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read my profile sign my guestbook Name: Jen Birthday: 10/1/1974 Gender: Female Interests: Jewelry making, psychology, loving, getting out, ddr, feminist/humanist thought, tori amos music, other things i'm conveniently forgetting at the moment Occupation: Student Industry: Other Message: message me AIM: lunalov1 Member Since: 9/3/2004

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Friday, August 26, 2005

Currently Listening
Rumours
By Fleetwood Mac
Dreams
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I've been tagged by mnricecracker.

10 Years Ago: In 1995 at this time of year I was getting ready to start my first semester at Hamline University after having spent two unfruitful years, academically speaking, at UW-Madison. I was living with my parents and had just broken up with the boyfriend that I'd dated on and off since halfway through my senior year of high school.

5 Years Ago: At this time 5 years ago, D had just proposed to me. My car had just been fixed after a car accident I'd gotten into on the freeway (my fault, I didn't hit the brakes fast enough). I'm just starting to plan my wedding. I'm in the process of starting to apply to graduate school and really finding that my job is a dead end (AEI) for me.

1 Year Ago: I have finished three years of graduate school, have been married for three years, and have just past the one year anniversary of owning our house.

Yesterday: I napped, did grocery shopping, read some things for my dissertation, bought a magazine for my new interest which I'll be writing about soon, spoke with my friend Larakatya on the phone while she grocery shopped, and

Five snacks I enjoy: Currant Scones from Sconehenge, tomatoes w/ salt and pepper, half of an avocado with salt, chips and salsa, and chocolate chip cookies.

Five songs I know the words to: Hah, here we go! "Baby got back" by Sir Mix A Lot, "Possession" by Sarah McLachlan, "Humpty Dance" by Digital Underground, "Silent all these years" by Tori Amos, "Landslide" by Stevie Nicks/Fleetwood Mac. There are more but really with all of them I still fumble over certain words in the songs.

Five things I would do with 100 Millions Dollars: Contribute to some well worthy causes (which caused would be determined if i ever came across that much money), explore the world, build a house of my dreams in Minneapolis, send D to grad school for whatever he wants to do or tell him to quit his job, invest the rest so we can live off of it. Aren't I selfish?

Five places I would run away to: Hawaii (Maui to be exact), Minneapolis,

Five things I would never wear: Huh, a jock strap, a

Five favorite TV shows: Law & Order SVU, Law & Order CI, Futurama, Oz, and Mind of Mencia.

Five bad habits: Procrastination, picking my skin (pimples and such), the occasional smoke, not exercising enough, not eating very well (that's changing, though).

Five biggest joys: Spending time with my family and chosen family, making love to D, producing a piece of jewelry that earns praise or is purchased by someone and adored, helping someone heal emotionally, dancing. Oh, I'm making it six...my kitty Ashley!

Five favorite toys: My jewelry making is a big "toy" so to speak, my iPod DDR, hmm....I'm blanking. I guess I don't have that many toys.

Five fictional characters I would date: I'm blanking on this one, guys. I'm not too caught up in fiction, I guess. Huh...

I second mnricecracker's tag of larakatya. Do it on LJ! :)

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Tuesday, July 19, 2005

Currently Listening
Monkey Business
By Black Eyed Peas
Dum Diddly
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My own webdomain! I just picked out and registered my webdomain for my art. I only put a place holder there for the timebeing with one sample of my work that is also for sale at eBay.com. You can find the link for the eBay auction at my new website: www.prettythingsbyivy.com

I'm so excited!!! :)

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Friday, June 10, 2005

Currently Playing
X&Y
By Coldplay
what if
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i've officially received one request for manly jewelry, *nods at jc.* as soon as i finish a few more undenyingly feminine pieces i will certainly explore that option. i could make something that would include a large pendant attached to leather cord. i do hemp macrame from time to time. depending on the beads used they can look rather masculine. it's too bad i don't know how to do more extensive metal working or else i could totally attend to that request much sooner. i have ideas but no access to the skills to make what i'm imaging regarding metal work. hmmm...i will work on this and see what i come up with and update on this topic at a later date. favorite colors would be helpful, though...for those interested. :) or at least common wardrobe colors. ;)

