If You Worry About Me...

I guess you wonder where I've been
I searched to find the love within
I came back to let you know
Got a thing for you
And I can't let go

My friends wonder what is wrong with me
Well I'm in a daze from your love you see
I came back to let you know
Got a thing for you
And I can't let go

And though I only want the best it's true
I can't believe the things I do for you

What you won't do, do for love
You've tried everything
But you won't give up
In my world only you
Make me do for love
What I would not do

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Name: Sharde
Country: United States
State: Maryland
Metro: PG County
Birthday: 4/8/1990
Gender: Female


Interests: pimp stikk, california ice tea, jay-z, tye-tye, mi hubby, jamezz, tha greek, hydro green, woodz, mi lil sekksey biscuit, bennlee, trisser
Expertise: hey papi, lil sippy cup (cuz i'm on stage 2), my hunney, jailbait, shay ((my offspring)), pimp stikk ((again))


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Sunday, June 19, 2005

Ha...had to make sure you hoes knew i was still alive...here, i watched Def Poetry Jam last night and it inspired me to write this...its called
The Alley i Always Encourage

One of my favorite niggas in the country
Tries so hard to do rightcheous things for the people around us
That it makes me feel his struggling when
His peers stare at him too long after he's made
A respectful point based on his own opinion
But I'm still proud to say I push him

My job concerning him is not to sell him any hydro-green
Nor is it to condone his habits of hanging around whores
That want nothing to do with him unless he's using
Hands or fingers because his crotch is reserved by he, for me
Don't allow yourself to believe that I am
Only a big fan of his that appreciates his voice and professions
See that small smile keeps me in check, I'm calm
You could do the same for yourself
If you'd let your heart down for someone else
And then again,
I could be the last of an old group
The dying persona that still knows what care could do
And bother to practice it, evan try to stretch it

I push one of my favorite niggas in the country
Each of the several times in one day I talk to him
Not to stop getting his ideas, opinions and anger or passion
Out there to everyone else
I feel that
Almost all that he says, everybody should hear
I push him all the times
So that whether or not his body is here
The effects of my mind will always be there
(Now point to your heart)
                                                                             June 18, 2005


Wednesday, May 25, 2005


Blug...bored 2 death...figure i'd break this s.n. in and do one of these thing...hasn't everybody at one point? who types these up anyway? not the point!!! point is this...

Y.O.U

.:x:.watz ur real name?: Sharde Blue

.:x:.but wat do they all call yah?:  Blue, Boo Kitty, Bumpkin, Big Sister, Hostile, Napoleon, Shiny, Mami

.:x:.how old are u?: 14

.:x:.wat is ur sign?: Aries....WOOO

.:x:.when`s ur b*day?: April 8 

.:x:.got any brother`s or sister`s? how many?: One lil brother...my lil fatty

.:x:.petz?:  i used to have two hermit crabs...but my friends killed them...BOOSTERDS

F A V O R i T E

.:x:.food: oh...steak or twix

.:x:.color: shades of blue

.:x:.season: fall liiiiiike...haha

.:x:.day of the week: i used to love thursdays before i got my class schedual...i like wednesdays...its the bridge betweeen the beginning and end of another week 

.:x:.flava: uhm...i like pineapple or milk chocolate...or cinnamon on my cofee

.:x:.shampoo: some crazy....garnier frutis stuff...smells good for to my lover to enjoy

.:x:.snack: any and all chips or oatmeal

.:x:.smiley: (oO)...haha...big eyes 

        A R e  YoU...

.:x:.tired?: yea...after a full day of activities i go home (or wherever else i'm at) and lay down...sleep...especially at keya's house

.:x:.bored esialy?: i make my own fun...

.:x:.sporty or a jock?: neither yo

.:x:.fun to be around?: yeah, if i'm not all bagoosh (bagoosh (n.) emotionally down)

.:x:.an honest person?: oh yeah...what's the point in lying? lying is for cowards

.:x:.loyal to ur bf//gf even if u dont got one at tha time?: uhm...no comment....i might hurt someone's feelings?

