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| loving thisi have been dating this amazing guy for a month now, and i am sooo happy!!! i no it hasnt been very long, but we both have a really good feeling about this relationship. its a little wierd for me because his mom works at our school, and taught me in grade 8. but its all good. lol yesterday i was at his house, and his mom was in the kitchen, and he grabbed the cat toy (feathers on the end of wire, attched to a plastic handle) and started tickling me with it, then it turned into a like a wrestling match on the couch lol. but it wasnt fair because he was laying down and had his legs wraped around me so i couldnt get away. it was pretty fun, and his mum was laughing at us lol. but anyways just thought i'd say a little something, since i havent been on here in a while | | |
|  <- my baby! Milo aka Toast
 <- Yamaha
 <- lady and max  <- my other baby! Rain
![karens_pictures_049[1]](http://x31.xanga.com/55ac06f142330162705657/z122632111.jpg) <- pongo
those are jsut some of our pups/doggies! lol  
   
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| Devon <3alrighty, so yesterday Devon Died. Devon graduated from my highschool last year, after fighting cancer for a year and a half, his body had, had enough. Its hard to say goodbye, and no one ever wants to do it, but as sad it is. To know that he wot have to have any more needles. His family wont have anymore sleepless nights, sitting next to a hospital bed, watching their loved one, who is barely hanging on. Not many people can go through cancer,go through all the pain, and the thought that they could die anyday now. And still have a smile everyday, or try and help their friends out when they are having a bad day, knowing that you have to leave that night to go for more kemo. Not many people could do that, and you did. You showed a community that theres more to life than what we see everyday. Devon you brought this town to its knees. You brought people together who otherwise would have never. For that we are all grateful. We all would have loved to see you and kyla get married, you two were truely in love, a love like no other ive seen. You are our guardian angel, it wasnt fair that you were taken away so soon, a life barely lived. But for the time you were here, you tried to make the most of it. Living one day at a time, having no idea wat the next would bring. Everyone who knew you is truely blessed, And its a shame for the people who wil never get that chance. I did not know you well or for long, but in the amount of time i did know you, you touched my life in ways no other has. Your strength and determination has taught so many of us, that no matter wat happens you can and should always get rite back up. I only wish you had the same impact on everyone without having to go through any of this. You are in a much better place, watchin over all of us, please guide us, in the right direction. We will see you another day, but till we join you. I want you to know, that you, and your family will always be in our prayers,thoughts, and hearts. Have fun dirtbiking in the clouds, just becareful of those ditches :P...... R.I.P Devon Bailey 12/07/2007 -never will be forgotten! <3!!!! | | |
| been awhileOk so me and ben have been going out for a month now, and everyone was right... he cheated on me.. it hurts so much, but i cant even think about breakin up with him. for a while now people have been telling me to break up with him because " hes a jerk, and i deserve someone better who wont hurt me " but not ebing with him hurts alot more.. it probly doesnt make sense, and i dont understand it either.. but idk i like him to much... i only have like 3 or 4 friends who are supporting me, all my other friends think i should get rid of him. and i cant do that. like the two of us have been through alot, and alot of it together, so its not so easy. and then the other day i was pissed off at life, took like 18 random pills, and blacked out... i told 2 ppl, 2 ppl i thought i could trust... so ben didnt tell anyone, he is disappointed in me( i had an addiction to them, and was alomost over it hadnt done it in over 2 monthes) and worried about me, and adam says that brandon just happened to read it wen he stole adams fone, but idk. so then brandon knows. and ididnt want him to no, cuz he cares to much and would freak on me... then him and adam are talkin bout and sumhow terri finds out.. and then brandon told lasondra.. and idk who else they told... and i mean lasondra and terri are like 2 of my closest friends and i was gunna tell em, but the guys got to em first.. but its like i told him not to tell anyone, and that kinda blew up in my face,, so im barely talkin to em now, and its killing both of em.. but they broke my trust.. i was liek wow a guy who cheated on me, i can almost trust more than 2 of my best friends.. and i no it sounds stupid rite.. i mean once a cheater always a cheater, but its like i no he feels real bad, and ive kinda said stuff to ensure he really does, and it has worked... im giving him this chance, if he screws around again idk wat im gunna do...    
 
    
 
    
   
 
     
     
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| randoms 1. Where were you at 3:02 AM this morning?
sleeping
2. How did you get the idea for your MySpace name?
i randomly came up with it one day.