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Monday, May 30, 2005

I haven't written anything here in coming up on 2 months. So, by way of an update, I have completed yet another year of jumped hoops on my way to someday getting a doctorate in psych. I should have my masters degree by now but...yeah, I uh...need to propose this dissertation first (ok, so I didn't jump that hoop). Most of those who know me know that the dissertation process up until now has been the bane of my existence. I hope to move it forward this summer. And I need to start putting some serious time and energy into it and not letting it beat up my confidence like I have already. Well, really it is me beating up my confidence but...yeah....anyway. Need to stop that self-defeating loop. ;) Passing a recent very important oral exam seems to have reassured me a bit. If I can do that, why couldn't I do the dissertation? If I could pass all the classes required of me in grad school, why couldn't I get this thing done? Yeah, there is no reason why I can't. Because, damnit, I can. I just have to set my mind to it and do it. Do it to it, if you will! ;) It doesn't mean it won't be difficult. But, I have to believe it can be done because if I don't believe in myself then it won't be done...

Just talked to my sis who is stuck in a major rut. I wish there was something I could do but I think that part of the problem is that everyone enables her belief that she can't cope by taking over for her, reinforcing her belief she can't do it on her own. Which, while it is nice to know everyone loves and supports you, she has other people make her better instead of her making her better. I overly reach out for help too, to the detriment of trusting my own coping mechanisms that I do have access to as well but conveniently forget I do. Anyway, I'm sad for her. I wish she were doing better. She's such a smart, beautiful, talented woman. I wish she could realize that and access it more readily and effectively.

What else? Oh, yeah, now I not only want to do this dissertation proposal thing. I also want to do this jewelry making biz. Put it together and get it going, that is. I've just started to make some new pieces. I completed one pair of earrings and am working on a necklace. In fact, I think I might go and work on the necklace for awhile right now! I've got time since my honey is still asleep. Hope everyone is doing well out there in Xanga land! Signing off...:)

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Friday, April 08, 2005

Currently Playing
Bring Me to Life / Farther Away
By Evanescence
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gah, i guess i never posted yesterday. i thought i had. so um, yeah, i have a new friend and he's so freaking cute i can't help but crush on him a bit. keep in mind i'm married and also keep in mind it is like the kind of crush you have when you are really excited about a new friend. he is quite adorable though, and really so is his girlfriend (rawr), so i'm keeping very close watch of it...lol...and just enjoying the buzz without judging it too much but also being realistic about it.

also, heh, silly me...i got my first sentence written for my lit review. not sure if i'm going to keep it but it's more than i've done in the past three weeks writing wise no matter how hard i tried.

in other news, i'm not feeling super homesick. i think partially that's due to having a couple of new friends, thank you new friends. *bows to the new friends* also, we have plans with some well appreciated friends we've gotten to know over the years that we really like but our schedules don't usually match. unfortunately those jerks are moving away in june, :(. so are my friends that live in my same town and my friend that lives close in oakland. these are my favorites around here. i have a couple of other new friends that i don't think are going anywhere for awhile but...yet, i don't know them as well.

most of my friends are moving because they have finished a certain amont of their training and so are moving on to the next step or just returning to where they came to the bay area from. it's sad but it is what it is. i can feel myself pushing all of them away...and this sucks too. i have been since as soon as i found out they weren't going to be around. luckily, one of them is just moving an hour and a half north but she is the one i am most conflicted about. so it's not like my fav couple is staying in state. bah! oh well...them are the breaks, i guess. i was in a really good mood when i started this...and i still am but now i'm feeling really sad too. *gulp*

i need to make more friends, darnit. maybe this summer i'll have more time to do that. i need to make this home for me, for my d. it just takes me so long to get to know people that...ugh. it's hard! and, the more people outside of my field propably the better...as long as they don't try to make me their therapist. which, i actually have to be careful of because i can't exhaust my emotional resources. my training does enough of that already...

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