| i am struggling so much, i hate being at uni so much. my flatmates ignore me and redicule me. i had a panic attack last night and it scared me so much. i wish you could defer uni for a term! but obviously you cant... i am doing an essay right now and once it is done i may just pack up my bag, hand in my stuff at uni and deregister from my german class then go home means missing the last couple of days of classes but if i stay here i am sure i will cause myself too much harm anyway |
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| im feeling a little better after purging..just hope i will sleep soon |
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| i feel so alone with such bad thoughts in my head. really nasty thoughts that i do not want in my head but all i hear is 'failure'. i honestly dont know why i feel like this but i have such intense feeling of pain inside of me..almost sickening. i dont want to be here anymore, but where do i want to be? why does emotional pain cause physical pain? |
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| I feel so depressed and helpless and I just do not understand why. I should be calmer as I have one essay and one exam left which isnt too bad... But I feel so crap. x |
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What do you think? One of my flatmates changed the colours and contrasted the brightness - I love it! I wish I could change myself as easy as it is to change a picture... Oh and I got a 2:1 on my political theory coursework with the highest mark out of everyone! Whooooo go me xxx |
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