.:x:.a slut?: haha...maybe kinda sorta at times but who's counting...*nervous cough*

.:x:. popular?: yeah, yo. i got mad clout dun-dun...haha

     D O u  W A N N A. . .

.:x:. have kidz?: yea...three...one girl, two boys

.:x:. get married?: some day...hopefully i'll figure out which one is worthy by then

.:x:.get a good paying job? or would u rather have a job that dint pay as well but u really love?: a good paying job that i love

.:x:.tell someone u love them that u havnt?: it's just that idon't want to put that weight on such a good relationship...you see what i'm sayin?

.:x:.if u get married do u wanna stay married?: yeah..that'd be too much to deal with

.:x:.were do u wanna live when u get old?: on some little mild-weathered place like italy...where there's plenty of good music to die to

.:x:.have petz?: more hermit crabs yayayayaya!!!!

    W H O ` z  T H E  L A S T  P E R S O n  T hA T..

.:x:.IMed u: n/a
.:x:.u IMed: n/a
.:x:.u saw: my mom
.:x:.called u: maurice
.:x:.u called: keya
.:x:.u hugged: donovon..but that was like two days ago yo
.:x:.u shared a drink with: monique today in class
.:x:.u went swimming with: wow...last summer like
.:x:.u saw a picture of: orangutans...mr. adams showed me them...haha its all a conspiracy...
.:x:.u heard: my mom laughing like an idiot...loser
.:x:.went shopping with: keya and some other nameless girls
.:x:.broke ur heart: matthew was the last one to break my heart...damn
.:x:.u fell in love with: you make it seem like i fall in love all the time...the last person i fell in love with was donovon....okay???!!!

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[xx] About You! [xx]

[x] What is your full name? Sharde Marie Virginia Blue
[x] When were you born? Monday, April 8th, 1991
[x] What state do you live in? Murdaland
[x] What state do you want to live in? I'm fine here...i love it here
[x] What are your bad habits? i swear alot...i'm very emotional...i guess fighting is a bad habit..i'm kinda reckless (you know what i mean)...i'm really boy crazy, which doesn't do well for my emotions...i blink too hard sometimes....i ask alot of question....i WORRY TOO MUCH
[x] How tall are you? 5'4
[x] What color eyes do you have? i've hear dark brown
[x] What color hair do you have? reddish brown (you've heard that sunlight hits it shit before, right?)

[xx] What To Wear [xx]

[x] What name brands do you wear? Rocawear (YEAH) I love Kate purses...BCBG Maxzaria...Rocawear again
[x] Do you shop for clothes at Wal*Mart sometimes? All the time......sike you must be out your damn mind
[x] What jewlery do you wear, if any? i love bracelets, necklaces, rings...i don't wear earrings often

[xx] What To Eat [xx]

[x] What food can you not live without? steak, ceaser salads, oatmeal...yum, oatmeal
[x] What is your favorite hot dog condiment? lots of mustard and a little bit of ketchup
[x] What cereal do you normally eat? reeses for breakfast...fruit loops
[x] What's your favorite fast food place? Blimpie's, Panda Express
[x] What's your favorite sit down resturant? The D.C. Chop House

[xx] Friends [xx]
[x] Who has the biggest mouth? If Natalia don't...
[x] Who is the quiet mouse? None of my friends are quiet...loud hethens
[x] Who would bail you out of jail in a heartbeat? Maurice, Keya, Chris, Portia (wouldn't last a day) Rim, Larry, Peanut (wouldn't last 10 minutes)
[x] Would you ever date one of your best friends? nope, i don't have any sexual desires for my friends because we get rid of our sexual tension in a joking matter (i.e. we jump all over eachother and hump til we collaspe)
[x] Which one have you known the longest? Keya

[xx] Music [xx]
[x] What's your favorite song of all time? "Do For Love" Tupac
[x] What's your favorite love song? "Song Cry" Jay-Z
[x] What's your favorite hate song? "On The Run" Mobb Deep
[x] Rock or rap? I don't listen to rap...i listen to hip-hop

[xx] Movies [xx]
[x] What's your favorite movie genre? Drama
[x] Who is your favorite actor? Tupac Shakur
[x] Who is your favorite actress? Sarah Jessica Parker (my idol)
[x] What is your favorite movie of '04? Endless Sunshine ofthe Spotless Mind
[x] Do you wish to be an actress/actor? nope...naw...can't say that i do

