on my dreams. consequently, i'll probably end up working right out of college and should therefore prepare myself for that course. money and a deep hatred for reading long works will probably render any ambition i have of becoming a lawyer futile. also, i wanted to post some things that i should probably work on. self-pity is ridiculous. think before you speak. base both of the latter actions upon principle. don't be flaky. speak the truth. no sugar-coating facts. don't live in ignorance of being ignorant. those are some things i noticed a lot from my posts. i'm also gonna start writing about my days and weeks b/c it's always fun to look back and read about what you've done; so here it goes: wave running was very fun, though it caused me to miss my grandfather's dinner. i got a huge suntan and looked like a clown for awhile, but at least it was fun. austin was relaxing.. sometime to get away from school. driving home in pouring rain wasn't as fun. the astros put on a great run that ended in disappointment. the rocket's should have an amazing season this year.. at least it looks that way on paper. bonzi wells has made me very excited for this upcoming season. i'm actually keeping up with most of my homework, although i'm not doing as well as i thought i would if i did. looks like my goal of straight A's is slowly dwindling away. that's pretty disappointing because i always thought that if i gave the effort, i could do extremely well. so far, this hypothesis isn't fairing too well. i'm not doing bad... but.. i'm not doing great.. and i got a 76 on a test i studied and read every chapter for.. that's never happened.. i hope it's just because i studied it wrong... or some other detail that can be adjusted.. i need to get at least a B+ in that class. oh yeah, i made up that dinner i missed by taking my grandpa out to lunch the following tuesday.. for some fish at an indian run place.. costs 24 bucks, which is ridiculously expensive for fried fish and grilled salmon, but it was damn good. the drive to clear lake sucks. write more later. tired. | 
