i have been doing terrible ever since i got back from Europe.

 i just can't believe how fat i truely am.

i need some help from all of you. please let me know i can do it. i can make myself thin.

 please help once again.

ana love

hey wonderfuls

 i am home! yay!!

i can tell that i lost some weight while i was gone. but i gained some muscle also.

  my weight is now 134.

still gotta loose lots, i can do it!!

 europe was amazingly beautiful! i have to go back!

<33

ahh! europe tomorrow!!! i amm alll ready. and i am extremly tired too, so thats good! i can sleep on the plane! yay! lol

 today so far..

b-nothing
s- piece of gum- 5cals
l- diet coke and some chicken salad- 115cals
d- chipotle borrito & diet coek :(- 1,064

   total- 1184 :(

 ahh!! damnit im a fat assssss

i wont talk to you for about 17days. i am taking a journal with me to europe though to right down everything i eat!!

 wish me luck!

<33

i hope i do lots and LOTS better today.

 i feel like i gained 1237498372lbs yesterday. i probably did too.

 well.

b-donut- 50cals
l- noodles and bottle water- 120cals
s- diet coke- 0cals
s2- red bull & nuts- 360! AHHH!
d- subway & diet coke- 300cals
s- diet pepsi- 0cals

  total- 830

wow, fucking fat ass right here :(

 i am going to europe tuesday. i am totally going to binge or something while i am there.

 i will most likely take a journal for me to write everything down in that i eat while i am there.

 ahh!

wish me luck please!

 <33

im going to wichita today and tomorrow.

if i don't update, im sorry!

 i am going to try my hardest to not eat!

which is defanatly going to bed hard, my dad is fixing me the best dinner in the world... and i can't turn it down :(

 so far today i have had a diet coke!

<33 kellyy

:::: edit ::::

  okay so the rest of the day was fucking terrible. i am seriously going to cry because of how fat i feel right now. i ate way to much. i just kept stuffing my face! ahh!

 b-diet coke
 l- chips and diet coke- 300cals
 s- chips and fruit- 210cals
 d- noodles, mashed potatos, cherry's, and peach cobler- i dont even want to know how many cals. im to depressed right now.

 tomorrow i am not eating anything.

FUCK FOOD!