3. What are you listening to right now?
someone talking about trains crashing into others
4. What color is your cell phone?
white and silver
5. Do you click on pop-ups?
no, i hate pop ups!
6. Do you own an iPod?
yes.
7. What was the first thing you thought this morning?
only one more day til ben leaves
8. Is the person you have a crush on older or younger than you?
older.
9. What did you do last night?
drank and hung out in town with friends
10. What do you hope to do this weekend?
Drink and have fun with friends
11. What are the last two digits of your cell phone number?
87.
12. What was the last thing that you had to eat?
pizza.
13. Who is the last person of the opposite sex that you hugged?
doug.
14. What was the last movie you watched?
Halloween town.
15. What do you dislike at the moment?
Rumours, my friends moving away, not living in town, not being with the guy.
16. What food are you craving?
french vanilla.
17. What did you dream last night?
That i convinced ben not to move and tony also stayed .
18. What's the last tv show you watched?
i'm watchingsum show about train wrecks.
19. What is your favorite piece of jewelry?
my skull necklace.
20. Name 1 person on your Top Friends who is most like you?
terri.
21. Do you always lock your door?
no lock.
23. Are you on any medication?
no.....
24. Do you like someone?
yes.
26. What is your favorite frozen treat?
idk.
27. How many piercings/tattoos do you have?
ears x 8, eyebrow and nose.
28. Wheres your favorite place to be?
With my friends, doesnt matter where we are.
30. Who's someone you haven't seen in a while and miss?
TONY!!!!!.
31. When was the last text you sent?
like half hour ago.
32. Do you care what people think about you?
sometimes. but not really.
33. Have you ever done something to make trouble?
yes.
34. Where do you wish you were right now?
in town, partying with my friends.
35. What is your font color on AIM/MSN?
black.
36. Where do you live?
British Columbia.
37. Have you ever moshed?
sorta.
39. Do you like the person who posted this last?
i don't know her.
40. Do you know their birthday?
no.
42. What words do you say a lot?
Fuck, shit, hell
43. What do you smell like right now?
cotton candy lol.
44. What is your favorite color?
red/black.
45. Do you like mustard?
no.
46. What do you tell yourself when times get hard?
it'll get better eventually, you just have to look for the good in everything.
47. Would you ever sky dive?
hell ya.
48. What color is your pillow case?
blue.
49. If you could say something to your ex what would it be?
i dont talk to him .
50. Who was the last persons stomach you saw?
theo.
51. Do you enjoy giving hugs?
yes.
52. Have you ever been to California?
no
53. What is the thing that you would most like to change about you?
if iwas lil taller but meh.
53. Did you ever think to yourself and wonder if you're really real?
ya.. kinda.
54. What celebrities do people say you look like?
ppl say i look like dof ppl.
55. Does it annoy you when someone says they'll call but don't?
yes.
56. Are you a jealous person?
not usually.
58. What was the last thing you typed?
not usually.
59. Do you ever feel guilty about eating meat?
sometimes.
60. How old were you when you had your first boyfriend/girlfriend?
twelve i think or thriteen i was grade 6 lol. 
have you ever made out with somone? Yes of the same sex? kissed but not made out with Someone you weren't in a relationship with?: yes.
Have you done anything that qualifies as 'almost sex'?: possibly.
Have you lost your virginity?: no.
To both genders?: no.
Had sex in a public place?: no.
Have you cheated on someone?: no.
Been cheated on?: not that i know of.
Looked at/bought/DL'd/watched porn?: yes.
Do you take birth control/carry condoms around?: no.
TOTAL SO FAR: four.
Drugs
Have you smoked cigarettes more than once?: no.
Used weed or other natural substances, like shrooms or salvia?: Ya.
Used hard drugs?: no.
Used needle drugs or inhalants?: no.
Used prescription pills to get high?: yes.
Bought drugs?: ya.
Sold drugs?: no.
Introduced someone else to their first drug?: yes.
Overdosed?: no.
Been in rehab or in trouble with the law for drugs?: no.
TOTAL SO FAR: eight.
And...Rock N' Roll
Do you listen to hard rock, metal, punk, grunge or hardcore gangster rap?: yes.
Have you been to a real rock/metal/punk concert?: no.
Have you moshed, headbanged, or slam-danced, or do you often?: yes.
Are you or have you been in a rock/metal/punk band?: no.