[xx] All Grown Up [xx]

[x] Do you want to get married? yes
[x] If yes, to whom? i've narrowed it down to two choices...and we'll see where we are in 9 years when i het pregnant by one of them
[x] Do you want to have kids? yea
[x] If yes, how many? 3
[x] What will their names be? Sean Keats (last name), Dante (father's name) (last Name) and Sky (dad's choice) (last name)
[x] What do you wish to do when you get older? a writer...i want to publish my poems and then be a journalist for a music-driven magazine
[x] And the most famous question... Do you want to be famous? no,  i'll pass


Monday, May 23, 2005

i'm being unrealistic...me & britt kinda talked about it last week..he's become more or less a convinience...but i'm being treated like a play, like verybody's watching...oh, what's she going to do next...to be honest, tho, me and C.I.T might think and pretend and act and speak as if we're going to happen again, but most likely we're not...things have gotten too weird to progress...

that other character tho...the one i talk to daily (haha)...my HOME SKILLET...i was talking to him about how i just want to settle down and be stable...
me--yeah, its  like i want to really settle down with one person. i've gotten bored with having like 3 or 4 dudes in rotation...buh you don't wanna hear about that
him--yeah, i do. i'm inter-rested.
me--nah...
him--go ahead, tell me. i wanna know
me--i just want to settle down
him--have you tried it?
me--yea, a couple of time
and then his mom had to use the phone...grr!!! but i like that...he's really decent towards his mom...i respect his mom alot and she likes me...i told him about it today...its like she's by herself, taking care of a house of 3 teenagers and they've all come out decent and with plenty of sense, even if they don't show it all the time (haha)...but yea, i really admire her...he told his mom i said that...she said i'm sweet and she likes me...i feel *shiny*

i also spent some time wit mi hubby today...but he wasn't exactly sober so i couldn't go far...he just kept saying he missed me...then we listened to his cousin curse out his girlfriend...i had to stop him, tho...he went too far...called her out of her name...i hate that...

talked to chris for like a second...hopefully i can get me, him, jailbait and pimp stikk over here this weekend...spontaneous pool party...have to bring arial and keya too while i'm at it...goody...

told biscuit how much the breakup affected me...he didn't know what to do about me...just was like "i'm sorry. i wasn't ready"...i know that...he has no hard feelings but i'm not comfortable talking to him...he called me three times afterwards tho...wait--four...

talked to keya to...

i'm probably boring you all to death...geesh, my web-page is starting to look like my poem book, all full of those characters...

((by the way, those characters is the term i use for males that i have zsa zsa zsu for))
(((zsa zsa zsu is the wooshy feeling you get when you're around somebody you're in whoosh with...i love that crazy feeling...it shakes me up)))


Friday, May 20, 2005

my first heartbreak
the kind that you still cry about when nobody's looking
months and months after it happened
the kind of tears that fall over all the poems you've written about
when you go back to that box you keep your memories in
in desperation to cry your heart out this last time
maybe tomorrow i'll be fine...

but it never gets better
the kind of heartbreak that makes your old boyfriends
(newfound best friends)
want to break his face for making you like this
the kind of heartbreak that makes you avaoid his eye contact at school
because too much of that will make your eyes water
and who wants to give them that satisfaction

that first heartbreak,
the second love of your life
(the one that will never work out)
the heartbreak that leaves you in agony at night
the one when you go to the bathroom to clean your eyes out
and you jump at the sight of your face
what a sight
its all red, its almost scary to see so much sorrow that you can touch

the heartbreak that he'll never acknowledge
unless you burst into tears and fall onto him
the way you've wanted to since the first time you had friction
the kind where you'd wish he'd hug you and forgive himself
for making you feel like this but
what are the odds of that happening

i miss him every day
i only wonder why i cry for him
all he ever did was hurt me,
and never said he was sorry
all he did was hurt me but i cried
i cried, i cried, i cried the day of out goodbye.
my very first heartbreak
the kind that you'll cry about when you tell your
daughter about it

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