I was looking at some song lyrics and some of them make like NO sense. Like in Liz Phair's Why Can't I, she says "why can't I speak whenever I talk about you", well OK if she can't speak, then how is she talking about him? So technically she's at a loss of words. Or maybe she's THINKING about him. Who knows? And in John Mayer's No Such Thing, he says "Faded white hats", how does white fade? It's white, it's kinda already faded isn't it? White isn't fadable!

I was kinda remincing the other day about my past. I've done some pretty horrible things and I wonder, why the hell I did it? But I mean why dwell in the past you know? But I've spent so much time trying to impress and make up and justify myself to others who I've hurt or gotten some kinda impression of me. Then I stop to think....I have friends right now who know how I used to be and yet....their still here. I should be focusing on them rather then trying to live in the past, something I can no longer control. I'm so grateful and blessed to have super friends like I have. I mean who are the bigger people, those who've chose to judge or those who are still right here with me, knowing EXACTLY what and who I am. They are the people I should be impressing and giving my time to. Because they are what make my life so worth living, and at times the only reason.

Back from Big Bear today. Had fun playing foosball and pool with Peggy!!! She put the whole I love Peggy thingy up there, I SOOOOOOO don't . We had this ordeal at Sizzlers *wink wink* so k Peg, it's our little secret . Dood I wish I could've used the jacuzzi w/ the little rubber duckies, with the mummie and witto babies! I made blueberry muffins today! YUMMMY! SOOOOOOOO tired...should I take a nap? hmmmmm......I'll just go finish my muffins .

*SIGH* I'm here.....sitting....and John Mayer is gonna be playing at Staples Center.....in about 2 hours....and yea I'm here....here.....F#$%@& S***! Everyone thinks he's ugly. He's really smart and tall actually, I mean he may not be photogenic, but he's sexay with his guitar and his singing and writing .

I like Mary's batman better !!!!

PEGGY IS SICK !!!!!!! She's SARS infected . GET WELL SOON MY BANANA!!!! I went crazy shopping at Palm Springs sunday! Everything was so cheap! Had MUCHOZ fun. I'm getting into Hayden Christensen again not that I was ever out of him just a little more into John Mayer. I can't make out whether Hayden's eyes are green or blue. People say their blue, but when I look at all the pictures I have of him, their GREEN. So what the heck! But no worries, I'll have it figured out as soon as I can .

I wanna bunny. They look so CUUTTEE! And bunnyish! WITTO BUNNY WUNNY !!!!

John Mayer concert this Thursday....AHHH I wanna go.....To think I'll be in the same city and state as JOHN MAYER! ONE FREAKIN HOUR AWAY FROM JOHN MAYER!