Have you had complaints from neighbours for loud music?: no.
Do you rave, or have you been to one?: yes.
Does your music typically contain screaming or lots of profanity?: yea.
Does your music typically talk about anarchy, crime, suicide or drugs?: yes some.
TOTAL SO FAR: thirteen.
Smashed
Have you drank hard alcohol?: haha ya .
Do you drink often?: i did yesteday lol.
Have you taken shots?: ya.
Have you thrown up from drinking?: ya.
Have you passed out?: ya.
Have you played drinking games?: ya.
Was your first real drink before the age of 15?: yes.
Have you woken up not remembering the night before?: unfortunatly yes.
Have you done anything sexual while drunk that you wouldn't have sober?: unfortunatly yes
Have you ever paid a stranger to buy you booze?: no.
TOTAL SO FAR: 22.
Five-Finger Discounts & Mailbox Baseball
Have you shoplifted?: ya.
Have you gone joyriding or broken into someone's house?: no.
Used a fake ID?: no....
Have you done real graffiti (other than bathroom stall notes)?: ya.
Any other kind of vandalism, like mailbox baseball or breaking a window?: no.
Been naked or drunk (or both at once) in public?: ya.
Are you/have you been in a street gang?: no.
Packed a weapon?: no.
Caused a fire, car accident, or other dangerous situation?: no.
Ever been arrested?: no.
TOTAL SO FAR: 25.
A Disruption to Other Students
Have you failed a class?: yes.
Been suspended?: not yet.
Been expelled?: no.
Cut class?: haah ya.
Cussed out a teacher, humiliated/pranked them, or vandalised their stuff?: yea.
Stolen from someone's locker, or put something nasty in it?: ya.
Held or participated in a protest at school?: no.
Got into a fight at school?: gunna on monday.
Done drugs at school?: ya.
Deliberately offended or humiliated the principal?: no.
TOTAL SO FAR: 29.
She's Got A Septum Ring and Green Liberty Spikes
Have you gotten piercings in places other than the ears?: yea.
Have you dyed your hair unnatural or unusual colours?: yes.
Have you gotten any tattoos?: not yet.
Have you ever had a mohawk, dreads, liberty spikes, or other odd hairdos?: ya.
Have you ever cut your own hair or shaved your head?: ya.
Do you wear dark or unusual makeup? (or any makeup, if you're male): dark, yeah.
Do you wear any unusual accessories (like bunny ears, fangs, armwarmers)?: yes.
Do you ever dress slutty, gothy, punk, raver, gangsta, artsy, hippie, etc.?: yea
Do you usually sag your pants, wear chains or spikes, or wear all black?: ya.
Do you like to make or modify your own clothing?: not usually.
Do you break the school dress code often?: yeah.
TOTAL SO FAR: 38.
Shit Happens
Have you ever been in juvy or prison?: no.
Have you been the victim of a violent crime?: no.
Have you committed a violent crime?: no.
Have you ever almost died?: ya.
Do you have any mental illnesses?: no.
Is your family a dysfunctional mess?: sort of.
Have you attempted suicide?: yea.
Have you ever self-mutilated or had an eating disorder?: ya.
Have you ever had a substance habit?: yes
TOTAL SO FAR: 42.
We're Very Disappointed In You, Son
Ever snuck out of the house or snuck someone in?: yes.
Ever had a party while your parents were out?: sorta.
Ever steal from your parents?: ya.
Ever crash your parents' car?: almost.
Run away?: ya.
Been grounded for a month or more?: ya.
Been caught by your parents in the act of doing something illegal?: ya.
Been caught by your parents while doing anything intimate with someone?: ya Had a parent say you couldn't hang out with a certain person?: yes.
Had a parent toss (search) your room/backpack/car?: yea.
TOTAL SO FAR: 49.
Amateur Jackass
Ever skinnydipped?: ya.
Set something large on fire?: ya.
Stapled yourself?: ya.
Jumped into water with all your clothes on?: yes.
Played a well-planned, huge, public practical joke on someone?: yes.
Ridden or raced in shopping carts?: yes.
Streaked?: ya.
Danced on a table Coyote Ugly style?: ya.
Stayed up for two or more nights in a row on purpose?: ya.
Set off illegal fireworks?: yes.
Made mass amounts of prank calls at once?: yes.
TOTAL SO FAR: 61.
Find your score:
0% - 10%: Impossible. I'm surprised you're even old enough to read this.
11% - 20%: Pretty damn innocent. I say you need more internet exposure.
21% - 30%: Pretty sheltered...you go to church, right?
31% - 40%: OK, this is acceptable - you might still be young. Go party.
41% - 50%: You've played it a little safe, but still have a lot of fun.
51% - 60% - There we go, you're the average rebellious teen.
61% - 70%: You can party. Either that, or you just have lots of problems.
71% - 80%: You're experienced in the art of rebelling, that's for sure.
81% - 90%: Damn, you might actually wanna slow down...
91% - 100%: How on earth are you still alive? You've actually done it all. 
1. Whats the worst thing you've done in the past 2 weeks?
ummm idk lol
2. How often do you lie?
whenever i need to.
3. Do you consider yourself a good guy or a bad guy?
i dont no
4. Are you a pushover?
no.
5. When is it okay to cheat?
never.
6. When is it a good time to loose your virginty?
when you've found "the right one".
7. What time is it in Japan?
5:15.
8. Do you swear?
yes.
9. Are you sarcastic?
yes.
10. Whats your fav cuss word?
fuck, hell , shit
11. Are you a slut?
definitely not.
i just do things that i want to do.
12. What should you be doing right now?
homework prolly.
13. School?
is full of fucks, and is boring.
14. Emo girls?
idk.
15. How do you feel about gay guys?
i think they're hilarious and they make great friends.
16. How many people have you hit?
many
17. How many people have you made cry?
several.
18. Where is your cellphone?
in my pocket.
19. Are you good at giving head?
i don't know yet. :]
20. Are you the type of person people like to party with?
yes. :]
21. Whats bothering you right now?
my friends leaving, not being drunk rite now lol .
22. If you could be anywhere right now, where would you be?
with all my friends.
23. When is the last time you talked to your dad?
like 20 min ago.
24. Do you have any half siblings?
no.
25. Do you regret anything you did in the past month?
yes. 
WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON TO.. 1. SAY HELLO TO YOU? shay. 2. SAY GOOD BYE TO YOU? chantel. 3. SAY i LOVE YOU TO YOU? brandon. 4. GiVE YOU A HUG? doug. 5. GiVE YOU A KiSS? chris. 6. GiVE YOU A GiFT?umm idk?. 7. GiVE YOU A LECTURE? mr. davis in socials yesterday. 8. BUY YOU SOMETHiNG EXPENSiVE? my mom, probably. 9. BUY SOMETHiNG TO EAT? umm my dad?. 10. CALL YOUR CELL PHONE? tatjana. 11. CALL YOUR HOUSE PHONE? tatjana. 12. TEXT MESSAGE YOU? chantel. 13. EMAiL YOU? tim. 14. GO TO A MOViE WiTH YOU? hella people. 15. GO SHOPPiNG WiTH YOU? i can't remember. 16. GO TO LUNCH WiTH YOU? tat, melonie, and kyla. 17. GO TO DiNNER WiTH YOU? i can't remember. 18. SLEEP iN YOUR BED WiTH YOU? umm idk 19. iNViTE YOU TO THEiR HOUSE? shanteah. 20. DRiNK WiTH YOU? devin, ben,denis,april, chantil,minnie, cody, pete, chris, dani, and a whole lot more ppl lol. 21. WORK OUT WiTH YOU? i dont workout with others. 22. GO ON A DiET WiTH YOU? i've never been on a diet. 23. COMMENT YOUR MYSPACE? i don't know. 24. MESSAGE YOUR MYSPACE? i don't know. 25. BE iN A CAR WiTH YOU? my dad and bro. 26. BE iN YOUR HOUSE BESiDES YOUR FAMiLY? tat and her mom. 27. GiVE YOU A COMPLiMENT? divin or cody i dont rember. 28. HURT YOU? idk. 29. LOVE YOU? brandon says he does but ya idk. 30. MAKE YOU FALL iN LOVE WiTH THEM? no one. 31. THROW A PARTY THAT YOU WERE iNViTED TO? ben. 32. BETRAY YOU? i dont rember. 33. HAVE A BiRTHDAY PARTY? david. 34. MAKE YOUR HEART SPEED UP, AND SLOW DOWN AT THE SAME TiME? somone... . 35. MAKE YOU LAUGH? frick anyone who was drinking with us last nite lol . 
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